R.I.P. James Sullivan. I love you now and forever.

I am Audrey V. Sullivan. I'm one of the freaks, the fagots, the geeks, the savages, rogues, rebels, dissident devils, artists, martyrs, infidels. But most of all, I'm just a Jersey girl with aspirations far beyond the state line. I'm lost in an impartial world, searching for a place to call my own. For nothing seems familiar, and I’m just seeking a welcoming someone ready to make sense of everything for me. I’m a writer fueled by hatred of reality. I read to escape to worlds more appealing than my own. I wander around aimlessly, in body and mind, to find the answers to inexplicable questions.

My faults outweigh my merits. I’m a cynic. I’m far too susceptible to depression. I repress my feelings until they boil over and I explode. I withdraw myself from the world. I have impossible expectations of myself and others. I’m a true believer in Murphy’s law as it has so often been proven true within my lifetime. I deal with pain in socially unacceptable ways. I’m reclusive. I’m argumentative. I think too much. I’m obsessive. I‘m paranoid. I speak cryptically. I hide behind false pretenses because I don’t want to scare people off.

There are a lot of random things everyone should know about me. I’ve been a vegetarian for over two years and I’m against ALL forms of animal-cruelty. I’m moving to California the second I can. Avenged Sevenfold literally saved my life on numerous occasions. I’m not ashamed to say I love nerdy things like The Spice Girls and Teen Titans. I’m very intelligent for my age, and don’t like ignorant people. I’m VERY mean to the people I don’t like. If I don’t like you, trust me, you’ll know it and everyone around me will too. I’m very random and hyper once I have a glass of Magical Iced Tea. I like confusing people. I will continue to argue with you even if it is pointless and I am wrong. I will never tell you what’s wrong with me, but I want you to continue to ask anyway. I’ll break out in random song, even though my singing voice sounds like a dying baboon. I don’t give a fuck if you like me or not.


Best Fucking Friends 'Til The End.
Tara. Well, there’s a lot I can say about this one. She’s my best friend and my big sister. She knows exactly what to say to make me feel better. She’s one of the reasons I’m still alive. It doesn’t matter that she’s hundreds of miles away, cause she’s always here with me in heart. We can talk about everything from Lobster hats to why our mothers fail at life. She writes amazingly and gives the best advice ever. Once day she’ll make it as a therapist who break dances with the JC-gnomie on the weekends. I love this girl so much, so if you ever mess with her, prepare to meet one of my very close friends, Mr. Curby.

Aiden, well she might be the size of Johnny Christ, but she kicks major ass. She’s another one of my older sisters. But not the annoying kind that always uses up all the hot water before you need to take a shower. She’s one of the very rare awesome kinds. The one that’s will stay up all night with you eating Hershey’s and almonds while rapping HU with you. She’s an amazing writer, a talent that seems to run in the family, it seems. She’s really fun to talk to, and can help me through anything. And Just like Tara and Patti, I’ll always know she’ll be there for me! Love this girl.

Patti, my only sister I’ve ever met! Patti, my fellow Jersey girl is simply hardcore amazing. She might like a super giant delivered from planet Sullivan but out of the goodness in her heart, she chills out with us gnome-people down here in Bat Country. She’s really fun and can make a simple day at the mall way more fun just by being there. And when she gets her car, me and her are official concert buddies! I love my big sister.

So basically, if you fuck with any of these girls, who mean more than me than any of you can probably comprehend, prepare to get your head shoved in a blender. :]

James Owen Sullivan. Forever will you reside in my heart. you may have passed away, but you will always remain with me, and with a thousand others who you have saved. because, you saved me in ways you don't even know. your music has stopped me from jumping off a rooftops or from swallowing an entire bottle of sleeping pills. you and the rest of your band have been there for me when no one else has. i would do anything to bring you back, even take my own life happily. just so you could go on saving people. but i love you, even if i have never met you. i love you, now and forever.


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