I almost lost two people in my life this week. It makes me feel guilty and that’s selfish of me to think. I wonder why I didn’t catch the hints.It makes me wonder what I know and what I don’t. And I don’t like to question that.They would have been gone…I never would have gotten to speak to them ever again. They would be somewhere where I couldn’t be.I would have been sending messages...

I've tried coming on to Mibba more often and it doesn't seem to work out for me. Ideally, I'd adore coming on here everyday and talking to new people. But college is in the way, along with everything else.I hate my community college and completely regret not going away. I cannot stand the thought of it anymore. I hate not being able to see my friends whenever I want to because they're all miles...

I hope you enjoy every minute of being used. You say one thing and then you do another.I’m thinking about how great it would be to kick your face in. How deformed your nose would be on what was ever left of your face. Blood everywhere and your eyes black and blue swollen beyond belief. I’d kick you while you were down.But you know what you’re going to feel… you’re never going to be happy...

Hey. I was just wondering if anyone knew what I should do before getting blood work done.Some people say to fast for about 8-12 hours beforehand and some say that you shouldn't go on an empty stomach. I'm not sure what I should do.Maybe I should fast for the 8-12 hours and bring something to eat and drink just in case?I'm already freaking out about it. I hate needles. I'm having my best friend...

I'm so confused. I'm so hurt. I'm feeling so used. I want sleep so badly. I haven't slept for more than 10 hours for the past 5 days. I want to cry. I want to think straight.My main problem is this guy.He's speaking in riddles and I want someone who who show me they want me. I don't them to edge around it. We were suppose to hang out today. He basically told me to take initiative and I did, I...

I'm extremely bored and after realizing that, I came to the conclusion that I don't read half as often as I used to. I used to adore reading novel after novel at a time. I read so often that the people at the library knew me by name and the exact books that I loved reading. However, I don't write or read as often as I used to and I'm not sure what I want to read. I don't want anything with...

It will bother me if I don't get this out before I go to sleep.Long story short for those...who actually care and continue reading this journal.Dated a boy for the first time, for about 4 months and had been really close friends for the two months beforehand. And I can honestly say that I loved him. He was my first boyfriend, the first person who made me feel...like I mattered more than I felt....

..and it just hit me.It was a girl from my old traveling soccer team. She was so buff and so beautiful and so nice. I remember the first time I met her. She was with her best friend, Alex, and nobody from my team noticed they were really there. I went over and stuck my hand out and said, "Hey, I'm Brianna, you guys can call me Bri. Wanna go chill over there? I'll introduce you guys".That's how she...

Yes, it's true.I've picked six songs and they've rejected them...all...how this is possible I'll never know.I've already tried:I Caught Fire- The UsedCrushcrushcrush-Paramore..too many people requested it, though I should have gotten it partially because I sent this email in on Tuesday and people still haven't sent their choices in..Fully Alive- FlyleafTonight Tonight-Smashing Pumpkins...how this...

I'm complaining. Yes, this is rant. So if you're, you know, not into those you can click the back bottom.I'm so goddamn bitter right now to the point where I just...I've got tears burning my eyes. I just want my own strawberry field. Have you ever felt like that?Like you needed just one empty place of somewhere for yourself where no one can break the barrier to? It could be all yours, nobody...

Well, it basically says it all in the video. Sorry for my mumbling, I guess I was just nervous. Yeah, I forgot the words...really hope that doesn't happen during try-outs. If you guys could give me any suggestions at all it would be amazing. The website is musicidol.org. You should check it out, compare me to the others that were actually in the contest. Honestly, any advice whatsoever would be...

I've had a trying day and I need to get this out before it completely eats me alive and takes away all the need to sleep.How dare you. What makes you think that you are so much better then everybody else? Who gave you the right to speak about people in such a manner? You have the nerve to say that you aren't arrogant, that you aren't judgmental, that you're a giving kind of person? Well, you know...

Aha. I had way too much fun today. I had gone to hot topic and bought make-up and then oh so conviently got bored as anything. Thus, I placed a cd in the boom box and misery business filled the room with great ease. Of course...me being me, the song immediately rushed to my brains and flickered an idea. 'Hey, I have the same make up that Hayley has, why not?'So this is the result of what happens...

I'm completely disgusted with myself. I just want the date to skip over the 17th...go right from the 16th to the 18th, without any thoughts of inbetween. I can't fall asleep as easily these past few days knowing my birthday is coming, whether I want it to or not. I'm not having a huge party like all my friends want and my mother is driving me insain. I refused to have a sweet sixteen because I'm...

Okay, well I went to play rehearsal today and I was ridiculously tired to such an extreme extent. They woke me up at the ungodly hour of 900 am. So I had to sing and dance...with as much enthusiasm as one who has had literally two hours of sleep can muster.After a while, I realized that my throat hurt...not just the wake-up-tired-ow-what-the-sh*t kind of hurt but the ow-I-think-I'm...

Alright, am I the only crazily obsessed Green Day fan that makes t-shirts *etc.* to celebrate something of Green Day?For instance...making a shirt because today's *Oct. 14* the 10th anniversary of the coming out of Nimrod.I made a* literally made, with needles, patches of old clothes, and thread because I am that talented* shirt with the Nimrod symbol on it.Also this month, Insomniac and Warning...

I kinda need it for my story..and I tried using translation sites..except...I don't think they worked.Lei guarda molto atraente staser-was the one they gave me for 'You look really pretty tonight'Come lei ama il resturant?-was the one they gave for 'How do you like the resturant?"Lei ha di bella faccia di Bambola di occhi-was the one they gave for ' You have beautiful eyes, Doll face"If you could,...

Alright me and my best friend bought Projekt Revolution tickets and I don't see how they work. It's in a stadium but there are two stages..anybody know how that works? Tickets range from $40-76, and I suggest you go buy them now because they're running out pretty quickly.I thought it was general admission..but its not, you get seats...Which certainly was disappointing but it's whatevs.But if...

Bamboozle was the shit.Me and my friend got about four rows away from My Chem. Except ,people were being retards and started shoving from behind but mostly it was because people needed to get out. I turned into one of those people. I had to get someone to lift me up and out because I started having a panic attack and by that time that was my 3rd panic attack that day. Some girl told this guy to...

I'm really confused.I think I might be anorexic...but not on purpose..does that make any sense?I've got a couple of the symptoms..but I really have no idea whether it's anorexia or not.I swore I'd never be worried with with my weight and I swore I'd never be anorexic for the reason of wanting to be skinny. I never realized I may be doing it without realizing it. I'm comfortable with my weight and...