It's officially been a year. I'm sitting here, wondering why everything happened. I knew when this day came I would not be the same, I knew when this day came I would feel numb probably because I've felt this way for an entire year. I am sitting here contemplating on the past year, and none of it has been easy. I've expressed my confusion or whatever it was in several journal entries, I don't...

I don't even know what it is anymore, I mean I suppose I'm lucky that I am breathing and not being controlled by machines, but things come to a certain point. The point where you are just tired; tired of life, tired of drama, tired of everything. I think I have reached this point, because there is so much I would like to do and I could but I'm so tired anymore all I do is sleep. I think there are...

I don't even know what's going on with myself; I set a goal and try to achieve it but usually end up short. Maybe I should stop doing that and just give myself a daily goal? I don't really know, I had all these plans for this week but nothing is working out like I thought it would.I don't even know what the real thought behind it all is, but I am still trying. I wanna keep my writing going, but...

So this is me putting real effort into posting a journal. I don't really know how many people will see this at 3 in the morning but I'm going to do this anyways. I have been through a lot this week, and it's been freaking hard. Well this whole year has been really hard. I know it's been that way for a lot of people. I already kind of said what has happened in one of my previous journals, but...

I don't know if you can hear me, or what I'm about to say but I just have to say something. Your death had a horrendous effect on my life, and while not your fault, It certainly was the beginning of an adventure I didn't think I could get through, and because of you and the rest of your amazing brothers, I did. I know that this isn't the last of them but for Jenna and myself, this is uber...

I'm really hurt by this comment left on my website Midnight Poison. This person asked if I was fighting with whomever was co-writing Misery Loves Company and or Learning to Fly.First off, the answer is Not in a million years. Because, those stories are written with two of my best friends. Misery Loves Company is written with my friend Kismet, known to me as Missy, and or Jimmy, and she's my rock...

I really don't know how to start this journal but to say, that I'm extremely annoyed with all the journals and what not talking about fan-fiction, especially Avenged Sevenfold fan-fiction, what does it matter if people write it? So it may not be the best writing out there, but it's a way for their fans to respect them, in a manner of speaking.And sure, we all wonder what it would be like if the...

Okay, so I just found out Avenged Sevenfold is touring again. Despite Jimmy's death, I am really happy because it's just amazing. I am so happy that they are still going on, which is what I know Jimmy would have wanted. Anyways, I know no one really knows me, but ever since Jimmy's death my life has gone to shit in all honesty.I honestly don't give a crap who reads this journal, and I'm just going...

THE AVENGED SEVENFOLD BIBLEM. Shadows puts the "laughter" in "manslaughter".Synyster Gates can slam revolving doors.The chief export of The Rev is pain.Johnny Christ counted to infinity...twice.Zacky Vengeance can divide by Zero.They say that lightning never strikes the same place twice. Neither does M. Shadows. He doesn't have to.The grass is always greener on the other side. Unless M. Shadows...

Ugh. I don't know what to do, I have a lot of stories.See here's the deal. Steal My Heart, my story about Edward Cullen, I love it right? So I started a Jasper Hale story branching off of that story, well my heart's honestly into it. Not that I don't like Jasper, but I'm getting so burnt out on Twilight it's not even funny.I don't want to write a crap story because my heart isn't into it, but at...

I've been feeling A LOT of stress lately, and it really sucks. Writing is the one constant thing I have right now to keep my mind off the other shit that's bugging me. Though I'm not as depressed as I was, I almost walked out on my job today, which takes a lot for me to even think about in the first place. Mostly work has been stressing me out, but my mom is sick too and I live hours away from her...

i'm always hungry, my stomach seems to be an endless pit.i'm totally hot about robert pattinson, even though my boyfriend is amazing.i love twilight, but the movie really dissapointed me.i wanna write a novel.i miss daniel jennings, the guy i had a crush on in high school who i'm still friends with.i said i was going to watch a movie, and haven't done it yet.my favorite song of all time is wicked...