The last time I wrote one of these was when they were journals and now everybody is like, questions and on about random things! But I don't care, I need an online diary at the minute and I am so freaking confused.I am nineteen years old and absolutely infatuated and have been for almost a year but now I am petrified that I am going to lose him. Because we are growing up, we are actually doing...

It's been two month ago since my brother passed away. Two month before this exact date, my amazing 20 year old brother died of undifferentiated cancer and today has been an abundance of emotion.One minute I can be fine, chatting to my friends and having a laugh with my eldest brother, then the next I'm sat crying on the floor, not knowing what to do. I can't even look at photo's of him, or even...

It's hard being told that a relative has cancer. Especially when that relative is your 20 year old brother. This is probably seen as weird talking to a website about this but I can't tell anybody else at the minute.Mums upset because she doesn't know what to do any more which then makes it pointless me talking to her. My friends have their own problems and the one thing they don't need is me...

My life literally seems to be straight out of "Tell me I'm a wreck" video mixed with an episode of "Skins" minus the drugs. I fell for a guy, had sex with him, two days later he got a girlfriend, crushed my heart, he finished his girlfriend, told me he liked me, friends hated him and abused him on the phone- now he hates me.Yeah. And for some silly reason, I can't get over him like I usually can...