Power Behind Words

Okay I’m going to take a few minutes to say something.There are three things that have been said to me over the past couple months that are not acceptable.1. “You’re an idiot.”2. “Do you have to buy your friends?”3. “You play victim a lot.”Here’s the thing, the words you say that might not affect you but have an affect on someone else. The words you say, hurt and can do a lot of...
October 16th, 2012 at 06:22am

“How can you be depressed? It’s Disneyland!”

It’s true. I spent a majority of yesterday depressed. Hell I even starting crying in one of the bathrooms pretty early on in the day.Honestly, I did have a wonderful time. I felt honored to have Kelsey with us to be our tour guide and show me her baby as I screamed bloody murder on it.But the first half was pretty much shit. To tell the truth, I didn’t even want to go in the morning. I almost...
October 14th, 2012 at 06:30am

What is a Person Worth?

What is a person worth? Honestly?During the time after my mom’s death the people of Risk Management up at the U asked me this. Asked me how much money do I think it’s reasonable for my mom’s death? What kind of question is that? Is that all we are worth? $75,000 dollars?The answer is no, my mom is not worth any amount of money but something more that can’t be measured. But in this world...
August 8th, 2012 at 02:13am

Here's To New Dreams & Burning The Old

I’m finding myself awake at four in the morning rocking out to Craig Owen’s voice and I can’t seem to get my mind to shut off. I’ve spent the past few months like this and I’m beginning to wonder if I should go get some sleeping pills. Going to bed at six in the morning and getting up at one pm is not healthy. I really need to flip this schedule around.Though I have decided I’m slowly...
June 24th, 2012 at 12:18pm

Daugtry Live & Dislocated Shoulder For Doug Brown of SafetySuit

So as some of you know, I went to Daughtry tonight. Words can not describe the amount of fun I had.The venue wasn't really a venue, you locals that follow me should know Abravanal Hall, but those that don't its a huge concert hall that looks like some opera house/theatre used in Phantom Of The Opera or something but it houses the Utah Symphony and the Utah Opera. So I was a little hesitant because...
June 6th, 2012 at 10:40am

The rant that is supposed to make me feel better but doesn't

“We both know the closest you’ll ever get to humanity is when you rip it open and feed on it”Alright. So I’m not okay. Which is normally pretty common for me but lately it’s been taken to a new level. I never thought I knew real depression till now. I have been through quite a bit and it came with its fits of depression but this was different. I mean, I’ve been stupid in my past and...
December 30th, 2011 at 07:16am

Another jumbled rant to get those evil emotions out.

Maybe I'm just crazy. Or maybe I’m just fucked up like half of the other individuals on this damn planet. I don’t know exactly where I stand on that but hey, I’ll take what I can get. Though the part of me is beginning to wonder if the line between not know where I belong and where I fit in seems to be spreading apart becoming thicker. It’s normal.It’s a pattern I’m used to when it...
November 20th, 2011 at 01:11am

Earthfest 3: A Night of Epic Bands With Sharpies In Hand

Alright. So last night was Eartfest 3 in SLC.I had THE best time. I got a total of 17 autographs including from my sweet Gabe Saporta.I met Gabe Saporta, Alex Suarez, Nate Novarro(I OWE HIM SO MUCH XD), Brogan Kelby, All Time Low, Sabi, Downtown Fiction, and Martin from Boys Like Girls. He couldn’t stay but he stopped to say hi.Meeting Brogan KelbyAfter there set we got a photo with Collin after...
June 5th, 2011 at 04:59pm

The Social Network Break Up

So, my girlfriend cheated on me near our two month mark.Guess how she told me.Facebook.Yeah, I know. How lame do you have to be to do that (Yeah, I’m still angry about it)? And this isn’t the first time someone has told me they’ve cheated on me on Facebook. Go figure. XDSo she posted on her wall:I kissed William. Jess, i wouldn't blame you if you're pissed at me.12 hours later on my wall:I...
May 9th, 2011 at 07:21pm

What does MCR, Neon Trees, Gabe Saporta and birthdays have in common? Me.

You know six hours is a long time. I’m not going to lie. And when you’re sitting and its snowing/raining around you with freezing wind you pretty much want to give up everything and just call it a night.Nope. Not me.I decided to stick it out and wait in line for a concert.Not any concert.THE concert of my life’s wildest dreams: The Architects, Neon Trees, and My Chemical Romance all together...
April 11th, 2011 at 10:19pm

Rant From Last Night

Alight, so here I am watching Ghost Adventures and laughing at Aaron’s behavior and how easily he is scared. I love shit like that.I saw I Am Number Four today. It was pretty good actually. I was kind of surprised. I didn’t think it was going to be as good as it was. I mean it wasn’t the best movie in the world but it was alright. My friend took me today and I was glad to hang with her. I...
February 20th, 2011 at 10:13pm

Tired As *** And Stepping Away From The Ledge

(Brendon Urie)You know something?I’m tired.Like seriously fucking tired.I can’t remember the last time I had a decent night of sleep.Though, when I do get to sleep the dreams are enough to stick me in a metal hospital. LolI’m not going to lie.I’m fucking stressed.To the MAX.If it’s not one thing….its another.Now don’t get me wrong. I know complaining is bad. But I feel better when I...
August 11th, 2010 at 06:21am

Lunatic of a god or a god if a lunatic?

******************Who ever said failing is a good way to learn things needs to be shot. Seriously.I HATE falling. Especially in the middle of the road when the road has an inch of ice on it. So me being the natural klutz biffed it and nailed my head the first time. Not so good. Then of course the second time I biffed it and hurt my back and my bad arm.Those discs? Not so happy with me.Sitting?...
December 9th, 2009 at 06:36pm

"You're the guy I'd be stupid to trust."

Alpha’s P.S.1. “You’re a nice girl.”2. Pass.3. “You can ride to the top, but you can’t ride on my cock.”GABE SAPORTA YOU DIRTY BASTARD!(#3) I should was your mouth out with soap. Now the question is: how the hell do I get all the way up there? The guy is huge!*Gabe and Ryland mentioned in an interview with tvguide about how they are both 6'3'' and the bunks on the tour bus are only...
September 3rd, 2009 at 11:31pm

"It Breaks My heart To See..."

Alpha PS:1. Shyla! I’m tired of waiting!!!!!!2. Tim(from the band June)? Why do you do such things?3. I think I’m going to drop some of my husbands(inside joke)4. New perspective came out! *cries* I want it!So IE died yesterday and well, I lost my blog. I’m rewriting it now. Not that I want to but I probably should.I usually don’t take about my home life to my friends. Most of the time, I...
August 22nd, 2009 at 06:13pm

"Not Long Before You Came Along."

Alpha's P.S(Pre script):1. "Fuck you Gabriel Eduardo Saporta" I love you Shyla! I really do...but hurry up! I wanna read it! Its for me anyways!!!!!!2. "In the plainest most simple words:Fuck yes!" I'll start it soon Shyla.3. Eric: just dont stab me in the backAlpha: as long as you don't play me as the foolSo, hmm second entry here. Maybe I'll make this one longer. Or maybe shorter. I don't know...
August 22nd, 2009 at 06:10pm

"Everything I promised everyone I'd be, well I just ain’t"

Meh!Too hot to really think of anything other then snow. Sadly, I think that made me hotter. Will this torture ever end? *cries* Yet, I now the answer to that question, “Why, yes it will. After these next to weeks it will decline.”Stupid Alaska and their high 60’s!Well, I woke up at eleven and by eleven thirty I was out of bed. Did the usual routine with the animals and headed to sit down....
July 19th, 2009 at 12:46am