Book Review of The Way I Used to Be by Amber Smith.

Once I heard the term "trauma porn." I'm not really sure of the whole definition, but I take it as a book/movie/tv show that uses horrible events, especially rape, to serve as a drama aspect and capture the audience's interest in high-level horror. Basically, an exploitation of rape for a very specific type of entertainment.This WAS NOT that.This was what I needed, as a victim. This was exactly...
August 19th, 2016 at 03:49am

Book Review of This Savage Song by Victoria Schwab.

Enjoyment. Victoria Schwab writes amazing characters, and wastes no times throwing them into situations that show you who they are layers down. I really feel that she’s coming into new comfort zones with writing; this book is certainly much simpler than Darker Shades (maybe expected, as it’s not a high fantasy that requires convolution), and though that may be negative in some cases, here I...
August 17th, 2016 at 12:04am

Invitation for Anyone on Mibba to Join a Pokemon Themed Readathon!

Hey Mibba! I found out about a really cool readathon through a book blog, and thought some of you may be interested in it, so I wanted to share it on the site!Located at Read at Midnight's blog, this is an online, community-based event, taking place between August 14th and September 4th, in which participants are invited to attempt to read 8 books that meet certain challenge criteria. It’s a...
August 9th, 2016 at 11:42pm

Self Love vs. Mechanics of Real Emotion!?

Yo. PART ONE. GENERAL STUFF.I live in an American society (and I would say much of Eastern religion prioritizes this as well) that is brimming with self-help books and talk shows that say PEACE & LOVE & NO ANGER & ANGER = TOXIC & HATRED = POISON. And I believe that you have to move on from your anger and hatred, in the end, to accept yourself and experience the most...
February 25th, 2015 at 05:09am

A Most Cohesive List of 2014.

This year has perpetuated the most growth in me that no other has replicated. A large part of it was external, but a great deal was also an internal development of realizations and habit changes that were completely self-instigated.I think the most obvious thing was living in Iceland for 6 months. First, what I did, working with people who had mental disabilities, changed me completely. I taught...
December 31st, 2014 at 05:04pm

New Pseudo~Job / Moving Forward With Harbored Rage.

A TOTAL BREAK FROM THE RECENT BLOG DISCUSSIONS EH? :B (also see: one of those ones no one is gonna read anyhoo.)I've been working at my public library for ~3 years now, a bit longer, but we recently got a new sub who has an autistic daughter, and I'm being paid in chocolate & inner joy to take her ice skating. It's an activity that the girl has loved since she was a wee baby but lost...
November 29th, 2014 at 11:52pm

Intensive Outpatient Program Day #1: Reiterations of My Depressive/ing History & Hiding Tears in Coffee Cups.

Haiya good folk of Mibba. ♡So- basically, I just got back from doing some social volunteering in Iceland, though 3 months earlier than I planned to. (I return from July-August to finish up though! c:). The reason I had to leave early was because an extreme occurrence of depression that had been present-yet-manageable for quite a long time suddenly became too overwhelming to handle. People like...
June 24th, 2014 at 03:37am

Purpose-Seeking.

I'm plagued by the need to fulfill a purpose that I can't findTo be honest, I think this is the premise of most human life. We want to fill a slot, or achieve a meaning that will make us content. I think this can come in array of choices, dealing with occupation or relational needs or overall worldly impact. I also think it's completely perceptive-dependent. What you do may have an objective...
January 5th, 2014 at 04:59am

Prettiest Sex Ever & In between Stages of Life.

Truly. XDI was at hotel with my boyfriend and the sheets on our bed had lots of static electricity, so little sparks kept going off in the darkness. I pulled the sheet back from the lower layer and it looked like a hundred little lightening bugs or stars lighting up for a second. It was really pretty, because we'd move a little bit and another little white light would spark. It felt like a nice...
December 14th, 2013 at 08:04pm

Self + World.

Sometimes they clash. They don't always go together well.But I have found, over many years of being told what to do, that I was doing wrong, and even being harassed about my personal choices, that all you are responsible for in your own life is complying with your values and seeking out happiness, regardless of where it comes from.These things are crucial to your health. But socially, your values...
October 23rd, 2013 at 04:26am

Arguing in Relationships.

