Hello, It's Me

I swear I'm alive. I literally lurk around on mibba constantly, i've just been busy dealing with life things. I got super sunburnt on Saturday and now I'm in that peeling/itchy phase and it's just a pain in the ass. i also start college a week from Tuesday so i'm excited! I'm doing online classes and majoring in Criminal Justice. i've wanted to do this for the longest time now so i'm really...
May 25th, 2019 at 12:55am

I Did It!

I applied to Southern New Hampshire University for online classes. This is the start in getting my Criminal Justice degree! I am so excited and look forward to seeing what the next steps are. I have a job and now that I'm 24, I can go back to school! I'm sure I'll be able to take one class at a time so it shouldn't be too had to balance with working. But thats part time at the moment so i'm not...
May 3rd, 2019 at 10:57pm

Antisocial

I never used to be this way. I used to want to be able to make friends with people. But I think all that changes when you are constantly being fucked over. So I kind of feel bad when my boyfriend goes out to hang out with this dude he met at the lake and I just want nothing to do with it. We've tried to make friends with a couple in the past but her boyfriend was at work one day when we were...
April 27th, 2019 at 01:57am

New Story and Updates

Its currently 5:15 in the morning and I can't seem to sleep. I always have this issue when my boyfriend isn't home. i know I've been slacking on writing but I did manage to come up with something yesterday for a contest I entered. It includes sensitive subjects, so keep that in mind before reading it. I hope to have a chapter up in a couple days. If you haven't checked it out, here it is! Summary...
April 20th, 2019 at 11:20am

I Like Surveys.

So, I've been seeing survey's going around on the blogs for the past few days and finally have decided to do one myself. I feel like its been ages since I've done a survey and it will hopefully help me become active again. I wrote a poem last night so hopefully I'm one step closer to getting one of my stories updated!Is the last person you hugged related to you?No, he's my boyfriend.Are you...
April 6th, 2019 at 03:10pm

Thought About You

I feel like it's been forever since i've written anything. Nothing has seemed to want to inspire me to write lately, but tonight, i finally wrote something. It's a bit depressing, but it's something I needed to get out of my system.My papa died April 28th, 2004. it's been nearly 15 years since he left us and my heart still breaks. This is something that I don't think I will ever get over. My heart...
April 6th, 2019 at 02:56am

Mood

I haven't meant to be as inactive as I have been lately. I just haven't had the motivation to update or post a blog lately. There has just been so much stress going on lately that it's impressive how I've managed to handle it. I don't take meds, I just smoke a shit ton of weed and I'm fine. My relationship has gotten better now that I've learned how to communicate better. I have my fingers crossed...
March 29th, 2019 at 08:15pm

Focused

I haven't been writing at all lately and I apologize for that. I haven't had much inspiration lately. I've been trying to get a job somewhere so we can have money. I'm sick of not having a job. It's a struggle to get hired somewhere but hopefully something good comes soon.My relationship has improved greatly. The sex has been great lately and I think that's what's been helping. My birth control...
March 21st, 2019 at 08:04pm

Stuck

I don't know what to do anymore. I am so sick of battling these demons in my head. I'm sick of having all these thoughts going around and no one to talk to about them. I can't talk to my boyfriend about anything because he gets way too defensive about everything, so that's not even worth it. I want to get a therapist bad. My doctor was supposed to help me but that never worked out. So Monday I'm...
March 16th, 2019 at 08:40pm

Give Me Therapy

I'd like to say that i'm not dead, but as of lately that's how i feel. I've been in this slump of depression lately and it just doesn't seem to want to go away. My sex life is a joke, my relationship is one hell of a roller coaster ride. i'm just sick of being nagged about this and that. I just want to be happy but i'm not sure what that is anymore. i've been feeling hella unwanted lately and it...
March 11th, 2019 at 09:36pm

