Do you ever look at a picture and your heart starts bulging at the seams and begins to overflow with feelings of pure love, joy, and happiness and you don't know how to stop it? That is how I just felt when looking at a picture of Cameron and I. He is reaching over to me and his hands are blurry from trying to tickle me with this huge smile on his face that I can basically hear. I love seeing him...

My mom is coping with the fact that I have terminal cancer and is coming to terms and planning on me dieing within atleast the next couple of years, maybe sooner. She has hope in her faith and is okay with it because she believes that she will see me again in heaven and I will be released of all the worldly things. I don't know if you call that giving up or being a prepared realist.My dad won't...

My baby has four legs and black hair. Her name is Lola and she is a golden retreiver/collie mix. I have had her since she was a baby and she is about five to six months old now. One day I woke up and decided I wanted a dog, a puppy. A big dog and not a purse puppy like I used to. For the longest time I haven't wanted a big golden retriever named Marvin. My mom thought it would be good for me since...

My legs started to hurt after a block of walking my dog, Lola. She is a golden retreiver/collie mix and is the only thing keeping me sane right now since I can't drive and have no life. She has always pulled, but today it was extra hard for me to keep her in good behavior because I feel weaker than usual. I broke down and called my best friend and started crying. I hate crying in front of people...

My legs are starting to feel achy. I try walking and they feel better for a little bit, but then it comes back. This is worrisome for me because it means the cancer could be spreading into my spinal cord or something. I have been praying for one more summer and I feel like it is going to happen, but I keep forgetting that even though I am praying for one more summer, I don't know what shape I will...

Him and I are finally walking around with the label and everything after a couple, maybe even almost three, years and it feels great to tell people he is my boyfriend. I feel like newlyweds who walk around using the word husband and wife as if they just won the lottery.Unfortunately, he doesn't feel the same way and hates all the attention. I understand that part too though because I do not like a...

Hi! How are all of you doing on this fine lovely evening? I would like to let you know I am laying in my bed in a pair of monkey feetie pajamas that my Aunt and Uncle sent me from California.Yes. I am eighteen years old. (:I am going to continue from where I left on my last blog. I have a feeling it will all be story tonight again and background and I won't be able to let you all know my deepest...

Hey there! I hope you are all having a fabulous day or night. Let me share some of my story before I start the official blog for tonight. Please don't hate me if I get the chronological order a little wrong here and there. I am literally writing what is on my mind and sometimes I can be a little scatterbrained. It also is all kind of blur and seems like some weird distant dream I had a couple...

This is just a journal about the normal usual thing a seventeen year old journals about, but before I go on, let me set something straight for both you and I. I do not love him. I do not love him. I do not love him. I love him as one of my greatest friends that I can rely on, but not in the I want to be with your forever love. I told myself I was starting to for a little while, but I really don't....

Have you ever just sat in the midle of a room full of people and just listened? No thinking about what was going on in your life, Just 100% listening while your heart longs and aches for the feelings, energy, or talents swirling in the air. it feels like your in a foggy daze and nothing can enter your circle, you almost feel invisible until someone breaks that with a gaze but even a stare can't...

I had no reason to protect my heart.I was so naive, I had no reason to be any other way.There was no reason to not believe every "I love you, baby" and "I'll be here for you."There was no reason to not believe every lie out of your mouth except for the truth locked behind the big, scary doors of reality.I didn't have the guts to open the doors and face reality even though I knew, deep down,...

I'm scared to like you. I don't know what to think anymore. I know what I'm thinking, -it's you- I just don't know if i should and if I shouldn't? How can I not... That's it, that's what it is, I can't not think about you, it's impossible even if I shouldn't, it's a shouldn't that's a have to.You are amazing you brighten up my day with just one word..actually you don't even have to talk you just...