There are so many people, but it still feels like there's no one.. like I'm on my own?? I am on a ship, but I feel like it's just a boat that I am rowing with no one else on it.. just me. Should I jump off this boat? Then it would actually just be me.. and water, trying to balance each other. I am full, everything is perfectly fine and even overwhelming, but there's still emptiness, lots of...

I don't know what I did wrong or where I went wrong.. everyone feels so distant right now. All my online friends, even my best friends, act super weird and uncool now. I over-think everything, every fucking thing. I'm an attention whore and I want people to talk to me when I talk to them, I want them to be nice to me when I'm nice to them. All my friends in a Skype group I'm in, they only talk...