Sucker

So Can I start off with saying how excited I am that the Jonas Brothers have made a comeback?! I used to be in love with them when I was younger and I had all of their albums once upon a time. Honestly, this makes me want to listen to their old stuff again and I probably will at some point today. I also want to get some writing done if I can focus long enough, lmao.If anyone hasn't checked it out...
March 2nd, 2019 at 04:30pm

Sick + Writing Updates

ugh you guys! I apologize for the slacking I've been doing. I plan to do some writing today to make up for not writing. i've been stressed, and on top of that fighting this damn cold that doesn't want to go away. I've been feeling slightly better the past two days so luckily it's almost out of here. But it's just been dragging my body down and it's a miracle I still did what i did this week.My...
February 23rd, 2019 at 04:48pm

It's Me

I'm alive, barely but here I am. I haven't been writing in a week and I apologize for that. Im going to work on some stuff today if I can stay focused. I've been stressed lately and battling anxiety so that's been no help. My boyfriend and I went to his brothers last night who lives nearly 3 hours away. The night ended up going to hell, so we drove home at 330 in the damn morning and I'm just...
February 16th, 2019 at 07:03pm

Emotional.

I've had a really bad day, and i'm pretty bothered that once again i'm sleeping alone. I have no issues with my boyfriend going out and doing what he wants, but after a shitty day i need someone to cuddle with. Not sit here and cry like a little bitch. But hey, it is what it is? He came back earlier with his buddy since he was selling his car. So sure, but wheres the alone time in all this? Like I...
February 10th, 2019 at 02:43am

February Recs

okay so since i'm a bit behind on writing cup, I'm going to do a rec blog based off of my team from writing cup! + I updated a story tonight so i'm excited to share it! I finally had some inspiration to write and that's what happened. Also helps that my boyfriend left for the night so I was able to accomplish something.Stand by Me by TheDevil'sHalo--one of my favorite chicago fire fanfics. I love...
February 9th, 2019 at 05:52am

Lack of Writing

For someone that's in the writing cup, I am sure doing a shitty job at writing LOL. I guess at least this will go towards my word goal. I'm really not sure what's going on. I was super pumped for writing cup and now it seems that my inspiration has fizzled. I'm in the process of working on an update for an older story of mine but I haven't updated that in so long so getting inspiration for it...
February 7th, 2019 at 09:50pm

Survey + New

Hi! So I finally got some inspiration this morning and wrote a drabble. i'm thinking about turning it into a drabble series! Lusting over Death. I'm actually really impressed at how well it came out. So feel free to give it a read and let me know what you think! Now onto a survey since i'm bored.Whats the longest phone conversation you've ever had?:couple hoursWhat do you tend to worry about?:not...
February 2nd, 2019 at 08:43pm

Thursday Vibes

Hope everyone is well! i'm not doing too bad except my boyfriend made weed butter last night and it fucked me up so bad. I think I wouldn't have been as bad if I didn't have the wine with it. But I did, and I was fucked. Trying to lay down had made it worse. My head was spinning, I was getting hella anxious (which is weird because weed doesn't give me anxiety, but I think it was the wine.) and i...
January 31st, 2019 at 07:16pm

New Layout + Updates

Hi everyone! Just wanted to do a quick blog post since padme made me a new blog layout! I love it and it literally looks hell of a lot better than my attempt to do so, lmao. But things are better at the moment. I go to meet with a career center at 11 to do some updates on my applications and what not, then tomorrow at 9 am i have an interview at a temp agency for an admin assistant position. i'm...
January 29th, 2019 at 03:02pm

Rambles | Survey

Hi! I'm home alone again and honestly I am content this way. I am getting a little stir crazy but it is nice to have some quiet time by myself. I don't get it much so I enjoy it when I can. Things are better today so I'm pretty happy. I'm sure it will be a late night again, but that's ok! I'm going to aim to begin a new story today so we'll see how that goes. I was also thinking about starting a...
January 27th, 2019 at 08:26pm