My Bedroom Makes My Dysphoria Worse

I'm clearing out a lot of my stuff and it's kinda sad to see all this money go to waste. I want to get rid of all the make-up and perfume and girly things there are, they're just hurting me more. Everything I see how much girliness has been shoved down my throat over the years, I tear up. I'm wondering if my parents knew all along, and they tried to brainwash me away from it.My parents are putting...
October 18th, 2014 at 06:15pm

Transitioning Problems.

I know I won't be allowed to yet, and honestly, I think it would be best if I hang on for a while.I'm British, so I think I'll get hormones and surgeries free - if I go by the NHS. There are several problems with this:1. The Government will deny this, but waiting lists are very long. Gender Dysphoria isn't as serious as breast cancer, and I can see myself waiting months (and everytime it looks...
August 20th, 2014 at 03:19pm

Unfinished Fan Fiction

Is it just me who feels an urge to finish it? I've just read every single Smatkins on Mibba. Bit obsessed with I know. But so many are unfinished because of... Y'know... 'What happened'. But anyway.I'm super inspired to take all these fanfictions and finish them. Not post them online, but just have them on my computer so that I can read them and won't feel like I need completion. I know I'm guilty...
August 14th, 2014 at 02:01pm

100 Questions!

1:Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? - Closed.2:Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? - No3:Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? - Not quite sure what this means...4:Have you ever stolen a street sign before? - Not yet. University is fast approaching though.5:Do you like to use post-it notes? - Yes ^.^6:Do you cut out coupons but then never use...
August 7th, 2014 at 07:55pm

So I Came out to My Parents

Actually I did that weeks ago but anywhore I'm telling you now. They took it well-ish. The were kinda like 'oh well that's completly normal' and I don't think they've quite understood that I'm serious about this and I have plans and everything. I'm going shopping with my mum on friday and I think I'm gonna have to be super pushy and insist we buy clothes from the mens section. She's also insisting...
August 4th, 2014 at 05:29pm

Does Anyone Write Inception Fanfiction?

Like, specifically Eames/Arthur pairing? I've been obsessed with Inception for ages now and I know some people do write fics but the ones I could find were 100K+ long and as much as I admire people who write that my attention span when it comes to reading is awful. And I'd never read it.So if you know any Inception one-shots or short stories let me now, cause I'm always grateful for something good...
July 13th, 2014 at 08:04pm

My Worst Childhood Nightmare

When I was a kid, I loved this musical called Cats. I still do, clearly. (Mr Mistofelees and Rum Tum Tugger are gay for each other and there's nothing you can do to change that.)If you've seen Cats or read the Old Possum's Book of Practical Cats poem, you know who Macavity the Mystery Cat is. In case you don't:Sorry. Bit scary isn't he? I adored all the Jellicles, especially Mistofelees, all but...
June 15th, 2014 at 12:18am

I Literally Don't Care Anymore

It's taken me four days to convince myself that writing a blog about this good thing that just happened is a good idea, and that it is worth my time. Convincing myself that revising is a good idea and is worth my time, has sadly, not been as successful.I roleplay a lot online and I can't be bothered to reply. I can't be bothered to think of how to develop the roleplay. It's the same with my...
June 7th, 2014 at 10:24pm

New Story!

Yes, it's a Gustav Wood/OC thingy. Believe it or not, it's set in France like all my stories seem to be right now. Like seriously I have a trend here. It's called Follow the Setting Sun and I really hope you enjoy it. It's about nature and its beauty, but also its cruelty.So I really hope you enjoy it cause I'm hyped about it, and I'm gonna try and update quicker. Right now it doesn't have a...
May 6th, 2014 at 04:29pm

Mibba Month + New Stories

And I sadly can't take part. I have four exams this month and three next month. If they didn't count to anything, I'd be super hyped about this but seriously I need a B at least in science and right now I'm looking at a D. I need to buckle down and do some work. Taking part in Mibba Month will only give me an excuse to procrastinate (Which I'm doing right now btw stfu). I'd totally be stalking the...
May 3rd, 2014 at 12:30pm

You don't have to read this, but I really would appreciate it.

