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That’s actually so great! This might sound weird, but I’m genuinely happy for you! I understand holding back, though/ playing it safe. In high school, my grade nine science teacher told my mom that his class was ‘intended for people who plan on going to a college or university’. It’s all kind of petty, but because I’ve never forgotten that and people in my class telling me I was stupid/I probably wouldn’t pass my classes, I kind of ended up aiming to be what they expected. So I really only pulled my socks up in grade twelve (AND I GOT AN 80 IN CHEMISTRY OK, STUPID GRADE NINE TEACHER.) so I was kind of shit out of luck with everything and ended up going into Make up - I’ve got my certificate and everything but its so so hard finding a job with that. But you better believe that when I saw that damn Forever Halloween cover I nearly cried thinking 'I could've done that make up! nooooo'. ahah.

Sorry, I didn’t mean to start rambling about that ahah. But I totally agree with you, better late than never, right? You probably would regret it if you didn’t at least try, so that's amazing. What are you in school for, if you don’t mind my asking? Also, I know we’re kind of strangers in a sense but just know I’m totally rooting for you. (:

Yeah! I noticed that too, people posting photos on here like its Facebook. I've even seen some engagement photos and stuff. Honestly, I don’t want anyone connecting me to this site/fanfiction. And its not that its just because its fan fiction, I just never really share my writing with people in my real life.

Its a scare tactic, but I don’t doubt it at all.

The security guards suck a lot of the time. And chat up girls sometimes and its so irritating. Like, honestly, mr.security man, you probably don’t want to mess with any girl while she’s aiming to get a better look at Harry’s hair, ok? Its bad news bears. Also, it’s a concert. What the fuck did they do in the sixties.

But yeah! I actually was crying laughing after I was scared for his life ahah. I also am pretty sure it was during better than words when the beat was just perfect for a fall ahah. My dad said ‘do you ever consider that he might be drunk and thats why he falls’. Really, though, Harry made me crave poutine. I was smelling it all night ahaha. They’re a sweet bunch.

This guy I hung out with a few times was telling me how he went home once and saw his dad emotionally invested in the 1d documentary. And that the following day his dad kept talking about how great of guys they seemed to be and all this stuff. Thought that was a pretty funny image. aha.

OH MY GOD QUIZILLA! Man, that's where it all started, you’re not making yourself sound old at all! I loved loved loved Quizilla. That was when like, Good Charlotte was wrecking havoc with fanfics. ahah. I still don’t know why they deleted it?

I feel like that too, honestly. I didn’t even bother writing when I had been locked out of my old account (which I am so so bitter about still because I’m sure I had a shit ton of drafts). I hadn’t heard of that interview until you told me about it, and had to look it up! That's pretty awesome of him to say something like that, considering almost everyone else acts as if its some awful, creepy thing that people do. He’s right though, and I love that he doesn’t see it as a less-than thing, because I feel a lot do!

The fact of it is (for me at least), I love writing, and usually the only way it gets some kind of attention is if its a fan fiction. That sounds awful of me, but its true. I mean, I have a few originals ready but I feel like people wouldn’t find them as interesting or something? Maybe its just me feeling that way.

I thought about never returning too, but my ex really fucking ripped me apart during the end and I needed a way to cope because I used to be pretty self destructive (I’m not sure if you recall that).

Honestly, though, you’re a great writer, and I’m not like saying that for the shits of it.

Sorry for the late reply. (:

Really? That’s so cool! It sucks that you never got to go, though. Thats amazing you’re thinking of going there - Arizona State? I looked into it too at one point, but I wasn’t doing very well mentally in high school, which took a toll on my grades. But honestly, all the luck with that! It’d be an amazing opportunity!

Yeah, you know what, Social Media freaks me the hell out, honestly. I have a Facebook I don’t want anymore, and I cannot for the life of me bring myself to even log into it to delete it. Ahah, I’m not sure but I think it still says I’m in a relationship. So, I don’t know, I like to cover my tracks I guess, and I feel like if I lie about one thing on my profile - I really don’t know what I’m getting at. ahah. I hope you understand what I was trying to say. My fear of social media is also the reason I take so long to reply, so I’m sorry about that! I’ve also been learning about the deep web and I’m even more apprehensive about it. ahah.

