Only a few weeks ago, I would've done anything for it. Just to have a companion, someone that thoroughly loved me for everything that I was, to make my problems go away.Man... you really have to be careful what you wish for. Little did I know how complicated love could be. How the situation I wanted is one so rare, putting myself out there like I did was almost a guaranteed heartbreak.I fell in...

Ugh.I know I'm not the only person with this problem, but is anyone else almost incapable of having their thoughts translated accurately into something tangible? I think of so many ideas for art, clothing, and music, but when I try and bring it to life it's always different. Sometimes it comes out better- but it also can come out worse, which is extremely disappointing. Other creators must know...

I've been having doubts about myself lately. About my life.I think I've learned too much too fast. I wish I didn't know some of the things I know, and think some of the thoughts I think, see some of the things I see... but I can't help it. I'm like a piece of metal who is helpless against the magnetic force of all things bad. I guess I have some nice things going for me- but I have enough bad...

Why did I change my username?The old one was getting old.I'm a change addict.Plus I came off as a bit naive with it. Which isn't exactly my goal.What the hell does the new one mean?Yummy, we all know what a libido is...hehe.....plus I think it fit well with what I'm writing at the moment. My characters have an awful lot of it xDIt's also sort of a Nirvana reference, if anyone gets me.Masoquista is...

Music.Is dead.Yes children, I hate to be the one to break the news, but it is.I was listening to The Clash yesterday. Beyond amazing. I was thinking about how they inspired so many other bands, and i began to pick out ones that would have come from them... The Killers, Sublime, Foo Fighters... most of the bands today are bits and pieces of the greats smushed together, and very unoriginal. The only...

I don't get confused about many things. I mean, i consider myself sort of intelligent, and I've thought out most things other people haven't.Most people are in their forties and realize they seem to have no calling in life.Some people, the greats, realize their calling at an unusually young age. People like Mozart, Howard Stern, and Britney Spears (hah!) knew what they wanted to do before they hit...

I'm assuming nobody is going to read this. I think I'm the only person on earth that enjoys reading other people's journals, and hearing them ramble... I'm probably going to ramble here, since I don't know how to keep myself from doing it, since i don't know what it is exactly.You've been warned.Well... let's see... here's some things I left out of my actual About Me.I really suck at life....