blue. / Comments

yes, definitely. and we don't really have that much in common either. i mean, he likes sci-fi and harry potter, which is awesome. but i mean, the second i start talking about green day and the beatles and sonic youth and mott the hoople he's kinda like "whaaaaa....?" and i think i definitley need someone with a cracking music taste. not to be too picky, of course. but hey, i'm young. what does it matter. :)

eeee, so how long has it been now with you two?
i saw my ex today actually. eek. i can't believe i ever did... y'know :$ but hey, it was beautiful at the time. he wasn't my type AT ALL and he kinda liked his PS3 more than me, but he did a good few months. i really miss having someone, though.

2am? gah, that's not good!

xx

ah yes, jon's just... jon. y'know, he's lovely and very awesome and such but well, i don't think we could date. as much as looks have nothing to do with it - you do have be attracted to said someone. and well, with jon... not so much. which sounds awful shallow, but yaknow, tis the way i feel. so yeah, it's most counterproductive: i go out with two guys, both of whom are older and more mature than the idiots i have in my year and pssh, i'd say no to both of them. what is up with that?!

but omgomgomgomgomgomg that sounds irrestable. blue, i am so happy for you and so so so so so jealous! his heart was beating like that? omgomgomg i just melted. he sounds like an uber sweetheart. i think you should keep him around ;) and i know what you mean about the jelly legs thing. i used to get that alllll the time with my old boof.
fdskljhljsaf i really want someone now.

xx

holy shit you have a new and beautiful profile! :)

and yes, i'ma give up on rich. i really don't feel much for him, and despite walking all over her - he is still into his girlf. he just has a crap way of showing it. and even if we did date, it wouldn't work because he still lives quite a way from me and neither of us can drive and he is 19. so meh. he can jog on. i shall find someone new.

eeee, you did? how exciting! i love making out. i miss it.
yeaaah, go ahead - enlighten me :)

xx

Ugh, don't I know it blue. I really just, ugh. I saw him again the other day for another cinema trip - and he was exactly the same. Kissing me and hugging me and calling up his girfriend when he wanted a ride.
I really didn't show any emotion to him all day. But that was for other reasons. Basically, my daddy's a fireman and there was a big fire on Tuesday night in our town and two of his best work buddies died. And blue, there were such lovely guys. And it's so sad. And well, it really brought home what's important in life. And Rich isn't that.

But now you are baaaack, a big welcome andandand, how are things? How's the boyyy, for one? ;)

xx

BLUE. INBOX. NOOOOOOOOOW.

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BLUE I HAVE SO MUCH TO TELL YOU I AM FIT TO BURST. I WILL SEND YOU ALL THE DETAILS PROBS IN A P.M BECAUSE THERE IS TOO MUCH TO SAY BUT OMG, I WILL GIVE YOU THE SYNOPSIS.
- ADORKABLE GUY & ME MADE PLANS TO GO TO THE CINEMA AND RICH FOUND OUT AND INSISTED ON COMING WITH US AND IT'S CRAZY HOW MUCH YOUR OPINION CAN CHANGE ON SOMEONE BECAUSE OMG, HE IS SUCH A DICK AND HE IS A DICK TO HIS GIRLFRIEND AND I DO NOT WANT TO BE INVOLVED WITH HIM ANYMORE AFTER THIS.

Hope you're well :)

xx

Hahaaaa, blue, I love your advice. And oh my god, I would lovelovelove to go after him too. He just seems so much nicer and funnier and he is way more adorable - it's just, I think he might be gay! And if he's not, then well, he should be. Pahahaha! But I will try and find out. If he is not, then yes, I may try and sweep him because omg, we would make such a pair. He said the other day that I was a girl with fine taste, after I told him I liked sci-fi. Eeeeeeeeee.

And yah, chubby guy is called Jon. And yeah, cooties guy is called Rich. *grumble grumble* Aaaaaaand speaking of Rich, he hasn't spoken to me at all since Sunday (not even a thank you for letting me have use one of your free bowling tickets, which realllly pissed me off) but he came online yesterday and the first thing he did was send me a hugging emoticon. Yerrr, jog on. And then I barely had time to tell him that I had Green Day tickets and then I went.

That's another thing, blue. I HAVE GREEN DAY TICKETS I DO, DO! For the show the day after my final school exam. How beautiful?! I can't believe it. I'm all.... numb again.

