I haven't written here since August.And tons of shit has happened.My parents died of a murder suicide on September 29th.http://ironmountaindailynews.com/page/content.detail/id/510932.htmlSo yeah, shit sucks.Me and my brothers and sister moved 5 hours away to Sault St. Marie with our older half-brother, Nick.We're all in school and stuff and that's going alright so that's good.And we just moved...

So I think I'm just bummed because my best friend cheated on her boyfriend of two years with a guy I really liked, but I don't know.Every single day is the same old shit. Sit at home, work, or 'party'.All of which are NOT fun things to do.Fuck this town, fuck parties, and fuck casual sex.I really cannot even begin to fathom how people can go and fuck random people at parties, much less why friends...

Day after day and nothing changes.And I'm really ambivalent toward this.I usually strive for change. I crave it. I need it.But lately I've been feeling like the changes that are happening aren't the changes that I want.I want things to work.I want homeschooling and North Carolina and work to be good and everything to just work so I could be happy.It's really not change that I'm craving, it's...

Trust.Trust is good.Trust is bad.Today, my trust in a guy I thought I loved has torn me to pieces.I feel like half of my heart has been ripped out from under my ribs, and I'm underwater drowning, spiraling downwards, inhaling water but still thrashing and holding my chest.Trying to hold those pieces of my heart together.And then,peace.My lungs give out and I bleed.I bleed it all out.Every bit of...

So, I put a link to this on my IAM page, and I have no doubt in my mind that someone has clicked on it, read these, and thought that I was fucking retarded. D:I played maplestory for like eight hours yesterday.Abram called and it made my day.I bought a really cool dress on ebay. xPThis is all just random stuff. :/I probably shouldn't have let Joe borrow my money. :/I want food.I'm losing weight...

I AM SO FUCKING CODEPENDENT.Why can't I be happy by myself?Is it solely because its human nature to be social, or is there more to it?With nearly everyone I come across, I pour my heart and soul into our relationship -whether it be romantically, or as friends- and somehow I always end up hurt.So I've come to believe that I'm fucked in the head. D:I take everything so personally.And with Abram, it...

I haven't been on here in a while, so I figured I'd write something. :]Hmm. I go to a new school now which is good, but I skip WAY too much school, and I kinda think I'm gonna fail. Which sucks pretty bad.I'm still plotting to move to Marquette, since its totally rad awesome there.I kind of don't think I'll ever be fucking content though.I hate the past, yet I see old pictures, I see me happy...

I go to a different school now!Its grand. Band is fun and I still get to go to computers.And I kiss random boys. Its awesome. xPHmm. I don't think I have anything worthwhile to write here as of late.I'm happy recently. I don't want that to change anytime soon.I do smell like chicken though. I should probably go and shower my KFC smell off. Haha.Man, I fucking love Bright Eyes.Man, I fucking love...

So, I am now to be enrolled in a different school, since I dropped out on Tuesday.My parents freaked and said they'd allow me to be enrolled in a different school.So thats kinda okay?I don't think so.Everyone from that school says that they hate it there.If if sucks, I am just going to say fuck it and drop out like I had originally intended.Why is everything so hard?Seriously. I have to fucking...

Why, I do believe that would make me smarter than nearly half of graduating seniors?Mhmm. I think so.My friend told me this today,"You arent running away at all and wanting to be happy isntbeing fucking selfish or childish in the least.You see a faster way out, fucking take it dude!I know dropping out seems like the wrong thing sometimes,like running away, but its not. Some people arent meant...

“You must take personal responsibility. You cannot change the circumstances, the seasons, or the wind, but you can change yourself. That is something you have charge of.”- Jim RohnAlright. This pissed me the fuck off today. Let me tell you what. The stupid student teacher gave us this quote to write about, after we were "behaving badly" yesterday. So she hints about us being "immature" and...

So, me and Ryan broke up. I was relieved at first. But then the whole monophobia thing kicked in and I was feeling shitty. Overall, I think I'm happy about it. I still like him, he still likes me, but we're both fucking stupid and too far away.And he just started to get really annoying. Like, he was just dumb and it pissed me off. Mean, eh? -_-He was cool sometimes though. Gah.So I don't really...

There is nothing to explainRegard each other as you passShe looks back, you look backNot just onceNot just twiceWish away the nightmareWish away the nightmareYou've got a light you can feel it on your backYou've got a light you can feel it on your backJigsaws falling into place"Man, I love Radiohead. xPMe and my boy aren't really like jigsaws falling into place. We're kinda like when you let...

"It's kinda like, when you sit in a hot tub for a while, you know? Its fucking nice. And warm. And good. Then, you get out and someone pushes you into the pool. Its overwhelming. Its cold. Its unwelcome. Its overall not the best feeling in the world. But you get used to it. You adapt.Hey, you know what thats kinda like? When I hang out with my friends that don't fail for a day, then come back to...