Dear society,Do you realize how hard you make my life? I honestly want to cry all the time. I can't be pretty because I'm a not a size 2. Right? Thats how you make it feel. I push myself so hard to loose weight. Honestly if I ever gain a pound on this diet I will cry, literally. I've never liked my body and I probably never will. After 18 pounds I'm still disappointed in myself for it not being...

Sometimes I wish I could just wrap my arms around you and hold you. I wish I could convince you that everything will be okay. I want us to last. I want you to be happy and put this behind you. I know its hard and I know it won't happen but I wish it would. You are what keeps me happy even though you aren't even truly happy. I wish I could just be good enough to make you happy and have everything...