So I went back to the doctors today to get more blood tests done. I guess my chemo isn't working, and I don't know if I wanna keep on trying. If I do keep on doing it, then I'll most likely spend the rest of my life sick and in pain, and if I don't continue doing it, I'll die, but I won't be in as much pain. I don't really know what to do. I don't wanna keep living like this. I'm 14 years old, and...

Just a minute ago I read a journal that completely offended me. I don't want to start anything with any one, all I'm just trying to do is state my opinion.The person who wrote the journal I just read was complaining about how much it annoys her when people are "depressed". I agree with them to some extent, but most of it is bull shit.There are some people who are just whiney little brats, who spaz...

I have the worst writers block right now. I just tried to write a chapter to my story because I haven't written a chapter for it in a long time due to my writers block, and I stopped after maybe a sentence because it was so fucking frustrating. It's like I completely forgot how to write. This is probably the worst writers block I've ever had, because when I had it before at least I could still...

For those of you who don't know, I have cancer.I was just on the "Personal Questions" part of the forum, and I sort of have mixed feelings about one of the threads. It was about a girl, who had cancer, having a relapse. In a way I got a little bit excited when I read it, because now I know that there is someone on here that also has cancer. I feel really guilty about it because cancer is nothing I...

Yeah, this is my first journal entry.So about a week and a half ago, I found out that I have lukemia (cancer, for those of you who don't know) and that I have a 50% chance of making it to 15 (I'm almost 14). I've been in the hospital for about a week now recieving my first rounds of chemotherapy. The docters said that they're smaller doses because my body hase to get used to it first, but its...