Focused

I haven't been writing at all lately and I apologize for that. I haven't had much inspiration lately. I've been trying to get a job somewhere so we can have money. I'm sick of not having a job. It's a struggle to get hired somewhere but hopefully something good comes soon.My relationship has improved greatly. The sex has been great lately and I think that's what's been helping. My birth control...
March 21st, 2019 at 08:04pm

Stuck

I don't know what to do anymore. I am so sick of battling these demons in my head. I'm sick of having all these thoughts going around and no one to talk to about them. I can't talk to my boyfriend about anything because he gets way too defensive about everything, so that's not even worth it. I want to get a therapist bad. My doctor was supposed to help me but that never worked out. So Monday I'm...
March 16th, 2019 at 08:40pm

Give Me Therapy

I'd like to say that i'm not dead, but as of lately that's how i feel. I've been in this slump of depression lately and it just doesn't seem to want to go away. My sex life is a joke, my relationship is one hell of a roller coaster ride. i'm just sick of being nagged about this and that. I just want to be happy but i'm not sure what that is anymore. i've been feeling hella unwanted lately and it...
March 11th, 2019 at 09:36pm

Sucker

So Can I start off with saying how excited I am that the Jonas Brothers have made a comeback?! I used to be in love with them when I was younger and I had all of their albums once upon a time. Honestly, this makes me want to listen to their old stuff again and I probably will at some point today. I also want to get some writing done if I can focus long enough, lmao.If anyone hasn't checked it out...
March 2nd, 2019 at 04:30pm

Sick + Writing Updates

ugh you guys! I apologize for the slacking I've been doing. I plan to do some writing today to make up for not writing. i've been stressed, and on top of that fighting this damn cold that doesn't want to go away. I've been feeling slightly better the past two days so luckily it's almost out of here. But it's just been dragging my body down and it's a miracle I still did what i did this week.My...
February 23rd, 2019 at 04:48pm

It's Me

I'm alive, barely but here I am. I haven't been writing in a week and I apologize for that. Im going to work on some stuff today if I can stay focused. I've been stressed lately and battling anxiety so that's been no help. My boyfriend and I went to his brothers last night who lives nearly 3 hours away. The night ended up going to hell, so we drove home at 330 in the damn morning and I'm just...
February 16th, 2019 at 07:03pm

Emotional.

I've had a really bad day, and i'm pretty bothered that once again i'm sleeping alone. I have no issues with my boyfriend going out and doing what he wants, but after a shitty day i need someone to cuddle with. Not sit here and cry like a little bitch. But hey, it is what it is? He came back earlier with his buddy since he was selling his car. So sure, but wheres the alone time in all this? Like I...
February 10th, 2019 at 02:43am

February Recs

okay so since i'm a bit behind on writing cup, I'm going to do a rec blog based off of my team from writing cup! + I updated a story tonight so i'm excited to share it! I finally had some inspiration to write and that's what happened. Also helps that my boyfriend left for the night so I was able to accomplish something.Stand by Me by TheDevil'sHalo--one of my favorite chicago fire fanfics. I love...
February 9th, 2019 at 05:52am

Lack of Writing

For someone that's in the writing cup, I am sure doing a shitty job at writing LOL. I guess at least this will go towards my word goal. I'm really not sure what's going on. I was super pumped for writing cup and now it seems that my inspiration has fizzled. I'm in the process of working on an update for an older story of mine but I haven't updated that in so long so getting inspiration for it...
February 7th, 2019 at 09:50pm

Survey + New

Hi! So I finally got some inspiration this morning and wrote a drabble. i'm thinking about turning it into a drabble series! Lusting over Death. I'm actually really impressed at how well it came out. So feel free to give it a read and let me know what you think! Now onto a survey since i'm bored.Whats the longest phone conversation you've ever had?:couple hoursWhat do you tend to worry about?:not...
February 2nd, 2019 at 08:43pm

