My Absence and Where I've Been

To everyone I know on here, and especially to those who read my stories.I'm so sorry I've been MIA for a couple of weeks. I went to visit my home town, and went through a lot of awful shit with my family. I don't wish to go into things as some already know what's been happening. I just wanted to let people know that I am sorry for vanishing for a couple of weeks. It's going to be a little while...
August 23rd, 2014 at 09:56pm

My Recommendation Blog Part 1

Okay so, I've been on this site a fair while now and I've never done a recommendation blog. So I thought I would do a few. The first one is going to be a selection of stories from the Fall Out Boy fan fiction, and other rec blogs will include original stories, other fan fictions, poems, articles, anything really. But like I said, this one if for the Fall Out Boy fan fiction as that's the subject I...
June 25th, 2014 at 08:35pm

UK government's ridiculous plans for schools.

Okay so first they want kids in formal, compulsory education until age 18, then they go on about a set formal curriculum for age 2 upwards, then they want to cut school holidays from 13 weeks a year to 7, and now the want school hours extended to be from 8/9am to 6pm.Luckily so far only the first of these is in place.I've been really vocal lately about my phobia of schools, and my Post Traumatic...
January 30th, 2014 at 10:20am

Struggling today

So, I had a flashback last night that's really knocked me back.I was just about okay with my son being in school, just about. Now, well I'm on the verge of doing something stupid. I hate myself, I send my son to hell five days a week, I have to watch as he goes into that building, and even though I know it's not my old school, I'm still yet to see it as his school not my old one. And everyone...
January 27th, 2014 at 02:07pm

Eight Months On...

Okay so, eight months ago, I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Since then, I've been going to see the doctor every four weeks, I've been going to see counsellors and therapists. I spend every Friday morning on the psych unit working with my therapist. So far, I can't help but feel like I've gotten somewhere, yet at the same time, I've not gotten anywhere.Okay so, for the most part...
January 16th, 2014 at 03:41pm

Lostprophets Ian Watkins has pleaded guilty

He was charged with I think 24 different charges and has admitted to near enough all of them, however he's changed rape to attempted rape. All I can say is I hope he gets locked up for life.Here's the BBC news reportLike I said, I hope he's locked up for life, and the fact that the mothers of the children were in on it makes it even more sickening. Speaking as a mother, I really cannot understand...
November 26th, 2013 at 10:22pm

What effect has the "big" storm had on other UK peoples?

I just thought I'd ask as the area where I live, from what I can see, nothing has happened. I live in the middle of the country side on top of a huge hill and looking out of my window, I can see no damage. Just normal storms seem to have more damage. Usually the power here goes out just like that in a storm, but it hasn't, we've still got it. looking down towards the thames, can't see any floods....
October 28th, 2013 at 09:07am

Fan Fiction and Original Fiction. (NOT a Rant)

I wanted to post this because lately, I've seen a lot of original fiction vs fan fiction blogs.The way I see things is, writing is a creative outlet. Be it through fanfiction, original fiction, stories based on true life, poems, lyrics; it's all a creative outlet. Somebody has taken the time to be creative and produce something. And you know what? I think that's great, I really do.I don't see why...
October 26th, 2013 at 09:58pm

Bullying, My Experience and the Effect It's Had

I just wanted to get this out. I've been holding it in so long but I want to get it out.I was happy in my first few years of childhood. Pre-school went great, I had amazing friends. Or at least I thought they were amazing. You see, when I started school when I was four years old, my first mistake was playing with the boys instead of the girls. I played Ninja Turtles and Thunderbirds and...
October 15th, 2013 at 03:40pm

Bad days, just a blip on the radar, right?

I think this day had been coming for a while. I crashed today, I crashed hard. I spent way longer with my psychologist than I was supposed to but she wasn't prepared to let me go. Why? Because I was suicidal. Since I've getting the right help, I haven't been this low too often. But today when I woke up, I could just feel it, and when I'm that low, there is just absolutely nothing that can pull me...
October 11th, 2013 at 09:25pm

Windows on the World 9/11

Windows on the World, was a complex of a bar and restaurants on the 106th and 107th floor of the north tower of the World Trade Center. In February 2001, when I was 14 years old, I went to New York City on a school trip. On one of the days, our teachers and guide took us to the mall beneath the WTC. As I had no friends there with me, I went round with the head teacher, his PA, my art teacher, and...
September 10th, 2013 at 01:48pm

Fighting that voice

I had a psychology appointment today. I was okay when I got there, I went in fine, went up to the second floor fine, got to the waiting room fine. The receptionist handed me the weekly questionnaire to fill out. I went to sit. There was one other person in the waiting room. I thought thats fine it's just one person, so I sat around the corner on the furtherst chair from him. Then a couple more...
August 9th, 2013 at 02:08am

My struggle

PTSD. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. It's the back bone of my mentality. When I went to school, I was bullied to the brink of suicide. I tried it, it didn't work. But it wasn't just bullying at school, this happened outside school, they made sure I couldn't leave my house. My dad even caught one person trying to break into my bedroom.For years, more than a decade, the right help hadn't been...
August 7th, 2013 at 12:18am

Sick of this so called life

Today has been a low day for me. I've been having a lot lately, but this one has stood out to me.I have been trying relentlessly to find paid work, but none ever comes, no one is looking to hire a single mother who can only do certain hours.Everybody looks at me, and they see a scrounger, they see a woman who is complete scum. She has a kid, is on her own, is on benefits. They see me as they see...
June 20th, 2013 at 07:22pm