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Yeah I'm feelin' a lot better just tired and stuff. But our prom was last weekend...that's why I thought it was worse that they broke up on Sunday, cuz prom was on Saturday, and he had to work even when he was hurt and sick to buy tickets and her dress and all that crap.

I dunno. I guess I just need....I dunno what I need, but I'm worried about him because he works from midnight to eleven in the morning every day, and he hardly ever sleeps during the day.

I dunno. I guess it's his life, and I don't know the whole story because he won't tell me hardly anything, which makes me think that everything's my fault, which makes me feel horrible and makes me eat less.

Ugh. Sorry for complaining still. You must think I'm such a whiner lol

I'm okay, I guess. I stayed home last Thursday and Friday cuz I was sick. Uhm, my friend broke up with his girlfriend on Sunday, and then I found out on Tuesday that they were back together. So...I don't even get him, but then again, I never have.

Lots of tests this week...they're all gateways, so yeah. They're so easy, it's not even funny.

So what've you been up to?

hey umm if you have msn add me here's my screen name it's xo_sweetheartz@hotmail.com. add me I'd really like to chat with you. Hope to talk to you soon.

I'm really sick. Still. Ugh. I had to come home from school early. And then I slept all day. And the cable went out, so my grandma blamed me (even though I was asleep). And I'm still exhausted.

I'm kinda happy though. I managed to get my family together for a little bonding. The cable was still out, so I popped in Star Wars. And like, my entire family came and watched it with me. I got so happy XD

How're you?

Ah, yes. Kate in the ghetto. That should be a reality show. Haha I'm so white...I'm not even talking about my skin. I just act really, really white.

-shrugs- oh well.

Nothing much has happened. I've been really sick this week. My parents say it's allergies, but I think that the combination of allergies and my little drama is making this really bad...thing. It's amplifying everything.

But I'm really tired of complaining. I feel like a whiner. So I'm gonna talk about happy things.

My dad's graduation ceremony is this weekend. And my grandma from Georgia is coming up to visit. So I'm really excited. Uh...I made all A's and B's on my progress report. And I might actually get a full night's sleep tonight.

Haha. -sarcasm- I'm so [i]exciting[/i]. How about you?

Thank you so much for the nice comment on my poem I really appreciate it

Hola. Como estas?

Haha. Practicing for my district exam lol

Seriously? Dude. I've never been shot...or lived in the ghetto. Haha.

Goodnight...thanks for makin' me feel better

250 pushups? Good Lord. I can barely do like, two. [i]Maybe[/i] two and a half...if I'm lucky. Hahaha. Seriously, though? 250? Wow.

Everything else is okay, I guess. My friend came over on Friday, and I realized how boring I really am. My best friend got super pissed at me, but I suppose that I brought it onto myself. She still spends all her time with her boyfriend, but I'm just glad that I actually like this one, unlike some of her other beaus. Haha. Beaus. Anyways....

Yeah. Basically. I'm just a super boring person. And...yeah. It's all good. I'd rather be in a boring place than some ghetto 'hood where I'm afraid to go out to get the mail lest I be shot. Haha.

I'm so tired of people making excuses to do stupid, selfish crap. I know that I'm no saint, and that I can't really talk about selfishness or whatever, but still. I only make excuses for worrying and feeling guilty, which I can pine over in private without anyone knowing.

Aw. Why are your hands shaking? Are you okay?

Haha. Everyone's on my case to eat. I do try, actually; I just get an upset stomach if I eat more than a few bites of anything. I tried to have a brownie, and it made me sad when I couldn't finish it. Haha.

But yeah. I still feel really guilty. Because they were (or are, I guess) still living together and...I dunno. I just feel like everything was all fine and good until a few months ago when we started talking, and that I was like, the catalyst for all this crap to happen. Gah.

Dude! I love the Used. That's awesome. I wish they'd come here.

