So I never really speak about things like this, not out loud, not to total strangers, nor to people I've known my whole life.. but I'm scaring myself lately and I really have no where else to turn to.I have never really been what you'd call 'Happy' or 'Optimistic'. I can be down right depressing and usually all it takes is even so much as having a conversation with someone to push it to the back...

So, I haven't written a journal in god only knows how long but I can't talk to anyone I know, personally about this so why not take the web.I have been friends with this one girl for thirteen years. We were best friends and I love her like a sister but we are complete opposites. we can never agree on a single thing because we are so different. Once I went away to college things changed, and I...