Life in the Lyme Light.

2011 was the year that I adjusted to life with Lyme. I learned how to handle being sick and how to work around it. I learned what it truly took to keep going every day, and though I faltered a few times, I figured out how to get back on my feet. I met people like me—the chronically ill—and I realized that I am not alone. By learning their stories, I learned about empathy and the power in...
January 1st, 2012 at 01:31am

Help! (Question)

Hi. So this is just something really quick.I want to knit myself a Slytherin scarf because I’m bored, uninspired, and watch Harry Potter weekend, but I’ve reached a complex.I can’t figure out the colors.I mean, obviously I’m going to use the dark green, I’m just not sure if I should use asilver grey or a white with it. I kind of like the way the grey looks, but I don’t have much of...
December 4th, 2011 at 02:39am

I just don't know what to do anymore.

The past two days, I’ve been really sick. I have no energy. I’m sore all over. My back and neck feel like they’re on fire. I’m tired. I can’t sleep. I kind of just want to die.I feel like I’m losing the battle with my disease. I try so, so hard to fight back and to not let it take over, but when it gets bad like this, it’s like it’s taunting me, letting me know that it still has...
November 16th, 2011 at 12:39am

Questions. I'm stupid. Guilty pleasure?

So I am pretty much the biggest idiot. Here I’ve been, walking around saying that my Lyme diagnosis anniversary has been the 24th of November but guess what? It’s actually the 18th. The 24th was the day my cat died a couple years ago.Seriously, I don’t know how I got those confused.. These are important days and I mixed them up. But whatever.Anyways.Want to look at this and tell me what you...
November 12th, 2011 at 11:59pm

Would anyone read this?

So I’m working on a piece that I’ve been mentally planning for months.I’m sure many of you know that I have Chronic Lyme Disease. The first anniversary of my diagnosis comes up on the 24th, and I’m writing this thing about my journey so far—what I’ve learned and what I’ve taught. I’m thinking about calling it something with Lyme Light in it. Passage in the Lyme Light? I don’t...
November 8th, 2011 at 10:00pm

Two important points, though the first one matters a little more.

So my Lyme anniversary is coming up on the 24. November 24, 2010 is the day that literally changed my life. Living with Chronic Lyme Disease is a journey in itself, and unless you suffer alongside me, there’s no way for me to explain what it’s like that you’ll be able to understand. Anyways, I’m going to write a pretty big piece for it. I don’t know if I’ll keep it as a journal or put...
November 4th, 2011 at 01:17am

Why I need math.

I’ve noticed recently that every time I’m mad or stressed or sad or there’s something bothering me, I do math. It took me until just yesterday to figure out why.Math is pretty black and white—there’s a right answer, and there is a wrong answer. There is no in between. No hard thinking or anything. It’s just simply going through a process to sort out the unnecessary information from...
November 3rd, 2011 at 08:20pm

So. There's a guy. And a song.

Goodness, goodness.So there’s this guy in my anatomy class (last block) that sits across from me named Tyler. Lemme tell you, he is like, one of the coolest people ever. He and I were talking todayinstead of working about so much stuff.He was telling me about how he’s able to read people super easy and figure them about by just watching them. Then, he started telling me what he’s figured out...
November 1st, 2011 at 08:36pm

I NEED HELP!!

Omg mibba I need HELPPPPPPPP!So I’m having to write this paper for English on The Crucible, and I’m finished with it, except for a single word. Yeah do you know how frustrating that is? A stupid single word in a stupid phrase but I cannot think of the right one and I’ve checked a bunch of thesauri but nothing is right, so you, lovely movely writers of the Internet, do you think you could...
October 28th, 2011 at 01:33am

I'm gonna make sweaters for penguins.

So I’ve finally found a way to justify my wasteful spending on yarn and knitting needles—knitting for charity rather than myself. My first mission: knit sweaters for penguins.There was this oil spill off the coast of New Zealand, causing hundreds of penguins to die (only hundreds might be an exaggeration). After the nice wildlife-saving people down there pick up the penguins to save them, they...
October 23rd, 2011 at 03:41am

Haircuts and my future.