Thursday Vibes

Hope everyone is well! i'm not doing too bad except my boyfriend made weed butter last night and it fucked me up so bad. I think I wouldn't have been as bad if I didn't have the wine with it. But I did, and I was fucked. Trying to lay down had made it worse. My head was spinning, I was getting hella anxious (which is weird because weed doesn't give me anxiety, but I think it was the wine.) and i...
January 31st, 2019 at 07:16pm

New Layout + Updates

Hi everyone! Just wanted to do a quick blog post since padme made me a new blog layout! I love it and it literally looks hell of a lot better than my attempt to do so, lmao. But things are better at the moment. I go to meet with a career center at 11 to do some updates on my applications and what not, then tomorrow at 9 am i have an interview at a temp agency for an admin assistant position. i'm...
January 29th, 2019 at 03:02pm

Rambles | Survey

Hi! I'm home alone again and honestly I am content this way. I am getting a little stir crazy but it is nice to have some quiet time by myself. I don't get it much so I enjoy it when I can. Things are better today so I'm pretty happy. I'm sure it will be a late night again, but that's ok! I'm going to aim to begin a new story today so we'll see how that goes. I was also thinking about starting a...
January 27th, 2019 at 08:26pm

Happier

Thanks to everyone that commented on my previous blog. The title was based on Miss Me More by Kelsea Ballerini but that seemed to relate well to that blog lmao. After posting that blog, I feel a bit better. I needed to get that out of my system and I appreciate each and every one of you that took the time to read and comment on it. It's nice to know I have friends on here since I don't hang out...
January 26th, 2019 at 04:30pm

I Miss Me More.

I do apologize for not being active as much as I used to be. I'm hoping next month, the writing cup will bring me my groove back. I just have a lot on my mind and nothing seems to want to be written down, lmao. But I have a new idea in mind and if you'd like to check it out, it's called Heartless.My mind is just blah. I'm not sure if i'm happy anymore. My boyfriend has been saying mean shit lately...
January 25th, 2019 at 07:16pm

Struggles

So, I haven't been active much because honestly, life is just sucking right now. My boyfriend seems to be stressing me out more than I'd like to admit. Today was just a shitty day and he was in a shitty mood and everything seemed to be my fault. I'm just over it at this point. I know i'm not perfect and have a lot of faults but not everything i do is my fault. But tbh, I think once I get a job...
January 22nd, 2019 at 02:42am

Checking In

I feel terrible for not being as active on here as I used to be. Just ever since the death of my grandfather, I have locked myself down into antisocial mode. It has nothing to do with any of my friends on here, I just can't stand people right now.I'll be active on discord if anyone wants to talk. I'm trying to get out of that stage but it's taking time and a lot of weed lol! But I'll work on...
January 15th, 2019 at 09:09pm

Healing

The funeral was today and it was beautiful. It was hard but I survived up until they played a song then I was just bawling my eyes out. I don't want to believe it, i really dont. But he was 88 and lived a good life. It hurts but in time it will get better. I'm still not accepting the fact that he's gone and I probably won't accept it for a long time.other than that my boyfriend dropped me off at...
January 11th, 2019 at 08:30pm

Things are Hard

Hi guys, so as of this morning i got news that my great grandfather passed away. I am literally so heartbroken right now. I've been crying off and on all day and i've just been numb. It hurts and I miss him so much. We had so many fond memories together and this really sucks. He was 88 years old so at least he lived a good life.As of now, I probably won't be posting anymore blogs for a bit. I have...
January 9th, 2019 at 02:04am

Day Six of the Blog Challenge

Hey! I hope everyone had a lovely Sunday. Mine wasn't too bad. After being wide awake at 5 am for 2 hours, i finally fell asleep at 7 and woke up at 1030 lmao. So it was quite the lazy morning for sure. Had to take another roadtrip and now we're home and making food.Day 6: Your current relationship / If single, discuss how the single life is:I’m currently taken and I’m very happy. I have been...
January 6th, 2019 at 11:29pm