01:35am. I'm only putting that there so that when I look back on this in the morning, I realise how pathetic I am. I'm writing this early morning blog to tell non-existent friends the thing I can't tell my real friends.I just finished watching The Perks of Being a Wallflower. The book completly destroyed my life and now I don't know how okay I am anymore. I just feel so sorry for Charlie. I adore...
April 5th, 2014 at 02:50am

Updates

So there's loads of people who are worrying that they update too often. In my personal opinion, if you can update more than once a day, I applaud you. Like seriously I take months to update and it's kind of embarrassing. Okay this time I do really have an excuse cause I've been working for a French exam which is today incidentally. I like to think I reward the good things I do with writing, like...
April 3rd, 2014 at 09:35am

I have told three friends about my gender

And they all took it great! I'm super happy about that, because I know my parents won't accept me. My ex, Euan, actually said that if I tell them and I don't I'm always welcome round at his cause his family will always support me. It's good to have him on my side because he's the one I really care about the most of everyone on this planet. Kim and Hannah just seemed super excited. They didn't ask...
March 26th, 2014 at 10:00pm

Ovaries help?

I think the best way to explain what's going on is to explain what happened in February. I usually have mine towards the beginning of the month, like I was surprised by the secon of February and it hadn't started. On the 22nd, which is my birthday by the way, I was horribly shocked to start. I'd had the pain for like a week beforehand though. So questions 1: Is getting that pain early normal? So I...
March 19th, 2014 at 04:51pm

British Education - what do I do about this

December - our Physics teacher basically vanished. Everyone just assumed she was ill, because the same time a year before there was an outbreak of winter vomiting. Other teachers help us along with our *actual GCSE coursework* that was supposed to be completed in January.January - Spotted in school once. Crying to head of KS4. No one knows why.February - Gone. Comes back half way and says she can...
March 12th, 2014 at 04:48pm

New Story + Grimm

Yes, those two things are related.Does anyone write/read Grimm fan fiction? Cause I have this awesome idea that I really want to do, but I don't know if Grimm fan fiction is kind of taboo. So if anyone would be interested in Grimm fan fiction that won't be slash but still perfectly awesome, let me know.I should probably actually watch some more of Grimm before I start. I'm on Season 1 Episode...
March 8th, 2014 at 04:42pm

Give me your oneshots!

Hello.I'm supposed to make this a hundred words long aren't I? Geez. Well. Here we go.Dear Mibbians.I am taking part in the MM read - a - thon and would very much appreciate it if you could recommend me some oneshots to read. I don't mind how long or short. Preferably:All Time Low fan fictionsGreen Day fan fictionsPhan fictionsOriginal Fiction of any kindYoung Guns fan fictionThe Blackout fan...
March 3rd, 2014 at 05:13pm

Writers block.

Isn't it the most frustrating thing in the world? I just feel like crying because I know I can be great but right now I'm not. Nothing I write is good enough for posting, so I haven't updated since Christmas. And everything has been horrible. I've been sick and we've had really bad floods and storms and I've spent the last two nights crying over The Perks of Being a Wallflower. My ex boyfriend...
February 16th, 2014 at 10:28pm

Why I hate those stupid romantic films.

Here's a little rant, and if you like those sort of films I don't want your opinion. I've heard it enough today.1. Shit like that never fucking happens.Boy in army finds picture of girl. Boy in army subsequently doesn't die. Boy meets girl. Boy and girl fall in love. Girls fiance died because other boy survived. Sob sob. Obviously there's a happy ending. More sob sob.Really? I mean come on. Is...
February 14th, 2014 at 12:02am

Being as a transgender 'daddy's girl'

I woke up late this morning, having promised my dad I would be ready to leave at 10 o' clock. So I woke up late and wasn't ready and no one was in when I went looking.My dad recently bought a motorhome, and we don't know if we're going to be able to sell the old one. So we've got money problems right now.I'm in the kitchen when he gets home, and as soon as my little brother's out the way he breaks...
February 8th, 2014 at 02:30pm