Hey Mibbians, it's been awhile.I just wanted to share my excitedness for today. Because today, January 30, 2012 marks 3 years since I stopped cutting.I am so proud of myself, I never thought i would even get past a year let alone 3 of them.I've had my rough patches like everyone else you know, I still go through a lot but I've learned that I don't have to hurt myself to deal with them, or to...

So I officially want to break down and just sit in my room and cry until I die.I had a fight of sorts with my step mother yesterday, on my birthday. She is the one cursing at me and going off about how I'm a bitch and how I'm fucked up. When I didn't even do anything to her, I just told her the truth honestly and calmly, I'm not a fake person and I refuse to play around.Then my dad just takes her...

So today I have been thinking a lot about my ex.And it's not that I miss him, because he was just an asshole, what I miss is what he made me feel. That feeling, like I could be happy for awhile. He used to make me laugh all the time, no matter how upset I was. He made me feel like I didn't have to be mad all the time, or stress about everything.Then he told me some stuff that just made me so...

You know what the fuck is wrong with people in todays world? Friends meaning nothing to anyone anymore. Like what the fuck are we doing?Maybe I am one of the only people left that actually can honestly give a damn about someone. To me when I'm your friend, I"m going to be there, I am going to text you and see if you want to hang out or go see a movie. Yet I never get that in return and when I do...

So recently I have been having a rough time dealing with things. Not that I was all that great at dealing with them before, but lately it just seems like I am losing everyone I care about.I feel like everyones being taken from me. First my best friend of 5 years. Honestly I can't even tell you what went wrong there. And I really don't want to get into it because that's a wound I rather not open at...

Is that so bad?I don't want to be stuck in one place for too long. I want to be a roaming, exploring, picture taking, having fun, care free girl. Is that too much to want?I have decided I want to major in Photography in college. I want to travel the world and take beautiful pictures. Pictures inspire me to travel, I want to be able to look at a picture of a place and say, "Oh, I was there too"....

Bleib. It means stay.This word is special to me. It seems to apply to my life, more or less.My wish for things to STAY the same. For people to STAY in my life, and not disappear. Wanting things to just STAY still so i can bask in my little happiness.I just want things to be okay again like they were, I wanted things to STAY. Just let me live in the limelight for a while, you know.I pray and hope...

Okay, today I watched The Last Song. Now I don't care for Miley Cyrus but I have to say that was one of the best movies I have ever seen.It made me think of my dad. You see he's been away for awhile now and i haven't seen him. I don't see him for years at a time. For the past couple of years all we have done is argue. What about I don't even remember. I hated it. I pretended to hate him. But I...

I'm so sick of girls being verbally abused by guys.Saying that they are ugly because they don't have an ass. Or saying they wouldn't go out with them because they're smart. You know that's such bullshit because if we were as "picky" as guys we would all be in a hole somewhere.I'm sick of not thinking I'm beautiful because of how big i am. You know what i may not be a size 2 but I am just as...

I really don't know what to think anymore. I mean i was having an awesome weekend. I was with my better family with my best friend and we were chillen and having an amazing time. That was on Friday.Also on Friday i had my first kiss now call me a hopelessly dumb romantic but that held sentimental value no matter how drunk i was i remembered and i truly didn't have enough time to think about...