Perhaps it sounds taboo, (why cain't we all just luv each other?), but I think in close, loving relationships, getting into fights is a total necessity.It might be my nature, but I know that verbal discrepancies are what strengthen my bonds; be it me getting angry at somebody else not fulfilling a need I have, or having to respond to something my friend is upset about, or a mutual argument between...
October 2nd, 2013 at 01:07am

Me against professor.

You like rants, right?Do you ever have one of those professors who you think is pretty awesome, but nonetheless aggravating because of their teaching style and baseless beliefs?I'm egotistical... about my intelligence. I know when I grasp a concept. I know when I understand how to apply it. I reason logically and with a multi-dimensional view, but this form of thinking does not always work for me...
October 1st, 2013 at 02:01am

Cocoons.

I like to look at the amount of bullying that took place in my life as a cocoon.Bullying means both the peer hostility I experienced, and also to some degree, the issues with the legal system I've had. (But the peer bullying/cyberbullying was more excessive, hurtful, and incessant, so I regard it is something more of an incident rather than something to actively work through.)I've been forced to...
September 24th, 2013 at 06:11am

ac: new leaf blog journal!

I've never done one of these before, I usually use tumblr for this stuff, but I've been playing New Leaf since June 16th. (City Folk will always be closest to my heart, but I've put a lot into this game too.)I currently have Scoot, Ankha, Chief, Peanut, Chops, Walt, Melba, Boomer, and Jambette in my town~.I was really behind all my friends when I started playing because I didn't get a 3DS or the...
September 21st, 2013 at 06:41pm

Ice cream vs. Self image.

My therapist is a hippie. A very realistic, tennis-playing hippie who can't utilized metaphors correctly all of the time. LOL But she did give me one that was super cute and actually helpful for some reason.I have some trouble with getting through the uncomfortable stage of first-time interactions because of underlying reasons a,b,c and cognitive factor x and whatever. But the main issue of this...
September 21st, 2013 at 03:40pm

Fanfiction's bad rap.

(Facepalm; this started as a journal comment, but I actually have a point to make.)There is one primary reason why fanfiction is looked at with so much condescension: it's online. Which means it isn't published; it's been through no professional review, no scrupulous editing, has not been rejected for the content of its plot, and hasn't been deemed worthy of distribution. We might subjectively...
September 19th, 2013 at 03:40am

My Inner Conflict.

I'm torn between wanting to break down and sob because I can't handle these overwhelming issues in my life, and wanting to share all of the amazing and cool things I'm doing so I can show off to all the people who hurt me, and show them how much better I am than them.But these are both just short-term distractions from a long-term necessity.I'm doing some really cool things, it's true. I could...
September 11th, 2013 at 04:09am

Introvert-ism.

It sucks, man.The first half hour of my Philosophy Club meeting was excruciating. I'm so shy that I don't know how to bond with strangers if they don't set the precedent of approaching me first. I don't like to make a big deal about myself, I only like surprising people when they try to get to know me. So while everybody chatted and laughed about things I didn't think were clever, I just sat in my...
September 10th, 2013 at 11:28pm

I should've seen it glow, but everybody knows that a broken heart is blind.

Little Black Submarines by The Black Keys.I don't even know what good music is anymore but anything Black Keys/Awolnation/Lana Del Rey-ish is fine right now.My boyfriend's gone for a couple of days. We had a fight before he left. Things between us don't stay icy, but I don't feel so great right now.I don't know why it's so hard for him to be away. It's the security, I guess. I spent a year and a...
September 10th, 2013 at 02:49am

Mibba, and watching it change over the last six years.

I joined Mibba in 2007. I came off the INO boat after learning that one of my favorite fanfiction authors there was transferring to Mibba. I was a twelve year old baby. :vTo be fair, I think I was pretty developed when I was twelve. I was extremely introverted and nurtured the same friendships as when I was in elementary school, but they weren't eclectic or satisfying enough to me, so Mibba had a...
September 8th, 2013 at 04:26am