so im now a divored single mother of a little boy, who is my life, and im going to school full time. everytime i think of Jimmy i wanna break down and cry idk why but lately he has been on my mind. as for school, i have a love hate realtionship with it, i love the people i have in my class and being able to sign to others instead of having to talk all the time, but i hate leaving my son for...

ok people, you all know im preg and married, but honestly i feel like giving up on the whole marragie thing. my husband does even say hello when he walks through the door and when i came back from la this weekend he completely ignored me. all he wants to do is play wit our dogs, eat and sleep. i honestly wonder if damien needs his dad in his life, i mean i know tat he does and all but idk wat to...

so i went to get my sonagram today and i totally thought i was having a baby girl, lol turns out im having a baby boy! i haooy still but eventually i want a girl, hes healthy and very active, five months and im officially a mommy! i also moved from my parents house into a apartment with my husband that is three and a half hours away, its sooo hard living up there, i love my hubby dont get me wrong...

tonight i found out that someone who showed the world how to live through his crazy antics and showed us what the meaning of being a drummer really was has been taken from us far too soon. James Owen Sullivan you taught me and countless others to live life for the moment and to do everything that makes you happy, you inspired me to become a drummer and inspired me to not give a damn what everyone...

in the words of papa roach im fucking sick and tired of being sick and tired! school and work and my family and even some friends are stressing me the fuck out, if i stress i have a sezuire,if i have a sezuire i can kiss my licence goodbye for the rest of my god damn life. the only thing im living for is my ipod, thank the lord for music, my only outlet (i quit smoking arent you proud of me?!) now...