Josh. That's a nice name. Shelby & Josh. OMG THAT TOTALLY GOES.
AND EEEE, YOU KISSED?! HOW AWESOME!
N'aww, yeah, I'm sure that's how first kisses go. I remember mine wasn't exactly planned either. He wasn't even my bf at the time. He was walking me home and we decided that because the sky was so pretty we would sit on the floor for a while outside, so we did. And he kinda pulled me down to lie on him and so while I was there, I kinda kissed his cheek and just as I did, he turned and caught me right on the lips and then it was this full-blown, three minute long kiss. Like, my stomach was going mad cos I really had no idea what to do. But apparently, I did it alright so yah, all is well.
Except for the fact that we broke up in July and people STILL talk about us and what we did and ugh, reputations aren't cool.

BUT EEEEEEEEEEE I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND YOUR IN-LOVE-NESS!

But ooh, I may be able to do some work at Rich and Jon's theatre soon. I asked the director (who I did my work experience with in the summer at the theatre) if I could do any backstage work for the show they are putting on and she's emailed asking if we would like to meet. I love theatre work. Andandand I get to be in an environment with Rich AND Jon. My, my, this could be interesting...

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Aha, I am glad you love my attention to detail. It's so good to have someone to rant to because they know I don't stop at all costs. :D

EW EW EW EW EW EW, I know. And at the time I was like ":D/:S" because I was happy we'd hung out it was so beautiful and yet I was like, wtf. He's still with his girlfriend and he's still just blown me off for her. And right now? I'm like, totally pissed off at him. He hasn't been online same time as me since I saw him, but there's been no texts, no Wall posts. Nothing. Unlike when I went to see his show, that night he was all, "It was so nice to see you, thank you for coming along". And I can kinda see that he is a TOTAL slimeball and is all, "I'll be all over you one minute but then totally ignore you and watch you chase me". Know what I mean? Yeah, it's like that.

Not to mention, he's got this friend I met on Friday who is LOVELY. His name is Jon, and check this: he's Christian, a Trekkie. a Doctor Who fan, very camp and chubby! He's like, the biggest dork ever and he is sooo adorable. He's a year younger than Rich and two years older than me. I added him on Facebook after I spoke to him on Friday and he keeps writing things on my Wall like, "hididley doodely!" and I'm all "EEEE OMG LOVE". He's so friendly. And so I told Rich that I had started speaking to him and he said, "Oh yeah, I saw." and kinda looked a little... y'know, like he wasn't happy about it. Like I should only be into him, know what I mean? So nooooow, seeing as Rich is off the scene and Jon is still there all, "Hallo kind lass!" I will hopefully get Rich seeing that I am NOT prepared to chase him and drool after him and all in all, I would much rather speak and have a laugh with someone GENUINE, who doesn't play me around. LIKE YOUR FRIEND JON. I mean, ouch right?

And yeah, I know exactly what you mean. We've got this boy, Sam, who practically IS Johnny Depp. I mean, he played Sweeney Todd in our school show and OMG HE IS PHENOMENAL, but it's totally gone to his head. And he KNOWS he's good. And he thinks that everyone is lucky to be his friend and he's such a NICE~ guy. He's beautiful, yeah, but I keep my distance.

And anyway, all this crazy boy stuff is starting to mean little after I had the most WONDERFUL time seeing Alice in Wonderland with my sister on Monday, andandandand, my parents are 'considering' getting me Green Day tickets for my birthday!

You lost? N'aww, shucks. Oh well, at least you had fun!

Hahaaa, well done for becoming a girlfriend, should I say. :) What be this guy's name, may I ask?

OMGOMGOMGOMG YES, WE WENT ON OUR BOWLING THING AND OMGOMGOMG. First of all, we sort of sat chatting nicely and had a few goes, I was totally crap and so whenever I got a good score, he'd high five me and when I sat down he'd put his hand on my back. THEN, I got up again and got my ball in the gutter twice in a row, so then he got up and got a strike. So when he came back to sit down I just said, "This thing actually hates me". So he said, "N'awww," right - SITS BEHIND ME, WRAPS HIS ARMS AROUND ME, PULLS ME DOWN TO LEAN ON HIS CHEST AND PUTS HIS CHIN ON MY HEAD AND HOLDS ME THERE FOR AGES. He looked down at me and I looked up at him and he said, "I can't believe how long we've left it." So I said, "I know, but I only saw you last week [at his show], so it's a start." And he said, "YES, THIS COULD BE THE START OF SOMETHING". And after that, every time I sat back down he would put his hand on my back again, and then whenever I got up, his hand RAN ALL THE WAY DOWN MY BACK and I swear, it gave me shivers inside. I had to act cool but it was like an electric shock everytime. I was all, FDSKDFDSKLAFJDS!
So yeah, then after bowling we had a walk around and stopped to get some food. We found a bench in the park next to the theatre and kinda sat there for the best part of an hour or so, just talking about anything and everything. There was work and family and siblings and heroes and age differences and future plans and college and all sorts of things. Afterwards we stopped in the theatre to see if his script was in, but it wasn't. So then we had another walk around and I said, "So, where are we off to now?" And he said, "Oh, I might make a move in a sec, I'll text Sarah [his girlf] and see if she wants to come 'round for a bit before netball". And then I said that was fine (when it wasn't, lmao) and he offered to wait with me until I got picked up but I said that he didn't have to. He put up a fight for a bit, but in the end he left.

