I feel like I regret calling the cops because if I hadn't we would be ok. But I know that him beating me is not ok. 4 years and never did I think anything like this would happen. I'm sitting in our apartment alone with our son just hurting. But I know he does not feel bad. He blames me for him beating me. He is mad I stood up for myself. But when my 3 month old pouted his lip because he wanted his...

It's been three months since my son Noel was born. I still can't get over how some things went wrong. I look back and think "why did you not listen to your gut?!!" I never seem to, and it always comes to slap me back in the face. I could write about it, but then id stay up just lingering on about it. I'd think one thing and my stomach would begin to turn in circles and i'll just feel this hate....