My situation.

Randomize.To you~For now, Forget about yours. Put your mind & heart into my situation.And trust, you'll understand how I've been feeling.-It all started with a smile & small conversations. Till it grew to everyday laughs & huge arguments.& till i let you had what you want even if it hurt me. YOU said i was selfish coz i didnt want to give youthe space you asked for. But aren't you...
August 18th, 2009 at 05:10pm

Argumentative.

Ive been having moodswings. I hate it, seriously. I F***** get mad at everyone.I even find reasons to feel upset & disappointed. and guess what ? My brainabsorbs all the of disappointmets from finding all those reasons., Especially my heart.its hard for me to breathe. I wanna scream & yell. Thats what i always say when im angry.Thats the only way i could think of to express what im...
August 13th, 2009 at 04:47pm

everything feels nothing without you.

its hard D ; everything feels so.. nothing. i miss everything.now i realize.. i can't go on without you.It'll be hard for me.i miss you .. D ; mahnnn. come back oreadi !P.s i love you& please come back soon.qwe rty uio pas dfg hjk l;' zxc vbn m,.i have no life .. honestly.km o psjdgf kijsdgvlouie sdljkv;ouhkjbhslahju;ao kiefj/;vjk'pdoirh'oprsorry :P dglstrh;uohser...
July 5th, 2009 at 10:49am

think about it.

im not as strong as i look. And im not as carefree as i may seem.But im as honest compare to before. Trust me. i need you to trust me.i don't know what to say & think. I don't know what you want.You need a break.i can give you if that'll make you feel better.i told you i love you.i want you to know that. I want to make sureyour happy with me. I don't want youbeing with me when your not even...
June 23rd, 2009 at 01:02pm

Tell me you still love me.

i didn't want to hurt you, in anyway. )': I feel horrible.i feel like im not even worth being with. YOur too much to ask.i love you .. i don't ever want to lose you. I told you everythingalready. I have nothing to hide, now i can say that honestly.We were in good shape today .. i just had to ruin it. Im sorry):I didn't know you before, like what you said ...if i knew you before then this shouldn't...
June 22nd, 2009 at 10:31am

why can't it be.

give me a reason. a good one.relationships.. Im currently in it. I wanted this relationships to work. i meanit is working but. we always fight about the smallest things. I know.. i startedeverything. At first, i was too jealous. and selfish. I didn't want you talking toother girls i don't know. But that was before. i didn't want you to lose them.you said you didn't lose them but your communication...
June 16th, 2009 at 01:33pm

Call me it.

Remember this ?: what you don't know , won't hurt you.i told myself, before going into a relationship don't pushyourself to know EVERYTHING. because it will eventuallydisappoint you then hurt you. That's what i told myself beforeand pretty much until now. I don't want to know things that willhurt me. I know i told myself to expect the unexpected. But itshard for me to expect those unexpected...
June 8th, 2009 at 08:16pm

Love moves in mysterious ways.

One thing i learned about love,is when two people are willing to forgive their partnersmistakes, when they are willing to forget their partnerspast relationships, and when they're willing to love &understand with all their heart with no doubts on them.that's my definition of love. & I think im slowly realizingwhat that means. I've been a little insecure and i haven'tbeen telling my...
June 7th, 2009 at 01:53pm

We will fall together.

He makes me the happiest. Don't you think so ? haha, i know so.just him being himself makes me happy.Yuhknow, i've never felt so protected and important before.just these past few 3 months. or let's just say 4 months to be exact.- He doesn't like me hurt. He panics when i cry. He Stays till he gets a hold of me.He trusts me. He's really honest with me. & of corz he loves me. As a matter...
May 29th, 2009 at 05:30pm

From this Moment.

I felt your lips touched mine. I felt it. There was this spark & this so called magic ( :it feels so damn right. i feel like this is it, i can be with this guy till he tells me to go away.then when i looked at him, i told myself this is way too good to be true.but guess what? its true. It wasn't a dream, it was all true. he was mine,he loves me. and im sure i love him too.(more) I still can't...
May 25th, 2009 at 06:46pm

Do you remember you at all ?

