Explanations:So, I may have avoided this website, along with others for awhile due to triggers, basically, I'd log in and something would remind me of something, and yikes... Regardless I'm not dead, and I realize that might be a worry for several of my friends, understandably if you consider any of my other content here on Mibba. Anyways, I'm going to attempt posting what I've been writing on...

...How do people do this? I mean I can't be honest about anything with my parents...Recently I figured out that I was bisexual so there's that, but I also know my parents are homophobic af sooooo yay me! Yay life! Yay-NO I don't care how they'll think about me, but then again yes I do. And I hate that, anyways when's the last time I updated this thing?DAMN! It's been a minute. I'm sorry if I...

I'm Moving TO(or rather back to) Dallas, Texas I'M SOOOOO HAPPY BECAUSE(no offence but...)Georgia kinda sucks in my opinion AND TEXAS IS WAAAAAAAY CLOSER TO SEATTLE OR SAN DIEGO SO AWESOME PLUS MY MOM SAID SHE WOULD PAY FOR MY GUITAR LESSONS AND I'M JUST LIKE ANSJDJFJJXJBS RIGHT NOW OH AND I'M GOING TO BE GETTING A JOB I'm happy because I'll be getting my own income so yay however i still wanna...

1 BABIES ARE FUCKING ADORABLE2 I am currently editing E V E R Y T H I N G on my uploads so you should hopefully actually understand what's going on and that what I meant was "in pretty sure no one calls him Oliver" not "I'm pretty sure no cares for Oliver" soooo yeah3 I would really like to be able to say in 3-5 years that I have written 365 poems here's hoping for just 3 years from now4 the sugar...

Dear diary,Lately I'm sounding closer and closer to South African... Which is weird since I'm currently in America however for one year and nine months I had lived in south Africa till 2013 Africa is amazing by the way but my-our-erm I mean their (mostly my parents because I still saw the glass half full) experience was hell from crappy dental to shitty living conditions it sucked greasy hairy...

I...I uploaded the first chapter of my happy place I'll be adding in personal stories but as in sure you'll figure out not everything is true.This is a huge step for me and might take me a while but eventually I'll pick up a steady rhythm and you will get your stories as much as possible.I'm not having overwhelming suicidal thoughts right now and I'm trying to be positive but I'm still scared...

Sooooooo I'm better-ish now, I'm not thinking that heavily about you know (sorry I just hate having to spell the word out) my new years was babysitting aaaaaall day but enough of that I've been working on a few stories that I'll be starting soon I'm excited and scared I don't completely know what willbe main plotline though, fuck I'm tired but I promised myself I'd let the invisible ghosts know...

Since I feel the need to to to everything about my life more less let's recap from bad to good I suppose, December 23 I...cut again my dad was mad and for no real reason I guess I freaked I always jade panic attacks when he yells or flash backs or both, I'm sure to can't read my mind even if you could I'm pretty sure you couldn't through electronics so the flash backs (no-one reads this anyways so...

I'm scared...why we'll because after six months I finally told my mom I have anxiety and panic attacks(still speculation) I might go to therapy is it wrong I'm scared and excited also my dad yeah I'm pretty sure he needs a therapist and he's frightening me as always I wish I could just hurry up and move away but...it takes time I think my depression is getting better thanks to my little piece of...

Not, I don't know why I expected anything different I never ship have happy birthdays ever since I was 10 to be frank HEY THAT REMINDS ME my favorite baby cousin(who it's a-freaking-dorable by the way)had the same birthday of my favorite band member ever Frank Iero, but that's not the point of this diary entry(I'm changing all the names of these blogs though there be only three it still won't stop...

Ok so I've had time to think about it and I'm just gonna wait awhile and moving seems smarter in my opinion the reason why were and still are because well basically my dad is an asshole oh believe me i love him i do it's just i can't take this anymore i mean i feel like I'm literally physically breaking more and more with no end like a horrifically well oiled machine of underhanded insults,...

So I'm either moving out or running away hopefully i can wait till Dec 5 so i can move out buuuuut i don't see that happening so I've decided I'll start a blog and whichever i choose I'll upload the day before, my reasons I'll explain when i have more time but I'm not even supposed to be on here so see you guys soon but here's a short summary i keep pissing my parents off and fucking shit up I've...