how does anyone live with the unbearable truths of this world? i am utterly broken right now. i am having anxiety attacks out of nowhere more and more frequently as i stare into the fuckin abyss and i don't know how to comprehend it anymore. i thought i was comfortable with life and death cycle but i am now terrified. i love being here and i love my humans i share this life with and seeing it pass...

Hey everyone :3Doing the 40-hour-famine again this year, and if anyone would like to help me out by donating, that would be really great :Dhttps://famine.worldvision.com.au/famine.cgi?a=SPONSOR_&pn=671192730~~~Sorry for the link there, just trying to get this around a little. :)~~~Just a little update:I've been okay, I guess, dealing with granddad's death.It's been almost a month exactly since...

Today is my 16th birthday.I was really looking forward to it at the beginning of the year; getting my license, dad teaching me how to drive, getting a job, just the general 'sweet sixteen' thing, y'know?Today is everything but sweet, in reality.This is my first birthday without my daddy.My granddad is dying of lung cancer and could go at any moment.My cat is sick and I can't help him.All of my...

So I'm really just putting this here, more-so I can remember that I'm supposed to do it;A friend of mine suggested I write more to the last short story I posted, so I've had an idea to do a prequel, pretty much just explaining the entirety of the one-shot, which will be epilogue when I'm finished! :D Yaaaay. /is excited.On another note, if anyone actually reads this;1) How are you? :)2) What are...

I really feel like crap.There is this boy, Julius.And I am incredibly fond of said boy.And said boy is lovely. And brings me cheeseburgers while he's working. But he's happy. In a relationship. With A lovely lady. Whom I too, quite like and I wouldn't dare disturb this.Butfuck, its hurting me again.Someone told me to give up on him.I said never.Why?I have no idea.I'm...

I have black hair - so what?I have an iPod - who doesn't?I'm not happy all the time - who the hell is?Does this make me emo?I might have emo friends; you assume I'm emo too, right?Why?I have differnt beliefs to you - what right does that give you to tell me I'm wrong?Your background is differnt to mine - does that give you the right to make me feel like shit because of it? Your culture is differnt...

Evening/morning...-takes breath.-Well... I am not handling this year so well.Most of my teachers hate me, some of my friends are completely loosing the plot and I'm sure they think the same about me, I get collage-worth amouts of homework and Ireallyreallyreallymisshim. :( I don't like complaining but I need to.There are good things though, right?Tech! I love tech.And totaly pwning those bitchy...