if one day u feel lonely, feel like you have nobody, just remember to look back, you will always find me, i will always be there for you. just plaese change the fucken subject and act like theres nothing wrong coz i holding a fucken knife to my rist and i want it so bad coz i caint handel the ppain and i caint stop crying i want my feelings for you to end but deep down i dont want them to ever go...

i always manage to fuck up my life.one thing goes right.thousands of other things go wrong.I'm starting to think i i have no life.I don't deserve a happy life.I fuck all my chances up all the time.I'm just me dreaming i tell myself.but why don't i wake up.I must be awake.coz it some how feels so real.I'm just living in hell.why tho it doesn't seem right.I don't deserve any of this...DO I?why can't...