I really want to cut my hair again. Right now it’s about boob length, and my layers have grown out. I want it up to the tops of my shoulders with an angle in the front and maybe a little bit of layering at the bottom. My hair is getting on my last nerve anymore, and I really want it just out of the way and easier to manage.Honestly, I’m going to chop it all off before my freshman year of...
October 16th, 2011 at 05:39pm

I'm sick again. I like backgammon.

The manager at work had a cold today and I think she gave it to me. I’ve been having a wicked cough since I came home and I’m all sniffley. Then, I went outside when my dad was grilling and now my eyes sting.I hate being sick. I’m always sick.**I kind of just wanted to complain, so to fill up the rest of my 100 words, I’ll whore out some one shots:Chain is about a girl that gets into a...
October 16th, 2011 at 02:22am

This is me rambling about being afraid for my town. My town is like Jaws. Tell me about your home?

Yesterday I was feeling pretty icky. I was shaky and achy and all of my muscles felt like they had taken a beating, on top of me being nauseated and having a headache all day. I still stuck it out at school, though. Well, until the last class. I went home right before last block because it’s only anatomy and all she does is hand out worksheets, so it’s not like I was missing much.I’m ten...
October 15th, 2011 at 04:15pm

la la la la la la la I've got a question!

So for about two hours now, I’ve been trying to do my history homework which consists of reading two forms of the Declaration of Independence and then read and analyze Common Sense. I’ve resorted to SparkNoting, and still not done.I am so hating this history right now. I’m spending way too much time on it and I have a freakin’ AP Chem test tomorrow that I need to study for, and trust me,...
October 13th, 2011 at 11:49pm

The fire trucks came to school. I like pumpkins.

So guess who missed about an hour and a half of class today at school? This girl.We had a “fire drill”, though it wasn’t exactly a drill. So, our school is building a second gym for the sports people to hold practices, and the construction workers were messing with the roof today. Well, one of them accidentally hit one of the water pipes, causing the water pressure to drop to really low...
October 11th, 2011 at 12:15am

Sweet kid in anatomy. Baking. Got any good stories pour moi?

My room is so freaking freezing cold! Like, I’m sitting underneath a huge blanket with my flannel jammie bottoms and a sweater and big warm socks and I have goosebumps all over.I really want a cowl. You know those things that are like scarves, but they’re really not because it’s one piece and connected? Yeah. One of those. I think I’m going to try and knit one, but first I need to find a...
October 7th, 2011 at 10:27pm

Do you ever become so obnoxious you annoy yourself? And stupid girl in school. And stuffs.

So yeah. I’ve been exiled to my bedroom because my glorious personality~. But that’s okay. I’m sorry they couldn’t handle it.I’m too cool for them anywaysI actually have a lot of homework today! I have to finish reading the second act of The Crucible, then go back through the first two acts, do these two worksheets with them, and then do this weird journal assignment. I have an entire...
September 29th, 2011 at 10:18pm

Well. I'm not dead. And poor boy in anatomy class. And question.

So for those of you who read my last journal, I DO NOT HAVE A BLOOD CLOT, THANK THE LORD!I went in yesterday morning for the CT scan and it turned out clear. I found some old antibiotics that I was prescribed a couple months ago for strep that I didn’t finish taking, so those, along with my inhaler, are really helping the breathing problems.Really, thank you to everyone who wished me well...
September 29th, 2011 at 12:46am

I'm actually really terrified.

So since Saturday night, I’ve been having a really hard time breathing. My chest feels like someone has been sitting on it—it’s super tight. There’s no real cough, but I feel my entire trachea burning when I exhale, and it’s getting pretty intense. So my dad decided to take me into the Urgent Care tonight. What did he say?Suspected blood clot.Dude.So I got knee surgery done on September...
September 27th, 2011 at 03:26am

Blood and cheese.

People who don’t give blood bother me. I’m not talking about the people that are afraid to give blood because of the needles and all; I’m talking about the people that feel like it’s unnecessary and gross. Sorry bud, but if you were dying in a hospital and the only thing you need to stay alive was a couple bags of blood, I don’t think you would be all, “ew, dis is disgusting get it...
September 26th, 2011 at 12:21am