I feel like there's a migraine in my ear. It really really hurts. I went to the doctor's on Friday and she said I have a throat infection that might have gotten up to my left ear. I can't hear out of it properly. It feels blocked. So she gave me ear drops and they are not friggin helping at all. It just feels double blocked. She also said that it was full of wax, so earlier I tried to remove the...

Sometimes I feel invisible. I'm really short and below eye level so I know that my height adds to it. But in all reality, its not just that. I'm like an afterthought; the one that always gets left behind.If you know me personally, then you know that I am way too nice for my own good. That I do nice things for everyone and am just nice. Well apparently karma doesnt exist for me. Well, positive...

The extremely paranoid feeling is getting worse. I have no reason to feel this way. But I do. I'm just sitting in my bed with my computer and i have facebook and tumblr open and Ryan is texting me but i still feel really alone.I feel empty.I've been waiting for awhile. Pretty much since I got home. But I haven't really gotten anything. But it's fine. At some point in time, everyone forgets about...

For the past few days, my mind has been a little bit hazy. So much has happened and I'm really not sure how to deal with everything. I hate imposing on people, I hate it. I won't ever ask for help or drown someone in my problems along with me. I'm usually pretty good at dealing with it on my own because I've never really had people care.But I've got friends that care now. I'm not used to it. I'm...

I think I'm just going to forget everything that ever happened. Everything. With you. And start over. This means, that I'm back to base one. I have zero confidence and no self esteem whatsoever. But it's not my fault. If you expected me to still have all of that after being told no, again, I don't know why you would think that. I honestly don't.I don't know how to talk to you now. I know that I...

I'm sorry, but I just really need to vent. What's the difference between me and her? We're the same age, only, she's prettier and you fancy her more. oh, and she also lives far away so i don't get it.oh wait.you're a liar.All that stuff about being confident in yourself and yadda yadda you're beautiful, no.just no.i don't even know what i'm going on about. But i do know if i don't get this off my...

I'm really bored. So i decided to make a blog post about things you wouldn't know by looking at my picture.I have really long eyelashes. There is an ishaped scar on my left cheek. I got stitches in my forehead when I was two years old. I adore Florence + the Machine. I'm a nerd. If I don't use smiley faces when I text you, I'm most likely not in a good mood. My room is a mess most of the time. I'm...

This is to keep me from losing my mind. I honestly don't know what's wrong with me. Hell, I've already lost half my mind. Things, well everyTHING is going to shit for me. I can't even keep anything. Important friendships are slipping away from me, and.. I don't know what to do. I'm confused.I want everything to work out, but I can't just sit here and be paranoid for the rest of my life. I guess,...

I've worked all week. Today was my last day for the week and then i have a couple of days off, finally. My feet are sore and I haven't been sleeping properly. I basically live at my workplace. I have no time for anything. And then a half hour before my shift is done, someone calls in sick.I work at a coffee shop. It's very short staffed because the boss is an idiot and doesn't like to hire people....

Lately, I can never do the right thing. I can't be myself. I'm getting on everyone's nerves. I'm not the same, happy, smiley girl my friends know me as. I'm down on myself, I always think the worst, I basically harbour alot of negative energy. Example: I don't mean anything to anybody. I'm not good enough. No one wants to try for me. etc..All of that is a load of bogus because I must mean...

I don't trust myself. Since summer started I haven't seen any of my friends. After work, my best friend texted me and asked if i wanted to go for a walk or whatever. I said sure. with her, came one of our mutual friends, a guy i've had feelings for for a while. I don't think I still do, but he is important to me in a sense. They didn't stay long. It was fine, because i was tired too.i get home. I...

Ohay mibba. It's summer, but this summer sucks for me because i'm always working. Like six days a week. I have one day off and that's it. I use that day to sleep aha. As a result of always working, I'm sore. I'm so sore that I feel my body may break if I don't be careful. I've been getting massages from a friend, but I haven't been talking to him, so no massages tonight ):On another note, I'm...

Decided to take a leap and actually go after what I want rather than let it slip away from me, as it always does. I didn't want to regret it later, or think why the hell didn't i do anything? I could have had it. In this particular case, a guy.Mutual feelings, yeah? Distance? Ruins everything. I confessed that i kind of loved this kid more than a friend. And.. though he does like me, i'm too far...

So, I know this guy. We're pretty great friends. I don't get to see him that much, so we always text. And lately... i feel like an idiot around him. He and I both know that we have feelings for each other. And I try not to bug him too much, but then just do things that i do for all my friends. Such as texting him good morning.. He doesn't always reply, and that's okay. Only i use an app for...

Well hello mibbs. Today I am 19 years olddd. I feel so old. .-. i don't even look eighteen. But i'm 19! Woo! I got a fish; she's red and super cute. I named her Ginger. She's only a beta fish, but I've wanted a fish for like everr, and I finally got one. c: The littlest things make me so happy; I'm amused by simple things anyways. But just people telling me happy birthday makes me happy. I've...

Hi. I'm looking for someone. I lost him in the server crash and I'd really like to find him again, but I can't remember what his old username is. His new one was hunde;. His name is Aedan. He's 17 years old and from Canada. ;cIf you've talked to this guy, can you message me the link to his profile? That would be lovely. I've found all his stories and stuff on google, searching it. But since the...

oh hey there journals.just wanted to share something. or let it out, or whatever. Itsssss about a guy. haha. yes. a guy. typical, omghessocuteandilovehim thing. but it isnt. im typing this on my phone so excuse any errors. im usually a grammar nazi otherwise. promise. c:this isnt just a crush. im pretty sure that im in too deep but im comfortable and i dont want to move. im pretty sure that he...

Why do relationships have to be sohard? What happened to the good old dayswhen you dated people you liked and not to manipulate them or anything like that? When did it go from black and white to full on colour? When did all these other factors pop up that I suddenly have to consider? Why, just why?How come I can't be happy like they were in the old age? Why are they so complicated? It doesn't make...

You know what would be sooo amazing? If you could check out this story. :D It's only got one chapter, but it has a wicked layout and the first chapter just makes you hooked. It's not your typical story, and it doesn't start off the typical way either.But it's creative. And that's what we're going for here, right? :3 Right. Stories seem to lack creativity; in my experience anyways.So check it out....

You know what would be really amazing? If you guys could check out my new story, Always. (: The idea just came to me suddenly and I just had to write it.I know that I have a ton of other stories going on too, and I need to finish them... but this is summer. I won't have time to write it later and I certainly don't want it to get stuck up in my head. Plus, it seems as if my writing style has been...