Because I still believe in America's potential to become a country that's truly free of injustice and discrimination. Regardless that the people in the government may not be the best, that the economy is kind of awful right now, that states like my own home state of North Carolina still refuse to let people marry who they like. We're still a young country comparatively speaking (China was...

First off, before I start rambling, I'd like to say I'm not asking for persuasion or persecution. I don't want to be "saved" because I believe the only way to be "saved" is for me to "save" myself, and I don't want to be told I'm going to Hell either. I'll gladly hear about your beliefs and opinions, and while I probably won't agree with them I will respect them.Religion isn't something I think is...

Hey, Mibba. It's been a while, right?My last journal entry was nearly a year ago almost when I was complaining about not knowing what to do with my life. That much hasn't changed anyway, but I'm getting my shit together at least. I took the SAT today and the ACT on Tuesday. I'm thinking about taking the ASVAB, purely out of curiosity. I always wanted to join the military when I was little, but I...

Today, I feel like an absolute wreck.But I know no one wants to read a journal about some teenage girl complaining, so I'll spare you.I want school to start. I need to be busy. If I'm not busy, I get depressed. And hopefully school will be very busy this year. I'm an officer of three clubs already, so that'll be interesting. Art Honors, International Thespian Society, and Improv. Woot woot.It's...

So yesterday I went to my friend Autumn's wedding. It was very nice.Bobby, her now-husband, is from China, and his family either doesn't know any English or doesn't know it well enough to understand the service, so there was a translator. It was interesting at least to hear it Chinese as well.The food at the reception was great too. They both work at a hibachi restaurant (which is Japanese, but...

Last week that is. I tried for it on Tuesday, and they failed me for not having the car in the incorrect gear. Herpderp. But really, it was a careless mistake. He had asked me to back up and I forgot to put it back into drive after I was done. Oh well. I'm trying again on Thursday anyway.---And if you read my last journal, I've decided to go to my friend's wedding instead of the family reunion....

Okay, on July the 23th, my friend, Autumn, is going to get married. I've been super excited for the wedding, and I basically already said I'd go, but haven't officially RSVP'd yet, in case something happened that wouldn't let me go.On that note, my close friend, Mollie, invited me to her family reunion, something I'd promised to go to if there was one I was allowed to go to. It's on the 24th,...

Okay, so I kind of miss mibba. I haven't been on here in...months I guess. I was busy with school, and after school, and then I went overseas for a couple weeks, and now it's summer and I have nothing to do.My last journal was in February so, I guess I'll just fill you guys in.March was the month our school did a production of To Kill A Mockingbird, so everything was very busy. We're a small...

I did a few days ago, and I can't stop thinking about it.I'm not one of those people that believe in things like dreams predicting the future, but it felt so real I didn't feel right all day.I don't quite remember where it started, but I was myself for once (I'm usually someone else in my dreams,) and my boyfriend, Adam, was there. I walked into an auditorium which had a lot of people in my school...

So I'm at school right now during exam week with nothing to. I don't have any tests today, but my math teacher is having a study period in two hours or so for our exam tomorrow. At first, I was sitting in the cafeteria, but we were told to go to our second period class. Turns out, my second period teacher isn't even in her room. So I tried to go to my locker to get my backpack that I keep...

Hi, Mibba. Lately, I haven't written anything.With school work, play practice, and all the drama that's been going on, I haven't had time, nor have I been in the mood. I've had ideas, but I've never had the time to write them. With me, if I don't write them down while they're in my head, I don't write them at all, because I convince myself they're stupid ideas and no one would like them.Anyway,...

Well, these last two weeks have been nothing but confusing, Mibba.I had started to date this boy, after openly expressing how much I liked him, and him openly expressing he liked me as well. Things seemed great, right? Well, wrong. He broke up with me a week later, for what seemed like no reason other than him "not wanting a relationship," and I'm okay with that. We decided to be friends, even...

Today, I put a blade to my skin again, and thought about ending it. But as before, I'm too much of a pussy to do it.It's too hard to explain really, but getting to that point is a horrible feeling; some of you might know what I'm talking about: that feeling where you just don't feel anything, and nothing can pull you out of it.I don't even know what to think anymore. This past week I've gained and...

As the title states, I gave blood for the first time this week. Thursday to be precise. I thought I'd chicken out, but I'm glad I didn't.It was really surreal though; it was a totally new experience for me, because I've never had blood drawn, or any IVs of any kind. It's also strange, when they put the needle in, they say it will pinch, but it's not a pinch. It feels nothing like a pinch. It feels...

Hi, guys.Well if you read my journal from two days ago (if not, you can check it out,) then you might know that I think I'm in love with my friend, Adam.Today, he asked me out.After, three years, he finally asked me out. I said yes, of course, and I've been in a stupid bubbly girl mood since. But I like it.--Today was Dress-Up/Crossover Day. I wore my favorite (and only) dress, and I loved it. I...

My birthday is October 16th. I'll be sixteen years old at 12:10 PM on that day. I feel like I should be more excited than I am.Isn't sixteen supposed to be exciting? Now I get to...What? I get to donate blood with parent permission. That's as exciting as it gets for me.So hardcore, I know.We're going out for sushi on Friday night, because Saturday night we'll be busy packing to go to...

Today was Pajama Day, and I wore my obnoxious pantalones de Dia de los Muertos. My Spanish teacher was thrilled, because she's from Mexico. I'm really pumped for Day of the Day this year. :BTomorrow is 80's Day (or Nerd Day, but that's lame,) and I'm wearing a Kiss shirt that I borrowed from my friend Allison. She's coming over tomorrow morning so I can do her make-up. This is what I'm doing for...

Political QuizI took that quiz, because my friend posted it on her tumblr, and it told me that I am a centrist social libertarian. I didn't know what that meant, because I'm an idiot, so I looked it up.But, basically, it means I'm basically open to anything political, but I want more freedoms when it comes to social things. Or something like that. It's pretty accurate if that's what it...

My friend came over to watch movies with me, but we ended up cooking...Again. Everytime she comes over, we cook something. The sauce was really good, but it's actually for tomorrow night's football game. Oh boy.I didn't eat dinner, so I'm hungry, but it's too late to eat now. Oh well.--Everyone around me has been in a really low mood lately, and so have I. Oh well.I'm working on the next chapter...

So, I'm doing it.Basically this is a whoring journal for all my current projects. Hurray!--Horrid Thoughts with Hard Questions has been updated twice this week. That makes 23 chapters. Oh boy.For those of you who haven't read it yet (seriously guys, read it,) it's about these two cousins that run away to Florida to get away from their abusive/drunken family, and end up in a brothel. Then some...