When I caught myselfI had to stop myselffrom saying somethingthat I should of never thoughtthat song describes perfectly how i feel right now. I feel like I'm catching myself all the time with this guy. I like him but I don't then I do. It's crazy. I'm afraid he will hurt me, in fact I know he will. He doesn't like me like that. I was just a one night stand and he just sees me as a friend. We are...

I think my heart weighs at least a half ton or more. I feel like a zombie. I'm not happy, not sad, just kinda here. A monster of sorts, everyone looks at me and thinks I'm sick. Today, I went to school with no make up except eye liner, my skin is pale, my checks red from my rosacea, its not bad bad its just kinda read, the worse part about my face is the dark circles.The circles engulf my eyes....

I love you. plain and simple i love you. I never said it till not. Well i said it in the friend way but i love you more than the friend way. I need you. I want you here and I don't want to annoy you so I wont call again. But I love you please drive your truck over and drink your trust threw my window like the escape the fate song.I'm drunk and I want you just like you wanted me friday night. I...

And I'm thinking of him, he's not thinking of me. And now all that he wants is the touch of a warm body.You confuse me so much. Why can't you just let me go? Or even better why can't I let you go? Remember, you were the one that wanted us to be friends? Not me, but i agreed, I said fine because having you in my life is more important than us being together.I know you aren't think about what you...

I hope what I'm doing isn't a mistake.I hope we can forgive and not forget but learn from this.Mostly I hope I can get passed what you did.I hope you don't dissapoint me.I'm scared to let you back in. I need to know its okay to be afraid. I need you to tell me you love me, you miss me, and you don't want to hurt me again. You need to understand how it is for me to have you back in my life.I hope...

Its night like these when i miss you the mostSleep wont come and I'm all aloneI wanna pick up the phone and give you a callbut for all i know know itll end up in an argumentMy friends say I need to try one last timeI guess I'm just to afraidYou really did a number on me this timeFrom panic attacks to hidden crying spellsI plan on giving you the picture tomorrowI hope you like it and you start...

Why can't I just move on and forget you?..So what, you were my best friend for a year and some odd months. I had some of the best times of my life with you. Big deal. I've always been able to just move on away from people but you. For some reason with you, I can't seem to just move on.It pisses me off, after all the things you did and continue to do, i still miss you. I still have to keep myself...

Is my favorite. I like to drink a little too much. I'm tipsy and sad. I'm sorry if this makes no sense or is just a stupid, waste of your time, but I just wanted a place to write what I feel right now.I dont understand people. I care for them soooo much then they just shit on me. I cared about you so much and you just fucked me over, not once not twice not three times but four. And its like I just...

It's taking too long for meCan we speed up the process, please?Or show me the one I needI thought I needed you. I know you said you never needed anyone. Its my fault for not listening to you, but i wanted to be the first person you needed. Its funny how I'm the last thing you needed. Its even funnier how I believed every word you said. I believed you'd always be there. I believed you actually...

Its right there what I wanted. I reach and I reach. I keep telling myself to reach a little more. Push a little harder.But I was born with arms too short, my head always in the clouds, and my heart on my sleeve. What a wonderful combination!A combination that leads to disaster most of the time. A way of life that I'm trying to change, but how can I change myself? I am who I am, I dont know how to...