um his name starts with a K. ive had a crush on the guy since 7th grade. im older by a month. i had another dream about him ( that makes 12 ) YES! 12 FUCKING DREAMS. grr... in every dream he says he loves me im not even kidding. i actually gave him a note telling him how i feel. and...he turned me down nicely though. he hugged me three times which made me like him more. my friend is a wiccan and...

i have so much hatred my family. my cousins...cousin no.1 called me a fucking retard just because im in s.e. but only for a emotional disability. cousin no.2 yells when i dont answer a ? right! my mom always thinks i hate her when she knows damn well i dont! my dad UGh im a air force brat and im emo not a good mix. my dad hates gays he hates any guy who wears makeup and i love gerard . he calls...

ever since i was in 4th grade i had "issues" . all the kids that i assumed to be dating were holding hands. it made me quite jealous and sad. and now that im almost 16 it makes me feel even worse. do i really look that bad... it makes me wonder what love is like. i wonder what its like to be married, be in a relationship. im told im too young to think about this stuff. maybe those people are...