Today I had to listen to my teacher talk about cutting and suicide. She was being a little rude and it hurt. A lot. She knows I struggle with this stuff and I can't believe she would throw it around so uncaringly. I wish she had realized she was hurting me. I almost left but I don't know where the person I want to see is. I hate this. AT least this period is almost over.But anyways, I found out...

ITS OFFICAL! MY BIG SISTER IS GOING TO WORK AT WDW! She starts in Janurary and ends in August so guess whose going to WDW for graduation! WOO! This is slowly but surely turning out to be a great begiining of the end of my life. Everything is falling apart and falling together.*RANDOMWORSTOFILLSPACE TARDIS FLOWERS LOVE DONNA NOBLE MATH CLASS HOMECOMING APPLES BANANAS AMY POND GINGER HALLOOWEEN*...

For the past week its been a game. How long can I get away with faking it? How long can I truly stay silent as I suffer? How long? The answer is until they look at me, worried eyes and sad smiles. Then all at once, I shatter into dust.I am not myself anymore. Things are getting harder. I'm crying every night and I'm waking up feeling like I can't breathe. I shouldn't be breathing. If I let them in...

You told me to find you but I can't. I have no idea where to look and nobody will help me. But I need you! I told you I wouldn't but I was wrong. I tried to reach out to someone else but when you feel so lost nobody can find you, that’s where I am. I need someone to either hold me close or make it stop or slap me and yell and scream until I find my own way. But I don’t have anyone because...

So today I decided I need some story Ideas so in honor of the upcoming holiday I am going to do… MIBBAWEEN!!! So unlike everyone else I am doing things a little different.Reeses: I will write you a short story (you choose topic)Hershey’s bar: I will write you a poemMr. Goodbar: Author recSkittles: Story recM&m’s: Poem recTWIX: Picture commentJolly rancher: play list for a story of...

Last night was the Once Upon a Time season premier, it was amazing. Anna is ADORKABLE. She reminds me so much of my own big sister. She is so beautiful and her optimism is perfect. Kristoff… not so much… Out of everyone I liked him the least. I’m curious of why Anna was in Misthaven (Enchanted Forest) when the curse hit.OKAY LETS JUST… RUMBELLE!The dance was perfect. When Rumple said Mrs....

This weekend I dyed my blonde hair brown. I love it. Other than one, little, tiny issue. I look like my mother. Let it be now my mother and I have never gotten alone. But now I have to deal even more with being compared to her. *Sigh*In better news, I leave for NYC tomorrow morning. My field trip goes from 8am to about 11pm so its just one day. Just one day in one of the greatest cities. Last year...

Today in psych I didn't learn anything Psych related. However I began my journey into learning about Mibba. How to post pictures and the like. Not hard if you think about it but thank God for Brittany. I've got a lot of plans on how I want this blog to be run. layouts and posts and everything! YAY MIBBA!I just realized I haven't introduced myself. Hi! My name is Lucy. I'm a senior at my high...

I talked to one of my teachers today with every intent of telling the one thing that is weighing on me. My summer hospital trip. I need to tell someone. Anyone really but this teacher, lets call her Jenny, is the one I trust most. But as always I got sidetracked. By last night, by the window in her room or the way my shirt pulled too tight. What I meant to tell you is I need you. I need to be able...

Why is it, we, the quiet ones are forgotten? I am not just quiet. I am loud and outspoken. I am not just a number or a series of Letters. I am me. I am not a living prop that you can use and abuse until it breaks. If so I would already be broken into shards. I am not smart or pretty or sporty. I am more likely to be reading and watching movies on a friday (if I have off) than at a party. I am more...