So only having three days to plan I really didn't think today was going to go well. I made shirts for me and two of my friends, and I made like twelve masking tape arm bands with yellow equal signs. I also printed out forty of the speech cards off the site on colorful paper & gave it to my two friends to hand out. I got to school & gave my closest friends some arm bands. Soon I was flooded...

Read here.On Friday I'm going to be participating in that. I did it last year, created a t-shirt & wore duct tape over my mouth all day. Had it not been for the duct tape, no body really would've noticed. This year is my first year of high school. Since I wasn't sure how okay the school would've been with students wearing duct tape, I decided to email my principal and ask if it was okay.Sadly,...

Sometimes the most amazing people take the tiniest step into your life. A few years later a huge leap & suddenly they're the most important thing to you in the world. & then like that, they can be taken away.This amazing girl that I am with right here, my Sammydoll, my best friend, my ex girlfriend. I may never see this girl again. Because I tried to help her. Because I tried to save her...

I'm lost. I am so fucking lost right now & it scares the hell out of me. Who am I?Am I a lesbian? Am I bisexual? Am I just a really, really confused straight person? What is going on?!I don't know.On one hand, I like vagina. I know I do. But when it comes to liking girls I find it so much harder. I can't look at a girl & just think "oh, she's sexy." I've spent such a long time picking...

I define myself as bisexual. I know, sexuality isn't something that's set in stone. It's flexible. No one has the same exact preferences. The Kinsey scale is something of genius, in my opinion. But I wish it ran deeper, put everything into a group, why you like each sex, what you want from them, etc.For me, I don't really want to have sex with a guy. I just... don't. I know why I don't, but it's a...

I went to a meeting at my school tonight about advanced placement classes. They were talking about the statistics of how many students actually graduate & go to college & the entire time that she was talking I kept thinking to myself "I am terrified I'm going to be among the ones that don't." I'm terrified to become like my parents. Never picking a career & basically never having a job...

You know what I find ridiculous? When someone gets mad because you got something they wanted. Currently i'm talking about my friend samantha. I got an itouch yesterday and I told her today and she freaked out at me asking why I didn't buy her one.UM, excuse me, but the last time I checked it said nowhere that I had to buy her an electronic that cost me $300+. This girl must be crazy. Shake my...

I'm proud that for once in my life I can honestly say that I'm comfortable being myself. I was raised to do things because they make me happy & not to care what others think & that lesson has finally sunk in. When I was little I spent so much time comparing myself to others & worrying that if I did things that I liked people would tease me. I really don't care anymore. Judge me if you...

About five months ago I came out to my family as bisexual. The only reason I did it is because my brother announced I had a boyfriend when really I had a girlfriend & I didn't want them to think she's a dude.Today, my father tells me he's going to be joining GSA (Gay Straight Alliance) at the community college he's going to be going to in the spring. I'm f*cking disgusted by this. My father is...

I started a conversation with Samantha assuming we weren't together anymore because she kept talking about this chick like we were just friends. It was really weird & it bothered me a lot & she hadn't kissed me or hugged me or anything at all in three days. So I assumed we weren't together anymore & said something which sorta lead to us breaking up.What I said was "so we're over, yes?"...

My cousin and his wife are having a baby. They've had three other kids though, and they all got taken away by the state because his wife is highly bipolar & isn't a suitable mother according to the state. Anyways, they were trying to find someone to adopt it so it doesn't go to a stranger. At first my aunt said she might take it, but she doesn't have good health and she has problems getting...

When I was really little, like one or something, my aunt's dog bit me on the face. I had to get stitches, which I guess is considered surgery, so when I was like four I got a sh*t load of money. I'm not supposed to be able to get it until I'm eighteen, but since my ex-lawyer took like two thousand dollars 'cause she hadn't been paid, I have a small enough amount that they might let me just put it...

I'm trying to not want to know why. But I do, so terribly. I'm a nosy f*cker & I want to know but I'm not going to ask because I'd feel incredibly stupid phrasing that question like that because it's just so cliche & I know none of you know what the h*ll I'm talking about & I'm sorry about that, but please don't click away.Have you ever done this before? Wanted to know something so...

I'm reading my old forum posts & I'm remembering. I'm remembering all the conversations we had before we were even together & the adorable poem video she sent me & I'm remembering. & if remembering will help me move on or not, I don't know. One day I'm going to print all of these posts out because you know what, I want to remember. I want to remember what a big impact on my life...

Yes, I'm making it official this time. Whether my feelings will go away, I am unsure, but I'm no longer trying. She's made it clear she doesn't want to be with me, although she flirts with me all the d*mn time & I'm sick of making myself look like a fool. I've got to much dignity for that. I will do it no more, I am throwing in the towel.Oh, and you wanna know something totally freaking...

^ Listen to that. Seriously, listen to it. & read the lyrics 'cause this is like, the song that best explains how I've felt for a few days now. Listen to all of it. Yes, I'm not only talking to Mibbians but the one person I know/I'm hoping will read this.On with the journal!They changed our lunch schedules at school. Dayshia, Jada, and Taylor are the only people that kept the same lunch....

My older brother & his wife just bought their first house. It's from the 30's & it's freaking adorable. It's huge though, and since they have no furniture inside it echoes and creeks & makes it seem creepy & haunted. It's sort of scary. But it's gorgeous at the same time. & dude, all of the rooms have skeleton keys. They don't have the skeleton keys sadly, but they're looking...

She is indeed...Samantha's gonna drive me insane. I dislike using the term 'ex' with a passion, mainly because I'm not sure she can really be considered that. It's exactly like we're still together, minus kissing. Which is f*cking weird, but okay.She dumped me for two reasons that I am aware of. Reason A & reason B. Reason A is a lot easier for me to process, simply because it doesn't involve...

I hate that there's an 'ex' in front of that. :/Anywho, yesterday we broke up. I am heartbroken, but I'm recovering. Mainly because I realized she's going to be the exact same person she was before so I'm really not going to miss anything besides the bathroom kissing and attempting to turn me on under the lunch table. And her hugs. 'Cause she's not allowed to hug me anymore. Nope, sorry. That...

Yesterday my girlfriend (now ex...) and I broke up. I'm heartbroken. This is what happened today.All day I was fighting back tears. All f*cking day. This morning I was in a good mood, but it wasn't real 'cause I could still feel the heartbreak. I didn't want to see her being fine & dandy. I didn't. But she was. She was perfectly fine.Then my demeanor started to fade & I was almost in...