Another heart calls.- I always sing that song for the past 2 weeks ( :hehe, reminds me of my stalker<3Anywaysssss, my title for this journal it deals with that guy : P the sexy one.i always think back, way before we became friends & more than friends.He was tooo serious, i barely see him laughing or even smiling.he was always quiet & whenever he talks theres bad words in the...
May 23rd, 2009 at 11:53am

i want it back.

NOT MY HEART. but the way it was , before. It seems sooo different.It seems like we're so far away from each other. and it hurts me, like hell : \i know we can put 'us' again in a situation where we'll be completely smilingand laughing for no reason. i know we can, we just have to start trying reallyhard.. for each other. ) : i want it back so bad. give it back, i want it back.Makes my heart cry...
May 13th, 2009 at 04:53pm

Is it still you?

i don't know what's happening. i don't think i want to know.i still have to know. Is he giving up on me? slowly ?is he having a hard time? am i too much?i don't want it answered. i mean i don't wanna ask ..i might get the answer im not expecting. it kills meeverytime he's irritated. i knew it .. there will always be anegative side everytime i smile or worst, laugh. i don't evenwanna smile anymore,...
May 12th, 2009 at 05:44pm

Spin me around ..

I wanna get the feeling of having the first hug and kiss after not seeingeach other after 2 months. i've never felt it, would i be all excited?or nervous? Anywayssss, just thought of it ( :i miss him, terribly. even though we see each other in school everyday,we still don't spend time with each other that much. .. projects -_-'i don't know it's like somethings missing : P its telling me, 'i want...
May 12th, 2009 at 04:47pm

YOU<3

You see i've been writing all the good and bad things i've felt.Now, it's like i wanna write something so serious ans something like .. me.i don't even know how to start. I always have a hard time writing about my feelings.It's either my journals short or i don't write at all... i have a million things to say or even more..but , i don't know. I can't seem to find the right words to put it...
May 10th, 2009 at 05:39pm

Miss me ?

This feeling .. for himm. . it's so different. it's really deep.Have you ever felt like your on the perfect spot? i'm feeling it .I've been totally busy, i barely talk to him when im at home.he understands my situation. No one ever did but him.he doesn't get mad at me for not talking to himinstead he encourages me to do better.--------.. i love it when he writes in his journal,it motivates me to...
May 8th, 2009 at 06:03pm

..that big shirt ( :

I received a messasge, just today. It was from myLoser. It says .."..You look cute and sexy in a big shirt : P " I SMILED, hardcore^_<Then i kept reading, it says 'Stop smiling : D' .. ..Crazy "little Duude"knows when im smiling and not smiling. O.o how could YOU know ??Oh yea i forgot, YOU'RE WEIRD : D it's okiee sweetie. haha.He's been jealous and over protective.i still don't know if that's...
May 2nd, 2009 at 10:18am

You make me crazier <3

The first time i heard that song.. i smiled and thought of someone so special ...when i read the lyrics .. i thought of the writer. She must be so inspired to write that song ( :ANYWAYS,There's this guy, i think he's really special. He trusts me and i love that about him.I happen to be the girl who gets jealous every freakin time. Buuuuuut, being with himis like everythings there. i couldn't ask...
April 24th, 2009 at 04:59pm

it's been a while.

..Since i wrote my latest journal. in school, it's 4th quarter.& i'm scared i might not hit 'the expectation spot', but at the sametime, i'm pretty confident on everything.. It's because of thisspecial person in my life that keeps me going every single day.He helps me, through everything. and i appreciate that.HMMM : speaking of ' that special person ' he's been doingthe greatest with me. it...
April 19th, 2009 at 07:48am

Do you know how it feels..

When someone has been "sharing" with your time,with your moment for every freakin time it was your turn.WTF !?i don't like this.Can't explain it ..She irritates me , A whole LOT.She & her Best friend have beenso anoyyyyiiinggg, like hell.It's irritating how she talks to him every freakin time.. It's not fair.He treats her LIKE how he treats me.They TEXT & Chat ever freakin time.It makes me...
April 12th, 2009 at 02:55pm