Thoughts

I feel like being alone with your thoughts is a dangerous game to play. I struggle with anxiety and depression as is and lately it just feels like it's getting worse. I have been with this new guy for a few months now and I just don't know how to feel or what to do anymore. I just feel like that I'm not good enough or never will be. I know that things with his ex are over and they are getting...
August 20th, 2021 at 06:37pm

Sadness

It makes me so sad that Mibba is still like this. I hope some of you can still see this because I need a friend. I recently got into a relationship a month ago and for the most part, things are going well. But these last couple days, I've been feeling depressed. Last night I finally lost it and broke down and I just hate feeling this way.Lately I've been feeling depressed, alone, unwanted and kind...
July 13th, 2021 at 01:16pm

Anyone?

WOW! it's been so long since i've last posted a blog on here. I honestly haven't even bothered attempting to until today due to the site being all screwed up. Is there anyone that's still active on here? I've been thinking about writing again and not sure if it's worth even posting anything on here. But im going to anyways even if i'm the only one reading it LOL.This site just hasnt been the same...
November 1st, 2020 at 02:59pm

Post Break Up Thoughts

Now that I had some time to process it, I didn't think leaving someone who mentally abused you for two years would be so fucking hard. I never got closure, and I left still madly in love with him. But I couldn't take the constant yelling anymore. I couldn't take not feeling good enough anymore. I couldn't take how miserable, how guilty he always made me feel for shit that wasn't even my fault. I...
July 3rd, 2020 at 02:42am

News

I did a thing. I wrote a short story (2 chapters) and I'm happy with it. I haven't written a fucking thing in so long so I'm pretty proud. I'm not sure who will see this blog (if anyone) but if anyone does, check out Stronger. This story is true in a way and I relate to it so much. Aubs is going to edit it. I want it to be perfect.I have my inspiration back, so i'll be writing again. Stay tuned...
April 27th, 2020 at 02:12am

Me | New Cowrite

How is everyone? Things are alright on my end. Just not being at work until April 7th has been stressful since I don't qualify for unemployment. Ha, I don't even understand why that is a concern with the virus going on! But apparently once I go back to work, my hours will go from 32 to 21 and I'll be making up the rest with unemployment apparently. Not sure how that will work, but I guess I'll see...
March 28th, 2020 at 09:53pm

Long Time, No Shine.

I just want to cry you guys. It will be 1 year in June since i've been going to school, and in that one year I managed to get an email wanting me to join "The National Society of Leadership and Success" which is only awarded to a small percentage of students! But since my gpa is over a 3.3, I have the honor of joining this society. I am literally so happy I could cry. By doing this, there's a good...
February 8th, 2020 at 02:42am

It's Me!

I'm not so sure if anyone will see this but I suppose it's worth a try! I came up with a story page last night and thinking about writing again. I'm not sure where it's going to go, but it's a start! It's called Lost Soul! I'm thinking about including things relating my life so it's going to be a good one! I'm not going to write for NaNo because I suck at that.I've also been doing a bit of...
November 5th, 2019 at 12:18am

Unsure

Mibba hasn't been the same since everything crashed awhile back. I haven't been as motivated to come on here as much. I miss being able to see new stories, new blogs and now it's just kind of blah. I've been thinking about writing, but who would even notice it? I could switch to Wattpad but that site just frustrates me. I like being able to customize my stories and on wattpad you can't do that. So...
October 16th, 2019 at 10:52pm

It's Been Forever

I feel like it's been forever since i've posted. I'm alive and well, just waiting patiently for mibba to get back to normal. I'm in my third class for college and this girl has a 4.0! Things are good as well. Still with my boyfriend, still happier than ever. We've been on Vacation this weekend and he bought me a pair of combat boots! I'm not sure if anyone will see this, but I'm writing this...
September 8th, 2019 at 02:44pm

College Is Expensive

So, I'm pretty sure in my last blog I mentioned that I was going back to school. I'm majoring in Criminal Justice and doing it online. But I think it's ridiculous how expensive it costs to go to school. Most of it was covered by pell grants, and what not. but theres 3500 leftover and I DO NOT WANT TO TAKE OUT A LOAN. I'm already 4 grand in the hole from when I tried going to college a couple years...
May 30th, 2019 at 08:34pm

Hello, It's Me

I swear I'm alive. I literally lurk around on mibba constantly, i've just been busy dealing with life things. I got super sunburnt on Saturday and now I'm in that peeling/itchy phase and it's just a pain in the ass. i also start college a week from Tuesday so i'm excited! I'm doing online classes and majoring in Criminal Justice. i've wanted to do this for the longest time now so i'm really...
May 25th, 2019 at 12:55am

I Did It!

I applied to Southern New Hampshire University for online classes. This is the start in getting my Criminal Justice degree! I am so excited and look forward to seeing what the next steps are. I have a job and now that I'm 24, I can go back to school! I'm sure I'll be able to take one class at a time so it shouldn't be too had to balance with working. But thats part time at the moment so i'm not...
May 3rd, 2019 at 10:57pm

Antisocial

I never used to be this way. I used to want to be able to make friends with people. But I think all that changes when you are constantly being fucked over. So I kind of feel bad when my boyfriend goes out to hang out with this dude he met at the lake and I just want nothing to do with it. We've tried to make friends with a couple in the past but her boyfriend was at work one day when we were...
April 27th, 2019 at 01:57am

New Story and Updates

Its currently 5:15 in the morning and I can't seem to sleep. I always have this issue when my boyfriend isn't home. i know I've been slacking on writing but I did manage to come up with something yesterday for a contest I entered. It includes sensitive subjects, so keep that in mind before reading it. I hope to have a chapter up in a couple days. If you haven't checked it out, here it is! Summary...
April 20th, 2019 at 11:20am

I Like Surveys.

So, I've been seeing survey's going around on the blogs for the past few days and finally have decided to do one myself. I feel like its been ages since I've done a survey and it will hopefully help me become active again. I wrote a poem last night so hopefully I'm one step closer to getting one of my stories updated!Is the last person you hugged related to you?No, he's my boyfriend.Are you...
April 6th, 2019 at 03:10pm

Thought About You

I feel like it's been forever since i've written anything. Nothing has seemed to want to inspire me to write lately, but tonight, i finally wrote something. It's a bit depressing, but it's something I needed to get out of my system.My papa died April 28th, 2004. it's been nearly 15 years since he left us and my heart still breaks. This is something that I don't think I will ever get over. My heart...
April 6th, 2019 at 02:56am

Mood

I haven't meant to be as inactive as I have been lately. I just haven't had the motivation to update or post a blog lately. There has just been so much stress going on lately that it's impressive how I've managed to handle it. I don't take meds, I just smoke a shit ton of weed and I'm fine. My relationship has gotten better now that I've learned how to communicate better. I have my fingers crossed...
March 29th, 2019 at 08:15pm

Focused

I haven't been writing at all lately and I apologize for that. I haven't had much inspiration lately. I've been trying to get a job somewhere so we can have money. I'm sick of not having a job. It's a struggle to get hired somewhere but hopefully something good comes soon.My relationship has improved greatly. The sex has been great lately and I think that's what's been helping. My birth control...
March 21st, 2019 at 08:04pm

Stuck

I don't know what to do anymore. I am so sick of battling these demons in my head. I'm sick of having all these thoughts going around and no one to talk to about them. I can't talk to my boyfriend about anything because he gets way too defensive about everything, so that's not even worth it. I want to get a therapist bad. My doctor was supposed to help me but that never worked out. So Monday I'm...
March 16th, 2019 at 08:40pm