So yeah, it was crazy. I mean, bowling - as you heard was like OMFGFDSJKDFS this is like, we are a couple. Afterwards? We were totally friendly and casual and there was nothing whatsoever. He's as confusing as HELL, he really is. Everyone I've told has said that even just acting all romantic with me for HALF A DAY is enough to say that he's not getting what he wants with Sarah - otherwise the WHOLE day would've been totally friendly. At the same time, I'm all, "If he really liked me then why is he still with her? Why did he blow me off at the end of the day for her?" But there is the fact that this was the first day I properly met up with him, y'know. And after one day there's little chance he's going to fall to his knees and say, "I LOVE YOU! I DO NOT WANT SARAH, I WANT YOU!" So my conclusion is that there still is work to be done over it all. But I will not stand for mixed signals, y'know. If we meet up again and he's STILL wrapping his arms around me and telling me tha "this could be the start of something" then I will ask him where the hell I stand and what he is thinking.

So yah, I hope that was detailed enough for you. I hate it when people don't tell you all the juicy stuff, clearly :P

Oh, and him? Haha, yeah, we haven't spoken much. We still say hey in the corridors and stuff, but whether the "pact" will last will only be determined come prom - so July time. It's only for a laugh, really. It's a "serious joke", and I hope you know what I mean!

But yeah, right now all boys have taken a back seat because it's all RICHRICHRICHRICH. D:

How did you band comp go, if you've done it yet? And how are you and the bf doing so far?

And omg, don't worry. I love you for it. You're like another person I can totally gush to and be completely honest. Other people you can scream to and things, but you're never sure of telling the whole truth to. I hope that doesn't sound too creepy...

xx

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GAH, I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS! I mean, he's still with his girlfriend so I shall have to go along tomorrow and see how he acts, y'know. Who knows, it might be totally friendly... I shall let you know...

EEEEEEEE, YAY that IS totally cute. I am uber happy for you. Oh, and good luck with your baaand comp, although I'm sure you will have lots of fun. ;D

So yeah, Cooties Boy has NUMEROUS cooties now him and I are going bowling alone and I really don't know what to expect....

I'm just hoping for an 'accidental' kiss or something that will make him want to choose me over his girlfriend, because I am an absolutley shameful biiiitch like that. D:

xx

Okay, FACT FILE: Cooties Boy.
REAL NAME: Rich
AGE: 19 (3 years and.... *counts on fingers* 7 months older than me).
LOCATION: He lives about a ten minute drive away, 20 minutes by bus.
CURRENTLY: He's in the 'Young People's Theatre' at the theatre I was at during work experience in July. He's also in another drama group they have there for students inbetween college and uni so, 18/19 year olds. He wants to apply to drama school in a few years' time, and yah, be some awesome actor person.
We've talked on MSN since knowing each other, I saw him in one show in December but did not catch up with him afterwards. So basically, until last Friday I had not seen him at all since we met.

That's him. :) We're going bowling this Sunday.

AND OMG EEE I AM TOTALLY HAPPY FOR YOU! Who is it? Is it your ex? YOU MUST TELL ME ALL!

xx

Eeeee, blue, you are back! And don't worry - I completely understand. I wish I could do the same, I have soooo much revision to do. But, y'know. :P

Anywayanywayanyway, blue it was BEAUTIFUL. I went to see one of his shows, right: 'The Tempest'. It was awesome, he was awesome. Then after the interval there was a 'post-show discussion' which only about 10 people came back for. And then when that was done, omg, we all filed out and he was already out the stage door and eeeee we hugged! And then we hugged again, and again. And then someone walked past and called me by his girlfriend's name. o_O And then I spoke to his buddies, and then we hugged again. And then when they all had to go he turned to me and said that he HAD to see me soon and then we hugged again and he kissed my cheek.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

And then he wrote on my Facebook wall that it was delightful to see me again and that we should 'make it a regular occurence' and my god, he talks like such a dork, it's adorable. So yeah, we're sort of making plans for this Sunday at the moment - but hes' kinda taking foreveeeeer to reply, which is getting me a little cranky. D:

I hope your school work's okay. How's life?

xx

Yay! I love tumblr followers, :D

Hey blue, hope you're alright. I have lots & lots to tell you about - here's a clue: I saw Cooties Boy last night. >.<
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeee, xx

blue, my love. Check your inbox. I had to send my reply as a pm because I think it is too long, lol! Much love, xx

Ugh, blue. I am in the dilemma of my LIFE, currently. And it's all men. Thanks to men. Menmenmenmenmen, oh, woe is me.

