im dying my hair blue

well the tips of my hair blue. :) here is whydusty: you wanna live together, and sleep together, and me pay half the bills, but you dont want a realationship?!?!? not. i want a boyfriend, not A ROOMMATE. so this is for u. if we arent dating then you shouldnt care about what i do. im dying my hair blue., yes this is childish. idc. honestly im doing it for me and damn it feels good not to care for...
June 14th, 2012 at 02:07am

Fear

My little Izzy's finally here. Instead of pure happiness I find myself wondering how we're gonna survive. Dusty wants to move to Oklahoma, away from all of our family. It seems like a possible event for the future but now he's practically demanding we move right now. He's taking a job at Sonic over actually looking for a decent job, He'd rather flib burgers to pay for diapers for his baby then...
March 2nd, 2012 at 01:34am

my worst fear

I don't think he loves me anymore. I miss the old him. We used to cuddle all the time and he used to call me pretty. Now I feel like a bother. Iv learned how to cry at night without making a noise.he doesn't care. He calls me dumb ass and I guess he don't realize how much it hurts.he stares at the tv playing his stupid games and all I can do is watch. He gets so mad and upset. Throws the...
December 16th, 2011 at 12:53am

Happiness is a phase

As im packing your breakfast muffins up and digging through the fridge for the orange juice all i can think about is how much you'll love it. I even put a cute lil love note. I got so excited cuz it reminded me of how i used to brimg you a grilled cheese or a sandwhich. Back when everything was happy. It makes me hopefull that maybe things might actually work out for us. But you call and it all...
August 10th, 2011 at 01:46pm

The best part of "believe" is the "lie"

I was really starting to worry. Pregnant and alone. Confused and hurt. But you stayed. You made me think everything would be okay. You gave me false hope for the future. When i found out i was pregnant i cried for hours. I did not want a kid now. Barely 18 and fresh out of high school. But i accepted it and believed you. That was my biggest mistake, trusting you. You proposed for the fifteenth...
July 26th, 2011 at 01:51am

Hush little baby.

Well its no longer a suspision. I'm pregnant. The father promised me he would be there forever. PFFFT! yeah right. So THATS why I'm looking at adoption papers. I've chosen adoption over abortion. If anyone thinks I did the right thing some praise might be nice because at this point I'm on my own and I'm relying on me and my mibba family. In further depth of the adoption: My aunt has cervical...
July 18th, 2011 at 12:02am

Secrets

The past four days iv been waking up sick. Im late for that shitty girl thing and i think i might be pregnant... God even typing that is scary. Im 17 bout to be 18 and my boyfriend just turned 24. Um.... Wow. Yes i know that sounds bad. And iv hinted that if we ever needed to i would get an abortion and he basically said hell no. And come on even tho i say id get one i could never go through with...
June 17th, 2011 at 05:24am

Over and over again

I find myself looking at his facebook wall.... Making sure he's still ok. Then i see a post. It says "baby i love u" but its not from me. Its from his best friend.... I am shocked. He told me they would never be more than friends. All the times she stayed the night were nothing. The way she hugged him all the time. Little things. And i shouldn't care... I broke up with him. I keep crying. Trying...
May 2nd, 2011 at 11:18pm

Losing Ryry

Almost eight months together. It's been amazing. I love him and god knows he loves me. So why do we fight all the time? And why is it always about the simplest things. Like what music i'm listening to... Or why i'd rather go home then stay at school while he has classes. I'm always telling him to stay awake in class and do his homework, but the fact is he wants to drop out. He has said it before....
January 26th, 2011 at 02:34am

breaking.

best friend of 4 year. boyfriend of 2 years.gone.he said he would b thr for me always... i didnt want 2 hold him back. i let him go.i watched him sign away his life. boot camp for 9 weeks then a 14week 'A school'. in chicago.this will give him oppertunities....chances to see the world...even if he is leaving me behind... it hurts... we walked into the office. he started reciting the required oath...
June 9th, 2010 at 03:36am

this is me. love me or leave me.

why do i seem to find myself in these weird and confusing situations?!?!?!?ok so when i started dating John i was so totally in love with him. i would do anything for him. i truly thought i loved him. at the time i threw away a lot. my hopes of things such as a lip ring and such. so now i might have the opportunity to get 1.amazing! but...john.....would...hate ...it.....so what do i do...i wanna...
June 1st, 2010 at 08:36pm