Rawrrr143! / Comments

I'm sorry.
Could you possibly find out from a different friend about what's up?

Why don't you talk to her and find out if she is?

It's ok. :]
Things have been bad and good.
How've they been for you?

Haha. Thanks. Sorry for the long absense. x.X

My break was all right. And yours? Do you have any New Year's resolutions?

I PLANNED to study for about 2 weeks, and ended up only studying for a few days. Haha. >.>

Don't worry about at - anytime :)

There is some drama going on at my school with me. I opened my mouth and some asshole heard and told the girl. Now the girl wants to ruin my life. Sounds fun, doesn't it?
Maybe someday I'll meet friends who understand me. I feel as if no one in this entire state understands me. Oh well.

I was going to answer to your journal entry...but for some reason it wont let me so here it goes :)

Try talking to your friend if you feel like you are losing her. Has something happened that means you dont see her as often - I'm going through the same sort of thing but it's been a longer process since she started being home tutored...

At 13 other people are going to catch your eye - nothing will stop that. You can approve of other people there is anything wrong with saying some is cute/fit/hot or whatever you may. Just remind yourself of who you are with and if you truely feel that you dont have feelings for him anymore then end it before you are unhappy.

Everyone argues with family - It's a part of life but if it is getting you down then explain to your mum or dad that you are feeling a little down and they should be patient with you. They will understand.

Look for something good in everyday, notice the little things that make you smile and be happy.

Hope this helps

x

Me too. I don't think I could have survived without a break from that school.
I don't really miss my friends. They're not much of friends anyways so yeah.
It's been going good... But now I'm getting really bored.
How has yours been going?

It's ok.
Thank you. :]
I love being out of school. A long break from school is what I needed.

Happy Christmas~!!

It's ok. You don't have to apologize for school and having a life. Haha.

I have finals after break, which is terrible!! D: But, I guess we get more time to study? [But seriously, would anyone bother to study over a 2-week long break?] =.='

And, how are you?

Haha. So I am not completely alone in this new-people boat.

I love the three of my dogs. They keep me company. :] Although my mom won't let us have anymore cause she claims we have too many.
I'm glad I have no younger siblings. I hear they're a pain. =/ Older siblings are a major pain as well. -.-
It's ok. :]
i always feel like a disgrace to my mom. I'm getting sick of her constant yelling.
She doesn't take these things seriously. I'm always acting happy around her so when I do pour my heart out to her, she thinks I'm kidding. -.-
Lol I yelled that to a pregnant girl one time... Her boyfriend didn't appreciate that. We ended up almost getting into a fight, he got blamed for the whole thing. xD
True. We do have freedom of speech. But that freedom is limited as are all of our freedoms in this lovely country.
I've grown out of my shyness, I never used to speak my mind. Now I do all the time. People tell me they liked me better when I was quiet. ._.

hah, thanks for the journal comment. it made me smile. btw, your layout is super cute! =]

I usually don't eat the meat my mom cooks. It all gets fed to the dog. She keeps telling me I can't be a vegetarian because of the economy. So I just feed it to the dogs without her knowing. :]
My mom is always yelling at me and telling me to just stop doing what I do. She keeps asking me why I can't just be a normal teenager. It hurts a lot. She doesn't see what it does to me.
The only one I trust is too immature and judgmental. She's always told me if I do anything to hurt myself she'd hurt me herself and try to get my mind 'back to it's right state'. That's why I doubt I can tell her anything, she'll run to the counselor about it. =/ I have one friend who cuts as well, she's the only one of my friends who knows I do that to myself.
I get called a heartless bitch cause I feel no remorse for teen mothers. I'm not the stupid one who got pregnant. They're idiots for doing it in the first place.
I always use my voice. My history teacher tells me there is a time and place for everything and that I use my voice at the wrong time to the wrong people. Like I care though.

I'm a disaster to them. I didn't turn out like they wanted me to. Part of it has to do with religion. I'm the only one in my family who doesn't follow the Methodist religion. The other parts are the way I choose to live.
I really hate it when people start acting like that just cause they have a boyfriend. It gets me really annoyed. I don't really talk to my friends about any of my problems, they're either too immature about everything, too judgemental or too much a damn big mouth.
My sister never has to deal with any drama. She's so perfect with everything. My family always compares me to her. I always beg my mom to send me to a different school than her but no, it's too much trouble for my mother.
I find it hilarious. All these little sluts who get pregnant cry when their boyfriends dump them. I have no sympathy for teen mothers.
I tend to voice my opinions and tell people what I think of them. And sometimes my opinions piss people off. :]

I'm not really close with any of my family. Sometimes I wonder why I'm even in this family.
People call me a heartless bitch cause I blackmail others. They deserve to say the least. I use blackmail when I want those little sluts to give me something, they always give it up in the end. I've gotten used to the rumors. As long as the friends I still have don't believe them then I don't really care... Unless they go too far of course.
My sis had an easier time than I did as a freshman, but then again she has practically the whole school in love with her. The seniors this year are horrible. They're always playing pranks on the 'babies' of the school and shit like that. They're so stupid and because of principal has a senior son she won't do anything about the seniors.
They're fake little whores, I've come to realize this. The only reason guys like them is cause they're easy to get in bed. I find it a shame that there are four pregnant freshman, one sophomore, six juniors and two seniors. >.<
Guys don't really mess with me, I'm not sure why. It's just the girls. Girls are catty little bitches. I think I put myself in the target area half the time though. I really should learn to keep my opinions to myself sometimes...

I don't have to share a room with my sister. I'm thankful for that. We'd kill eahc other by the second day. We don't get along. -_-
She is a bitch.
I hate puberty. It sucks. -_- The girls faces are like flawless but that's only cause they kill their faces in products for it. Those products don't appeal to me much. I guess it's good not being noticed sometimes, you find out a lot of gossip and stuff to use as blackmail.
I learned a bit of health in seventh grade, now they're making us retake it in ninth grade. Being a freshman at my school really sucks.

Hi. Thanks for the welcome. :]

I lie to my mom all the time about how I feel. I'm always acting happy around her so she won't have to worry. Thought sometimes I let everything slip through.
My room is like my sanctuary. The only time I'm not in there is when I'm on the computer. Other times I'm always in there.
I try to take care of my body but it doesn't always work out in the end. Sometimes I think I would just be better off dead.
Sometimes I can't help myself. My mind tends to wander to the bad stuff said never the good. I'm always seeing the flaws and never the good. I absolutely hate myself and everything about me. I guess that's why I torture my body so much.
I'm dreading after Christmas break. Cause then I'm forced to switch to health and I've heard from people they make you give out a lot of personal information and a lot of the movies she shows you are pretty graphic. I so don't want to go to health next semester. Plus I hear the teacher is a real bitch.
A lot of the girls at my school look like they could be models, it really does suck being surrounded by them. Not to mention the jealousy you feel everyday. People think it's funny seeing my misery.
Aw thank you. I'm glad someone likes my eyes. A lot of people like my eyes. Guess that's one good thing. :]
I feel like slapping my principal. Her voice is so fucking annoying. Her attitude makes me want to murder her. I all around hate her. She should go back to the fucking elementary school. She used to be principal over there like ten years ago. She should just go back there and leave us all alone.