Did you ever feel like you've just ruined everything? Ruined the most important part of your life? Ruined it so much that you feel that you might as well just forget about your happiness? I did. Until it all came back to me, but with a catch. Basically, after a year and a month of being happy, i panicked! It struck me that somewhere in my perfect world something would go wrong, and my happiness...

January 12, I lie in bed, reading. As my eyes read the words nothing seems to collect. My mind is elsewhere. The previous night was spent a worry. As she stumbled through my bedroom door, I ran and asked desperatly for help. It wasn't the stroke that killed her. She was so happy. Had many luxuries in life, always wanting more. I'd give anything to give her all that now! I love her so much. The...

How come when something goes wrong there's always a missunderstanding tied in with it somewhere. It could be anything from diagnoses to missunderstood hearings, but i know that nearly all of the arguments i have with Corey* have someting to do with a missunderstanding. It's not always anybody's fault. It could be a rumour that somebody spread and it got more elaborate as it was passed from person...

Have you ever felt so safe in somebody's arms that you feel indestructable? So safe that you think you can jump off the highest of cliffs and do the most thrilling things just because that person is there for you? I'm like that all the time. The minute he wraps his arms around me, i feel safe, i forget everything, where i am and what i'm doing. I have this habit, i rest my head on his chest and...

I hate her. I don't know why anymore. It used to be jealousy, until i realised that what i was jealous for was only a useless peice of shit! He only used me! I got my payback though. Without even realising it! I always do!.. But her. I've always hated her anyway. When i wasn't jealous, when i had exactly what she wanted, I'd smile, this fake sarcastic smile, almost threatening. He had no idea,...

Okay, I worry way to much! Over the smallest of things. Be it whether people like me, or even something as small as whether i'm going to be home on time for my favourite tv program! Not matter what i always have something to worry about. However the biggest thing that i find myself worrying about is relationships. so many unanswered questions run through my head during relationships. "Does he...