I had the best laugh tonight.My younger sister, Alex...avid slash writer & reader, looks up from her laptop from browsing Mibba, shock and incredulence on her face."They have Jonas brothers incest on here?!"I'm not sure where she's been for the last I don't know how long, but her shock quickly turned to grossed out as she clicked away from whatever page she was on.(It reminded me of a wail of...

Damn it all.Life life, love, stupid love.I don't know how I can fall out of love so easily...I've been in love with him since I was 16, I said if I had him that I'd never let him go...then when we got together it was him who left me, then after some soul searching and needing and wanting to get over him I couldn't. So we got back together, much opposed to my parents and basically the general...

I have nothing against it but the little ad at the top of my page is starting to get to me...I’m not a gay chubby dater I guess, or maybe I’d be interested.I’m also not interested in voting for John Mc-fuckin-CainI’m not interested in GETIING 5,000 SMILIES ABSOLUTELY FREEEEEE!!!!I’m not interested in winning an iMac by guessing which celebrities...

Yesterday I had this awful sinking feeling that Masha was going to break up with me, I don't know why, but I did. As soon as I had resigned myself to that fact I talk to her and she calls me crazy and tell me how much she loves me and can't live without me and she just misses me and hates me being grounded so we can't talk....Because we haven't talked in ages....Wait...that was yesterday, and I...

Yes, that's an actual book.I saw it today and laughed so hard I got tears in my eyes...I threw it back onto the shelf as my mom came over to see what was so funny...*ahem*"No mom! I wasn't reading that!! I was flipping through this!"*randomly grabs a book titled "How better sex makes a better marriage"*Oops.I never do the right thing....Usually Masha calls me at 2:14....3:14 her time, the moment...

I don’t know…My mom overheard me say I love you to my girlfriend earlier…she flipped out and yelled at me that if I was going to say it to Masha then not to bother ever saying it to her because it doesn’t mean anything anymore.We’re packing to move soon, we won’t move for the next 3 or 4 months I guarantee it but she’s making us...

I don’t sleep anymore…I have dreams.Dreams where my dad’s angry at me.Dreams where my bracelets cut off my circulation.Dreams where I can’t hitch a ride.Dreams where I’m bleeding and smiling.I don’t know why or what anymore.I know I should be okay.I mean I take my medicine.I eat my food.I do my school.What am I doing wrong?Maybe...

I was sitting in the car outside of Publix tonight, waiting for my mom to come out with her Sushi, which I used to love but now I hate…gross.I’m rocking out to Atreyu’s song Falling Down with my little sister who’s 11 and little brother who’s 8 keeping the beat by banging on the back of the seats haha, my little brother’s doing the little...

My sister is back from her spring break vacation.She went up to New Hampshire with her husband during her week off of college.While she was gone the fashion show at the gulch in Downtown Nashville went on, and she won.Meaning she now headlines next years show with her line.I’m so proud of her.She’s incredibly amazing and very talented, all her work is really paying off, she...

My brother is coming over with his soon to be wife...I didn't get around to jumping in the neighbors pool last night because my mom was awake like ALL NIGHT and you can't sneak out while your mom's awake.That's dumb man.Anyway, it was really freaking chilly anyway so I don't think I would've liked to be soaking wet and outside at 4 in the morning anyway.That's why I'm going to do it tonight!!Sam's...

I weighed myself today…108.0I almost cheered.My size ¾ pants still fall off me, I feel like some punk gangsta walking around trying to hold them up…it’s not co cool, but it would be if I had some boxers though.108.0Is good, I can’t wait to tell my dad and go HA! I told him I could get up from 103…he didn’t believe be and bitched all...

We don't know why, but we know it's not right....Will this world ever find a way to change?I'm looking around and realizing I'm dying in this world.I'm losing who I was.I loved being 16 because I was real. Everything was real, I acted on impulse, I loved and hated freely, I didn't care what people said, I dressed how I wanted and didn't give a fuck about who didn't like me.I feel so fake lately,...