What can I even do? Nothing.
Have you ever just had the urge to drive with your eyes closed? I have, and I've done it. Tonight actually. I didn't crash but I would have welcomed it. It's just one of those times where everything is shit. Absolutely everything. And looking forward, nothing looks promising at all. I feel like it's all going to get worse. I'm not depressed, just upset. My depression gave me inspiration and...
May 1st, 2013 at 07:21am
Just An Update
I'm so stressed. Things were going so good and now everything is falling back down again. I'm not sure how much writing I'll be doing lately but I'm not giving it up. I just need to focus on getting everything right again. Why can things not just stay going the way they are for longer than like a few weeks.. shit.....It just told me that a blog as to have at least 100 words.. THAT DOESN'T EVEN...
April 17th, 2013 at 05:57am
Going Down..
I can feel my mood starting to fall again. I hate it. It's probably one of the worst feelings ever. It's like going up the first hill of a rollercoaster. You are climbing so slowly and the anxiety starts kicking in and then you have to sit at the top just staring down at the drop you are about to face. You regret getting on the ride at all. I hate being bipolar. It's like why should I even bother...
April 13th, 2013 at 10:06pm
I Never Know How To Accept Compliments
So being here on Mibba, random people I've never talked to or met before have been telling me they like things that I've been writing which is so weird to me. I've never done anything really creative to the point where people I didn't know got to see it and comment on it. It's different than having a friend or relative telling you you did good on what you made/wrote but when a stranger does it...
April 12th, 2013 at 07:40am
Allergies.. WHYME?!
So yeah. I hurt all over. Allergy tests suck. I learned all kinds of stuff about me today though. I currently have a bad sinus infection which I had no idea about because I've felt like this for a while and I just thought it was allergies. I have asthma, never even knew. And I'm allergic to literally every plant, mold, and animal in existence. I got two shots in the hip for the sinus infection I...
April 10th, 2013 at 01:29am
Sleep Schedule Offically Out of Wack.. lesigh
You know those times when you wake up and feel pretty rested but then you go out and do stuff and when you get home you feel so exhausted and take a "nap" well knowing you have things to do the next day and your sleep schedule is going to get off track because your "nap" lasts for like 5 or 6 hours? Yeah.. I hate that. WHY MUST I SLEEP SO MUUUCHHH?!Ugh.. going to be so tired by the time 2pm rolls...
April 9th, 2013 at 12:10pm
Drivers Ed, Hard Drives and Mirrors
So I don't have my drivers license yet because when all my other friends were 16 and out learning to drive, I was committed and too depressed to get out of bed. So Susan, my psychologist, told me that in order to get out of the rut I'm in, I needed to get my life going again. This was the first step to doing that I guess. In Texas if you are between 18 and 24, you just have to take a 6 hour online...
April 8th, 2013 at 03:43am
An Introduction
I suppose it would be only fitting to do a little intro about myself in case anyone decides to read what I'm writing. My name is Rachel (most call me Rae) and I'm 19 living in Texas. I am diagnosed with Manic Depression or Bipolar II and am now taking medication for it. Before I was it was completely controlling my life, so I'm trying to get better. I joined Mibba because my psychologist told me I...
April 7th, 2013 at 12:42am