The purpose of this journal is to discuss how I feel about the saying "honesty is the best policy"F**k. It just hit me. At four in the morning and I feel so dumb. Really pathetic, actually. Why do I allow myself to feel this way? The worst part is- I don't think I've crossed his mind more than once. That thought alone hurts. He keeps popping up in my news feed and it's awkward reading his name, it...

Why do you have to say shit that makes me fall harder for you? You're straight. Stop it. I'm actively trying to get over you, but when you say shit like "Maybe you're exactly what I need to be happy," it gets kind of hard letting the idea of you liking me back go. I'll be honest...hearing you say that made me really smile, though I wouldn't show it. I don't know....you really shouldn't say stuff...

My life feels like it's full of wonderful oppertunities. Almost. I'm not under-priviliged (understatement, I know), but it's not like I have it all. It feels like I'm close to having everything that I want, but I'm just not there yet. I'm 2 percent away from an 80 average, 5-ish pounds away from the right weight for my height and it's so frustrating. This isn't even what is fully bothering me.Ok,...

So I just realised my dad just said that a mayor shouldn't win if he's gay. I love my father. He's great. You know....he does so much for me, that I am actually not allowing to hold his hate for gays against him. As much as I find it insulting, I hold nothing against him.You know, sometimes I go back to that dark place. The days where I saw an end, limits and something altogether unworthy of...

I've finally stopped over thinking things and I've finally stopped asking all of my stupid questions. I'm dealing and accepting and it felt great.Here's what I realized:1) I'm not fat by choice, but I'm staying fat by choice because I have the power and capability of losing weight.2) I'm not fake or a liar, but I do dumb things thinking that it's better for others that way.3) I don't think I'm...

I need to unload. Today has been dumb and yesterday was even worse.Kristin said something really funny and really interesting in her journal. Why do we bother giving in so much effort for nothing in return? I know this sounds stupid, but it's for the simple fact that we want to. We're just dreamers and hopefuls in the end, nothing could ever shoot us down. I'm proud of you for not crying to the...

My sister is applying to Grad school, I'm really proud of her for not being a stereotypical (ethnically stereotypical) woman and just getting married.I hate it when I know a good friend of mine has been betrayed. I hate it even more when that good friend of mine is betrayed by another good friend of mine. I don't even know what to do at the moment. I really don't know who to trust anymore at all....

It's funny how I resort to Mibba every time I feel terrible. I don't know why but I can't bear to write anything down that I will regret. with mibba I can write things down forget I wrote them and never come across them again. Just writing things here right now would be the best thing to do. What is the point of living if we are all suppose to die anyways? We just lie and say it's love but what's...

I'm so sick of hearing everyone complain about things that completely don't matter.When you think, you create a world that doesn't exist.Some people surprise me beyond belief repeatedly.I will never know what I should say next to some specific people.I hate communicating, would be much easier if everyone can read my mind.Why does today feel like I woke up at the right side of bed for once?I hate...

it's funny when i look around me and realize how materialistic everyone really is. I'm absolutely no different, if you want to give me anything, I will not say no or ask you to stop! I was just pointing out something that happened a while back, my sisters boyfriend didn't buy her an expensive gift like he always does. She didn't go crazy, but I thought she was expecting more. Then it pretty much...

I love her to death no matter what, no matter what she does, unconditionally. Even if she goes sleep with a guy who is possibly the biggest douche of the universe.your mom might have had a reason for calling you a whore after all. I mean if you're embarrassed enough to tell me yourself. for so many reasons. One reason being you slept with someone your not dating after you told me you loved me....

PLEEEASE READ (because i have said that surely you will not read) *seriously don't read this -_-* *it isn't interesting....SERIOUSLY*i decided that if i don't write something down. I am going to go crazy. I fought with one of my good friends...said something terribly insensitive to another...said something UNBELIEVABLY creepy to another group of friends:) so yes nothing actually happened that was...

I am not generic emo D: NOOOOOOOO.... Eh i saw this coming...*hair flip* Right now I'm listenning to ode to joy, and its a sweet song:) making me all smiley...It's kind of funny the things you can write during different moods...well it's not really funny, it's actually kinda cool... I actually love classical music, It's so unbelievably under appreciated! seriously look up classical music...Another...

wow Am i really as much of a shallow hypocrite that I thought myself to be...I mean I really need to change...I really suck, I want to be able to say everything that is on my mind all the time, but I don't think that that is possible, and I should not do it either..Right now I want to be myself but, my character just sucks :P but sadly everybody else is taken...So you know what accept me for what...

I laugh a lot, and I believe laughing is the best thing to do in life, and that everybody should laugh all the time, but then i laugh at things that shouldn't be laughed at...like friends. Then I just feel bad.. I actually laugh about her existence...Which is completely terrible. Completely. I understand this, but I don't really see how evil I am until I realize I just laughed at something that...

It's weird how we live to strive. We are driven by competitions. We are always trying to prove superiority. Perfection is nothing but hope. That's all it ever will be...We want to be perfect..well who doesn't want to be perfect. I'm also sure that everybody has realized that perfection doesn't exist. Perfection is split up into sub categories called goals, and I guess you will never be able to...

eh i guess I'd take that stupid toys word for it? I mean It's not like I've ever had a conversation with a cow before. Even though that would be sweet. Hasn't anybody ever noticed all we do in life is take another person's words for things? I mean you've got religions, sciences and just pretty much everything else, where you are just expected to take another person's word for it. Of course It is...