Dear Alya,Is definitely been a while...a few months give or take i think. A lot of things have changed, a lot of things have disappeared completely. Frodo and I are now friends, I'm living with my mother and step dad in lynnwood, I've started a new school, gotten my food handlers card, etc.But I'll get to those later, today, i just kinda want to vent. I'm having a bad Gemini day, when my body is...

CuddleTo dream that you are cuddling with someone, indicates your need for physical and/or emotional contact. Do not overlook the obvious meaning of this dream which suggests your heart's desire for that particular person. Also consider the symbolism of that person you are cuddling with and determine how you need to acknowledge, accept, and unify those qualities in yourself.BetrayalTo dream that...

Dear Alya,As ever i'm glad of you're presence in my mind, i'm glad that i can come and write these things down, i can come back, i can read and i can learn. Whenever i try to talk about my problems it seems that all i seem to do is make things worse or even besides the point. I haven't...much ...improved would be a word to phrase it as. I'm still a little this, i'm still a little that and every...

Dear Alya,Its been a while my friend; i hope the days haven't been too hard, i hope the heat has scorched you as it has me, and i hope you have found happiness where ever you have deserted me to. For the fact that technically you're really just myself as a way of feeling like i'm talking to some one but i'm really just writing for a better piece of mind, this situation kinda makes me crazy. But as...

Dear Alya,I'm sorry its been a week or so. I'm not really good at this whole constant journal thing like i said, but i'm getting used to it and am working on it as best i can. Life isn't so bad now i guess. Its more a work in progress. I think thats all life is really meant to be for each individual. A work in progress leading up to the great finale...My step mother is trying, There hasn't been...

Dear Alya,Here i am again...as it seems i can't really vent with any one but you my friend. I have others, but i would regret, well, my motto is never to regret but i would feel bad because i was only venting and probably didn't mean anything by it.I have a step mother. She loves her boys. She hates us. My sister and i. She calls us names, threatens us, and much more. Shes been doing this since we...

Dear my lonely friend,I'm not meaning lonely by a means of diminishing your meaning to me. Since you are me, and I'm talking to me, I'm more or less referring to the present state of mind. I have a dilemma Alya, and I'd like to tell you about it.I don't trust people. I never have, I'll give you my will to see you walk, My heart to see you fly, my body because i love you, and my mind because its...

Dear Journal,I think that now we've kinda gotten into the swing of things now I should give you a formal name to go by, Do know what, I'm going to call you Alya. One because i was looking for a name that means writing but couldn't find one, so i decided to just search for names that have a meaning that would feel what my mind does while I write. Alya came up and it means a loftiness, or upward and...

Hello Dear Friend,As I'm going to be spending my time with you, I feel that our relationship needs a few tweaks. (Hear that line before?)Well as it seems, people are actually going to be reading these posts; which in all actuality doesn't really bug me, but hey, what can I do about it? I don't mind really. Comments are fun. New people great. New Ideas are always welcome.I've never had a constant...

Dear Me, Myself, and last but not least, I.I'd never had to do this. Writing up my life's thinkings repeatedly, seems, a little dull to say the least. But not in offense to others. Bogging can help the peace of mind. Or the mind flow. Its just that in the last year, I've been stretched it seems. My writing becomes harder and harder to accomplish. It seems that my words fail me. Why would this...