Violent thoughts rip out of my metaphorical womb."Pick me! Pick me!"Each one promises to make me happy."Everything will be better if you just punch a hole through that wall.""Hurt that girl. She causes you so much emotional pain, she deserves some physical pain from you. It's only fair.""No, no. Don't hurt another person. Hurt yourself. Cut! You'll feel better.""Don't you dare cut unless it's the...

Are you there, God? I think you are. I went to church today. I felt you. Please God, if you hear me bring me back to reality. I lost my grip, and I'm sinking back into the black abyss of depression. Why won't anyone talk to me? What are you trying to teach me? I am so incredibly bored, and angry, and paranoid, and frustrated. Like usual. God, why? Why do I always feel like this? What am I doing...

(The old story I'm referring to is "What The Devil Doen't Know")I don't think anyone has read in awhile, which is cool. I never update, and I hated the beginning. But now I'm in a creative writing class, and I'll be putting my material up on here.I really didn't like what I had done with this story. It wasn't quite right, and I want it to be perfect, because it's my pet project. So if you liked...

I thought I would go to the soup kitchen with my grandma, then meet up with some girls to work on a summer English project.WRONG.The moment before I go to the soup kitchen,my mom remembers I have a physical right then.I break down.I chew my hands raw, I cry. This was not in my plans today. This was not part of my schedule. How will this affect my food plan?We get to the office, and I can't stop...

I haven't got the slightest clue who I am any more.I have a new personality every half hour.Last night I hallucinated that there was someone hovering above my bed, beating me. Always beating. She screams at me, she hits me.-YOU AREN'T GOOD ENOUGH! YOU STUPID, STUPID UGLY BITCH!-I can't be that awful, right?-YOU PIECE OF SHIT.When I realized what was going on, I was in a fetal position in bed,...

Quite honestly, I feel really restricted here. I don't want to use the word "dictatorship", because I specifically read that if I used it against an admin I would get banned. Don't get me wrong, I'm all for respecting each other, but let's not be hypocrites. If we have "free speech to an extent" is it really free speech? Yeah, it's good to try to be unoffensive, but seriously. As on most sites,...

Ok so I FINALLY updated my story. (What The Devil Doesn't Know)To everyone who reads it, subscribes, whatever, I'm sorry it took so long to get part 2 of this chapter up.I started school on Monday, and I've had no time for this. But now I have a three day weekend, and I'm hoping to write everyday.So keep reading!I also want to say thank you to anyone who actually reads it. It means a lot to me, so...

So my step dad tells me that I'm putting all these dents in my car, because I get my bike down from the ceiling where he hung it. He's pretty pissed off, whether he admits it or not. I tell him I really don't have any other option, since I can't drive I have to get the bike down to go anywhere. He tells me I should have just asked him to leave it down, or ask for a ride. The problem is, if he was...

So. We're on chapter 9, yes 9, of What The Devil Doesn't Know.It still isn't to my favorite part yet, so keep reading.I love comments. Tell me what to fix. Give me suggestions. Thats why I post on Mibba instead of just writing. (plus I get less cramps:))Anywayyyyyy.As for the personal life, which I bet you're DYING to hear about ('twas sarcasm)School starts for me on Monday. I'm going to be a...