First of all, there's this guy called James who is a total oddball. I mean it. He's really... weird. He sort of stands and stares at people in class and just listens to conversations and if ever you're stood with him, he stands REAALLY close to you. And well, basically, he creeps everyone out. And he admitted today that he fancied me. And ohmygod, I don't know what to do. And he asked his not-so-weird friend whether people thought he was creepy, and not-so-weird friend said yes. So then, feeling self-conscious, he catches me after class and asks if we can "talk", right, he makes up A LOAD OF POO about how I said that he was 'an irritating creep', which I have NEVER said, just to get me to say, "No, James, I've never said you were a creep."
But ohmygod, it's really scary and I don't know what to do and today in English he got really angry and started wittering to himself because he overheard me talk about Cooties Boy.
FSDKJFDSLFDSJKL. I am waiting for an opportunity to say, "Please, I beg you. Do not like me. Just, don't."

Which brings me on to Cooties Boy. And yes, I am seeing him in a show after we talked about how he's going to 'make' me wait for him and we have to see each other one our 'one year anniversary' and how after I told him my middle name was the Norse Goddess of Love and the Night he went all, "Mmmm, Goddess of the Night, eh? ;)" GAHGAHGAH.
But no, I don't think his girlfriend is pretty. I am slightly biased, I know, but seriously, she looks like a complete frump and she doesn't even care about any of his drama stuff. She's on Social Interview on Facebook like, "What does Richard do in his spare time?" "Errr, something drama-ey, haha!"
Yeah. Not. Funny. Shut up.

Oh God, I am such a bitch. D:

And now I've got desperado boy phoning me up for an hour and a half and I seriously just want to GIVE UP ON MEN.

But tell me about your new hair. :)

xx

N'aw, it's no trouble. I totes forgivez you and all. :)

God, I am becoming a nun. I told my parents so last night after desperadoes boy phoned me up for an hour and a half. He is so annoying. He's all, "You're lucky I'm calling you up / so, tell me more about how far you got with your boyfriend". It's not even flattering anymore. He's quite hideous.


But I am seeing cooties boy next month! For like, the first time in just under a year. He was being all annoying and ~talking~ last night about how we should do something on our "one year anniversary" of meeting. Srsly, NOT what you would say to someone YOU ARE NOT DATING. And yet I still would hate for him to say, "Sorry, I can't talk to you like that for I have a girlf". Know what I mean? I really want him. It's awful. D:

Aw, how did you have it cut? Aw, I know the feeling. I had all mine hacked off at the beginning of 2009, like, really really crop short. And it sort of didn't work because my hair was too thick and fluffy. It's grown a lot, though, it's past my shoulders. I forgot how much long hair was like a sheild, if you get me.

Much love, xx

I know, it was a shock for me too. But at the same time, I did pester everyone on Facebook to send me messages and I was usually the one who text first because I was lonely and cold like that. However, pure love for everyone who replied, definitely.

Gaaah, I know! I lovelovelove them. I sent my best guy friend one last night. I love him so much, he's so camp and theatrical and I could've SWORN he was gay, but apparently he actually likes me :$ and it's really upsetting because I just thought we were best buddies. But nothing's been said from him, so I'm still acting normal and he said he liked his text today. :)

And yes, cooties boy DOES still have a girlfriend, which actually annoys me. I hope she is not the jealous type. I mean, who has a girlfriend and texts other girls sweet messages asking them to come see you in a show at midnight? I feel like saying, "Dude, wrong girl." And today on MSN he was coming out with all these weird things, probably just innocent flirts but when you've got a girlf - they're really not so innocent anymore.

Aw, shucks. I hope it goes/went all right. If he's a decent guy then he won't push you into anything. You're my soul mate, so you're obviously pretty smart with all that stuff. ;)

Boooys, eh. I really love them and hate them all at the same time.

xx

Haha, it was quite a laugh, being in the absolute middle of nowhere. But I did find some shops and I found a Topshop where I bought another Kurt Cobain top lovelovelove, and then it snooowed more than I've ever seen it snow before, but it was a little scary because we lost our electricity and everything went dark and we had to find our way around the house with torches. But yeah, and then we went into Wales where they have funny accents and then we came home. :)
And the funny thing was, I got 107 text messages during my stay - and about half of them were from desparado boy trying to have another go, pahaha.

Ugh, and guess who decided to text me at midnight? Cooties Boy. And he KNOWS how much I fall in love with people who send me spontaenous midnight texts. He's doing another show at the theatre and wants me to come see it again. Damn him and his phenomenal acting.

How's your week been?

xx