Yeah, it’s kind of weird that they’re that addicting. The floor seats were pretty great, and I was on the side Harry and Niall mostly stuck to. Ahah no complaints. Well, actually, those damn security guards were dicks. Each time I’ve seen One Direction, they have been.

What was kind of funny is I took my cousin and we were like I hope Harry has another funny harmless fall BUT IT WONT HAPPEN. And what do you know, he falls and I got it on tape. I was so shocked by it I squealed ahah. Most beautiful fall, ever, though. With those beautiful locks of his floating to the ground. ahah

And we were also like THEY WONT SEE THESE LITTLE SIGNS OMG (the ones that said thanks for staying with us) and Niall ended up reading it out. ahah

I agree with you, wattpad is a bit freaky, there are like 90 chapter stories and yeah. I totally get you. I’ve always wanted a book published though, so I guess after I heard of books being published, I wanted to try it.

I tried a lot of things, but I always come back to Mibba. Except for them locking me out of my account and having crap customer service, the rest of the site is pretty great. I guess I’m comfortable on it, though. I’ll be optimistic with you ahah.

Ahaha thats actually exactly what my dad told me - about Arizona being dry heat. Once he actually told me ‘I was told by my doctor to move to Arizona.’ and I was like AND WHAT YOU JUST DECIDED NOT TO. GOD, DAD. Ahah, to be clear I was like sixteen at the time, okay? I’d still really like to make a road trip out of traveling there though. It seems beautiful.

Yeah, it is super weird how similar things are ahah. When I read that authors note I was like NO WAY ME TOO about like everything.

That's so great! I love them too, I’ve actually went to their last two concerts in Toronto and even like. Got floor seats ahah. Actually I was telling my dad something funny that they had said and he looked at me all serious and was like ‘Okay, this is bordering on obsession and you need to stop’. SO! I understand the slight embarrassment. I used to really really hate them, though. When they first started out. And then I don’t know. Got sucked into a youtube video and was like wow. you guys are funny and what makes you beautiful is catchy I’ve been lying to myself. ahah

Yeah! I get what you meant about writing being therapeutic, and I do it regardless, it’s just so weird to me because you know, three years ago people went crazy. It was so nice how people would be that into it, you know? So when I remade an account here, I just didn’t expect that. I thought about writing on tumblr as well but honestly, I’m so so lost on how html code is and wow I just definitely do not have the patience for it and I can’t imagine how to get on audience on there, you’re right about that.

I tried using wattpad but its totally shit for new people. Like there are stories that have five million viewers and crazy ass comments but I cannot comprehend how they even got those views. Or votes or whatever. So I agree with you on sticking to Mibba. ahah

(sorry about the longass comment, and if you don’t want to converse thats totally okay, I don’t mean to bother you in any way!)

Ah! Thanks so much for commenting again! And oh my god, that's actually so crazy because that’s how I felt about you too! I was like woahwoah, beukeboom!?!? Ahah, that's so crazy and I’m not at all weirded out! But thank you, that's actually so so nice to hear (read). It sucks that we both got locked out though. Boo to Mibba.

Its also super crazy looking at the old account and being like wtf. That many people were reading this???? And I feel like its ten times more difficult to get people to read/subscribe/comment on anything now.

But it was great to find out it was, in fact, YOU behind this profile! I hope everything's going really well for you! (I say that a lot, but its because I genuinely want people to always have a good day and know someones rooting for them ahah, sorry!)

p.s, I've also noticed we've both grown a liking to Harry. ahaha. I always, for some reason, feel great when people who like the maine also like one direction (I'm not actually sure if you like them, sorry for the assumption!).

Wow, what? I just wanted to say hello and that I remember you from earlier days. I got a bit excited when I saw you were beukeboom. Anyways, I hope you're doing well and I'm sorry if this was a bit weird!