I honestly feel so ashamed of my heritage right now. Recent events in Israel have gone way too far. You won't hear it about in the mainstream news, but there is a true, present danger of the radical right wing in Israel.If you don't know during the gay pride parade in Jerusalem on Thursday, six people were stabbed by Yishai Schlissel. Yishai Schlissel is a jewish extremist who is just as dangerous...

I don't think I can go on writing fan fiction about real people who object to stories being written about them or even keep my current stories up. After seeing how people react to other speculating about their relationship status, I feel conflicted morally. I was recently living with a large group of people doing volunteer work. A lot of people started speculating about and pressuring two people...

Trigger warning for explicit discussion of self-harm, drug (mis)use, and mental illness.Everyone thinks of cutting and burning as the maim methods of self-harm. Some include head banging, hitting oneself, and maybe even embedding in their definition. Most don’t include and/or understand overdosing without suicidal intent as a method of self-harm. I, myself, didn’t really comprehend what it...

I have been very sick for the past six weeks or so. I've seen three different doctors and still no one knows what's going on. It started with hives and minor GI symptoms then progressed to severe abdominal pain. I had to stay home for four days from school because I could not sit up longer than to eat or drink a little. I still can't lay on my back for long nor can I lay on stomach at all. The...

There are many types of pie in the world. In Britain they are hearty dinners. In the US they are mostly considered desserts. I happen to love pumpkin pie. Cherry pies are good too of they are not overly sweetened.Pizza is is probably the most universally known pie. I like my pizzas without cheese (I'm vegan in addition to having a food sensitivity to dairy) and covered in vegetables. My favorite...

I swear over the past few days (well, a week) every time I eat anything I break out in hives, get terrible cramps, get a headache, and feel nauseous for an hour. Sometimes I think I feel my lips and tongue swelling. Even with massive doses of benadryl and vistaril the hives haven't gone away. Not even steroid cream helped. I pretty sure I'm allergic to corn. The few prepackaged things I do get...

This is going to be a rant blog about stupid, annoying health issues, just a warning. Right now I don't want the think about having to take another pill. Currently I'm on six different medications. Three are for acne, two are for depression and anxiety, and one is for CRPS.If you've never heard of CRPS or Complex Regional Pain Syndrome, you're not alone. It used to be known as Reflex Sympathetic...

I realize it's been over a month since I updated any of my stories. It is not due to lack of trying. I have a lot in personal life that's been going. I lost my grandmother on my dad's side of the family in late July. Due to religion she was buried the day she died. I have very limited contact with my dad anyway and his side of the family live in Israel while I live in the US. Most of my friends...

I had an idea for doing a dom/fertile story with Motionless in White, Manic Street Preacher, Vampires Everywhere! (including Kuza) and maybe some other bands. If you've never heard of the Manic Street Preachers go check them out, especially their stuff from the early '90s. I was thinking of having all them as students in high school, possibly bringing in bands like Black Sabbath and Metallica as...

Closer is the story I probably update the least. There are several reasons for this. I am writing this because I think my readers deserve an explanation about why even if I say a chapter should be update it is not up till a few days later.For one it's an emotionally intense story to write. Writing about canings and whippings from a first person point of view is tough. A lot of the chapters are...

I've been think about this a lot in the past few days, especially with the big decision passed down from the US Supreme Court repealing the Defense of Marriage Act and said that the Prop 8 portion could not be ruled on because of improper representation. One of my closest friends happens to be in a polyamorous relationship. When I first met her she had a girlfriend. About a month ago they decided...

My updates might be a little slow this week into next week. My mom and I decided it was for the best that we sell our birds. They will be going to loving homes that will be able to take care of them. The larger of them has become too agressive and he can do serious damage. The smaller of the two just doesn't like me and never has. It is near impossible for me to take care of them without being...

So my mom has been suggesting we sell/re-home our birds. One is blue-fronted amazon and the other is a prince of wales parakeet. Recently the amazon has been biting me quite a bit, which is a problem because a) it hurts, b) it draws blood, and c) I don't need any more scars on my arms. My mom also finds it hard to give them attention. Since I'm on break from school, I usually spend a lot of time...

I realize in hindsight reading comments on the Loudwire cage match between Black Veil Brides and Motionless in White was probably a bad idea. They were beyond ridiculous. The one thing that stood out is how no one mentioned how Motionless in White was a gay band or something a long those lines even though Black Veil Brides got a few, less than normal. The thing that bugged me the most was how the...

I have no idea why the press is making such a big deal over what happened with Paris Jackson. Okay, she was rushed to the hospital; she is fine now. I don't know who told the press she cut herself, but I know I wouldn't broadcast on international television. Don't get me wrong about what I'm about to say, I don't mean to trivialize self-harm or suicide attempts. It was just a cut. We don't need to...

Judaism has always been a big part of my life from the time I was born. I am both ethniclly and religiously Jewish. From second through fifth grade I attended a Jewish day school, the worst experiences of my life happened there. I stood out a lot, even if we all wore uniforms. I was always the quiet kid. I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder in third grade. The main thing that school taught me...

Writing smut seems to be the hardest thing for me except spelling.I've only written slash. I'm not a guy, never have been, never will be. It's just that simple. It's hard to write about sensations you've never felt or write about actions you have never done. I just base everything about what is said to be felt.Secondly, being gay, as in liking only girls, makes the whole writing two guys thing is...

Quite frankly I'm tiered of this battle going on between people. It is bad enough you have people constantly saying shit about MIW, but then so-called fans start attacking other fans because they are "fake". It seems to have gotten better over the past few months, yet it could be because I've avoided YouTube comments. The whole thing is stupid. I mean, who has the right to say whose a "real" fan....