Alright people who actually take time out of their days to read these darned things I have news.Woopie! Not really, it's kind of sucky news.So I have many new tidbits. Here they are:A) So if you have read my past blogs you would know that I was crushing over this guy at work. Now all was fine and dandy when he told me that he liked me too. Now that was a yay right? Well he was supposed to come...

Alright guys I have decided to turn my life around and leave the past behind.I am currently reading "The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens" for the third time.Yeah yeah, call me a nerd all you want, I embrace it.Anyways, I have decided that I can no longer go on feeling worthless, useless, depressed, and spending my time and energy with, and on, people that dont deserve it.I am trying my best to...

Alright, so as you may know Im totally crazy for a guy at work.Now I know that I flirt with him and joke around with him and all that but he confuses me.I've never been good at figuring out if a guy liked me back or not so Im not really sure what Im looking for.We joke around A LOT, like all the time everyday. We text pretty much all day, everyday. We spend all afternoon together. When we are...

Ok guys. Yeah I know I said I was feeling awesome yesterday but right now I'm totally not.I dont know if its because its almost "my time of the month" (sorry to the guys that had to read that :P) or if its just my super messed up moods but I feel like hell right now.I mean my life is going pretty good but I guess I kind of know some reasons why I might feel like this.1) Work is almost done. So, I...

The past few days have actually been pretty good days.I havent felt any of the darkness I usually feel and I have been writing a lot.I think Im finally getting past all that old drama that I never really dealt with, internally.I mean like yeah I resolved the issues with the specific people but I never got over the emotions myself, you know?I have actually been writing almost every day, well night...

Im so like all over the place. I dont even understand any of it.Like I like a guy at work, but I still kind of love my ex, then there's the girl at work that I think is super cute.Its just like a total mess, I dont even know.Its not even like I actually want a relationship anyways.I told myself I wasnt going to date after all the crap with my ex and here I am flirting it up and crushing on people....

I've had so much progress lately. With all my issues. I've started to see the light again. To get over all my hurt and pain. To move on from the things that were holding me back. I felt like I was taking all these steps forward, moving towards a better place in my life.It all sounds real great right? But thats the sugar coated version, and now I feel like Im taking 5 steps back.During all this...

Okay, so Im watching the first new episode of degrassi right now.It doesnt really matter if you know whats going on in the story because my feelings dont really have much to do with the whole story. I'll explain.So there is this girl, Clare, who was dating a guy named, Eli. A lot happened and they broke up and all that yada yada yada. So anyways, in this first episode they basically get back...

Alright fellow readers of this wonderful blog. I just have one thing to say.Are you really there?Is there really anyone out there keeping up with my blog posts, poems, or the brand new first chapter of my original story?...Now, I know I should be highly thankful for all of you, even though I dont really know how many of you there are. But, I only have one concern. And it is regarding my...

Do you ever just stand in the shower doing nothing? Just letting the water hit your skin almost like it’s washing away all the emotions, thoughts, and the bad that you’ve been feeling? Well I do. I know someone out there is probably thinking about how I’ve wasted all the water and yada yada yada but to be honest I don’t give a damn. I had a totally crap day and felt horrible. It started...

You all get headaches right? Well I do too, but I don't think it's the same.First I'll explain how it feels.It feels like consecutive bombs are blowing up in various places of my brain. It's like my brain is literally exploding inside my head. It doesn't come on subtly either. All of a sudden there is a war zone inside my head and I'm screaming inside. Screaming and wanting to hurt someone or...

It's so funny how my mood can change so drasically in such a short period of time.I woke up this morning in a terrible mood. I broke a glass bowl, got up late, and just generally felt like crap. When I got to work I really did not want to be there. One of my coworkers really pissed me off about the stupidest thing, then another one was being a jerk and saying shit to my friend and I. So my day...

Im seriously so done right now. Like everything is confusing and messy and nothing makes any sense to me anymore. I dont know what to do with myself. My mind is a mess and I dont feel like anything is worth it.I know no one really cares that much, no one really knows me anyways, but still. I hate the cliched "It gets better." "It cant be that bad" How would you know? Do you live inside my head? I...

So I talk to this guy on tumblr. And we talk because we have a lot in common and we have both been through a lot of things. So anyways his mood is like really low right now and he's talking about killing himself and its really scaring me.I want to help him so badly but I hardly know him. Im here for him as much as I can be but I dont know what to do. Like he's so lost and confused and feels like...

Ok so this is just me ranting away about life. I will probably do this a lot. Sorry if you dont like it.I've been wondering about things lately. Did life ever make sense? It seems like nothing is making sense and I dont know if it ever did to begin with. I cant remember the last tune life actually made sense. It scares me really. Like we're all going through life doing whatever, being happy or at...

Ok so I've been working for a couple of weeks now and there is this girl...Oh my gosh. Ok so I kind of have like a crush on her. But she doesnt know that Im bi and I dont know if she is or not.I want to tell her but Im so confused about how to do it and what to say.Im just like... crazy. She makes me really happy and makes me smile and makes me laugh but Im afraid of making things awkward between...