Well...uhm...on Monday, I got accused of trying to date him. And...at first, when the chick (who I don't even know) was like, [i]that's not what i heard[/i], I got super pissed. Like, I was spitting fire. And I told him about it, and then after I talked to the chick some more I got really really upset. Like, I got physically ill, and didn't eat for two days. But he made me feel better, so I was able to act normal (kinda).

So, the rest of the week, I was alright. I still felt really sick, though, but I was able to eat a little and act like I was just a little under the weather or whatever, you know?

And then today, he told me that him and his girlfriend were probably gonna break up, because apparently she wasn't happy. And I just straight up asked him if it was because of me, and he said no.

But, of course, he hasn't said a word to me about any of the problems that I've caused between him and his girlfriend. I mean, I asked him why he didn't tell me (he just said 'why would i') and why he even bothered with me anymore (he just told me that it was because we were 'bestest friends').

But I still don't get why he just let me be so oblivious, or why he didn't just stop talking to me to appease his girlfriend, who hates my guts because she thinks that he was cheating on her with me (which is a preposterous idea) no matter how much he told her that we were just friends.

And, by the way, I'm really really sorry for a) making you read all that and b) for like, burdening you with all my drama and crap. My bad :/

Hey. Haven't heard from you in a while. How are you?

Mk. Goodnight

Not five years, like [b]some[/b] people I know...-coughcough- Anyways...

Yeah. It's almost worse when an animal's hurting, and you can't figure out the probably. Like, a person can say 'Ow. My knee is broken and you poking at it doesn't help' but all a dog or cat or whatever can do is cry or hiss and snap at you, and then it's called viscious, poor thing.

I like kids. I want kids. But AFTER I'm married and have gone to college. Lol I'm very certain of the order I want things. Hahaha XD I don't have kids either. So it's all good :P

Lol I guess I would take after you, since you were around first :P

I'm such...I dunno. But I've always loved kids, but I've never wanted to have a career around them. Or animals; what if I screwed something up, and the kid was screwed up too? Or the animal died, or I had to put it to sleep? That would tear me up. So...yeah. No doctor-ness for me :)

Thanks...I haven't worked on it in a while. It's good to know that I'm not writing them just for the sake of writing them anymore. Lol

O.o that's like, my favorite smiley thing. Hahaha. Weird. Lol

I've always loved playing the game, but I never thought of myself as pro. In fact, me playing in college was just like, a fantasy that would flit across my mind during the heat of the season, or at camp.

But...some people are like, so [i]into[/i] it, so passionate and sure about their love of the game. I've never been like that--it's always been a healthy, fun way to release my competitiveness. And, I guess I'm good, but I would feel so bad if I took somebody's spot that had that fierce, undying love for the sport.

I've...I dunno. It just seems like a career that makes you both the most physically fit and the most beat down. It burns bright but fast, you know? I've always wanted to be a writer, or a psychologist.

You're the first person I've ever told that to, you know. That I've always known that I was playing just for fun, and that I knew that it wasn't going to be my life. O.o

Um...I was an eduletic. Lol apparently I was one of the best players that had the best grades in the city (top ten girls). And...I was in the allstar teams a lot. But...that was all. Probably my favorite thing was that last season, I was the only player that started every game, even when my ankle was badly sprained.

But...yeah. My parents thought I was doing drugs or something because I 'suddenly didn't want to play'. But what they didn't know was that I've been considering not playing for a while. But, I never told anyone, so I guess it was a surprise.

I played basketball ever since I was six, and have played for the school team the last three seasons. But...I don't think that I can take not having a close friend on the team. It's just [i]so[/i] hard for me to not have someone to talk to.

My family and friends freaked out when I told them that I wasn't playing sports next year. Gar. They made me do drug tests O.o

Nah, my little brother does. I was a basketball/volleyball player. Haha I'm not playing anymore....I was tired of teams not being teams and just being full of catty, petty girls.

Makes me think of that quote: Don't sweat the petty things and don't pet the sweaty things.

Hahahahaa. Yay, good mood XD