Reach That Far by Eleventy SevenDon't leave me nowmy memories are more than I can take tonightAnd God show me how I'm supposed to trust in things beyondmy sight so teach me how to kneelWhen I don't know how to feelAnd show me where You areWhen my faith can't reach that far.And tell me there is moreTo this life than only what my heart can seeTake all these fears Make them into more thanwho I used...

This morning I had to take my dad to the courthouse so he could take the restraining order off of my stepmom for when he goes into the hospital. My dad is going to die if we can't get him surgery soon. He's falling asleep on his feet because the pain in his back makes it almost impossible for him to sleep at night. He's on so many painkillers that aren't doing anything for him.It's starting to...

My dad has a cyst in his spine and he's in the hosptial right now. It took four of us to convince him to go to the hospital today. He's taking 50mg of Oxycotin and it's not doing anything for the pain. I haven't heard anything yet. But I am so stressed out I'm shaking and hyperventilating. I'm smoking more cigarettes than I ever had it's almost been an hour and I'm almost done a pack.I need...

This message was sent to my boyfriend from his girlfriend...not this one...not me.heyy..look i REALLY dont like being lied to.You said you weren't with Megan anymore..Yet she sent me this like 2 hours ago on AIM"eracer6437 (7:16:19 PM):[Offline IM sent 2h and 54m ago] Katie, this is Jeff's girlfriend Megan. I was hoping you could contact me at some point. Send me an email or something of the sort....

Today I realized that I needed to catch up on the work that I had been avoiding in the Freshman Science class I have been skipping so I stayed after school for an hour and got in one lab that was due and a few other papers as well. I brought home the rest of the work and have almost completed all of it.If I don't pass this class. I don't graduate this year. I've taken this class five years in a...

So our school has this thing where a bunch of medical staff come in and take over half of our gym and kids can donate a pint of blood. Well, I thought I could do it. So I gave blood and the entire time I had my ipod on blaring Jeffree Star because I had to focus on something and he's so funny. When I finally finsihed I went to stand up and almost passed out. I was in there at 1:30 and didn't leave...

So after a day at the mall, I come home and my boyfriends mom, Kathy, turns to me and says,"you smell that?""no. Smell what?""I dunno, it smells like a skunk."well we just shrugged and ignored it. Today...ah today.Everytime I'd walk into a room, my boyfriend, his dad or his mom would kinda crinkle their nose and say "you smell that?"Apparantly, I unsuspectingly walked into the path of a skunk and...

That you could just disappear? Or that you could get in a car and drive away without knowing where you're going or if you'll ever come back and know that there's no consequences?I do. I wish today that I could just forget everyone and everything and just disappear. Tomorrow is my birthday, and my mom and dad are the only two who remembered and so because of that, I'm going out with them for the...

Yea way. I hate it. It's just some day set up by the media because of some couple. But ya know what?I let my boyfriend know that I appreciate him and everything he does for me everyday. So I don't need one day to tell him how much I appreciate him by writing him a poem, or buying him something fancy.Just my opinion and thoughts.Hey hun, I know that you aren't on this site, but I know that you will...

Technically he's not my nephew, but my fiance's nephew. He's still family to me.I got home from school today with my boyfriend, joking around about school and grades and such when we got into the kitchen. Kathy was sitting at the island and told him(Jeffrey, my fiance) to sit down, that she had something to tell him. I knew she wasn't talking to just him, but it was hard to focus on anything, with...

Hey, I was wondering if anyone knew of any good stories that weren't fan fictions.Don't get me wrong, I LOVE to read fan fictions, but I've been reasoning with myself and decided to balance my reading out with some fictions that didn't involve band members/celebrities.Not saying that those stories are badly written because they aren't, in fact I have read some stories in here, that seriously made...

I'm done talking to him about my feelings. He doesn't listen to me and he doesn't seem to want to talk to ME about OUR relationship, SOOO I'm done talking.I'm sick of talking and getting no where. I'm going to just tune the world out. Listen to this:I'm so tired and I can't help itI just want to break down and cryAnd I can't hold it in anymoreThe pain of a broken prideAnd the pain of a broken...

And girls are stupid. Not ok...nevermind. not all girls are stupid. I take that back.Girl who talks to my boyfriend and is the only reason why he decided to stay with me is stupid.She told him to. So he did.What does that say about me?And that's not a rhetorical question, I'm really asking people what that says about me because I want to know why he couldn't have actually talked things out with me...

So I am having such a hard time right now. I haven't touched any pills in the last four days and it feels like it's literally driving me INSANE.I'm trying so hard to stay off of them but the cravings are getting so bad. I can't help but think of taking anything every few seconds, and I'm getting massive migranes because I can't focus on anything and it's just making me a lot more irritable, but...

I think I pulled a muscle sneezing....ok not really but anyways.So I really enjoy this site because I feel like I'm talking to really good friends the way everyone comments and gives constructive criticism and is always there when you need to talk/rant/vent whatever.It's like a miniature family that's always there for you, without the judgement and cruelty.And this is also a shoutout to all the...

"Yea. Get it in ya. Chocolate milk. Uh." Tre Cool"Break the rules." Tre Cool"Alright, who's going to steal the vehicle?" (I think Mike asked this)Tre Cool climbs into the drivers seat of the van and takes off."We might be out of our minds sometimes, but we're fucking smart." TreIn response to the question: Who do you think is the most influential band in punk rock right now?"Us. Duh." TreTre cool...

And let the healing begin.I have this thing going on with my friend Wil, and it's when I make a new promise to him everyday to keep myself off of drugs and I did SOOOOO good last night.I stayed up almost all night watching infomercials to keep my mind off the drugs. I told him this morning, and he was so proud of me. That makes me feel so good about myself, and so I'm going to try harder at my...

Actualy I just wanted to start off by saying that I didn't sleep much last night due to weight loss infomercials. :DAnd when I finally woke up, I ate a cheeseburger.Now..FORWARD MARCH!Not really but yea,I decided that I don't like having a desktop. But that's not the reason for this entry, ok enough blabbing here goes:I am so sick and tired of feeling sick...and well tired. I just keep forcing...

I was sitting at lunch today in Upper Level(which is the top part around the cafeteria) by the stairs, and there was this kid sitting in the Pit(the lower lever that is surrounded by the Upper Level area) and he kept yelling things at people who walked by the stairs on Upper Level. I guess he was saying things to people who were walking by him in the Pit too.Well, Justin, that's the kid with the...

I am hungry. Starving in fact. But I don't care becuase I am so happy.I finally came down from my high. I was shaking and cold and sick because I haven't had what I took in awhile.But I'm good now.And I'm hungry. But I haven't eaten since before I took my "meds".So now I am smoking my cigarette and writing a journal becuase I am finally in a good mood.I'm also fairly exhausted because of said...