I want to be an animator. But I don't have the skills. I wanted to be an accountant. As boring as it sounds I found the profession as useful as it is profitable but moving screwed that up and bad judgement. I want to go into architecture a little. Like it is a farfetched dream but to be able to remodel individual apartments in not so nice areas. Or to put it bluntly in the ghetto and the hood...

So, I have been stumped with personal issues for a long while. So I haven't written as much as I would have rathered. .. Well, I did, but then that server error thing happened back in April and took away two chapters that I just happened not to save... So oh well to that. I was even more shocked to see this new layout for the entire site.. Cause I usually travel mibba like on autopilot and I ended...

I'm gonna cry for a while. Luckily for me you cant give an exact amount of time for such a thing. Pained by loneliness a lot. I want to speak but I also want to be heard. I don't believe I have that gift.. It must be my defect because not many hear me and those who catch my voice ignore it or are bored by it. I look sad. People tell me that all, the time and no matter how close to tears I am if I...

August 27, 2010Inside you can never really see the outside. Like doesn't it ever become bothersome that you are the only person who can not see who you are. You can't look at your own eyes. Even in a mirror, to see beauty, it is only a reflection. The envious feeling of anger that arises when you are called beautiful. And yet you will always be unable to see it for yourself. T o look into your own...

My world ideasThat for kids in school they can have electronic agendas that register homework. They would be engineered onto the front covers of the agendas. The agendas would also be customized for the student and their schedule. The electronic agendas would have timers and report automatic assignments and notifications in the school using lighted blinkers.That first there should be a complete...

Do you really want to change? Is it time to? Are you really going to try now? Why now? What or who are the real reasons? Are you ready to change?Change.Yes I really want to change. It could be. Time is time. So if I had tried sooner or later, it would have been time to change. Yes I am really going to try. I found out what I really needed to know, from where I was. I now more than what I would...

My ThoughtsNo one behind me. Everyone in front of me. Wonder if they see me. Wonder if they hear me. Wonder if they feel me when they bump into me when they are walking through me.Wow. How conceited can I get. It is not all about me. But, then why am I here? If it is all about them, why is it that even though they outnumber me, they at times seem so miniscule.Like when you see ants compared to...

January 20,2010What is your greatest fear? Why?I have many fears, or what can also be called things, actions, or situations that scare me. Seeing as one fear I have is telling a fear and having it used against me. I would rather not say any. I can't always trust people. And that is because my trust has been broken. I don't know if it is just the people around me or people don't care to protecct me...

I was late coming back to school and didn't have any connection back to my friends. So, when I got back, I was not prepared to find out that I was seperate from all but 6 of them. Because the school is big and so they split the grade into houses so the teachers dont get stressed (scared). Then the 6 that are still in my house, only 2 of them have my same individual classes. Then, there is...