My heart is in a pickle. i cannot feel like im doing the right thing, when so many things go wrong with my choice. i cant leave them, i cant. my heart is bleeding, im pleading, what do i do? leave them or do whats best for my future. I love them. they make me smile. my best friend is coming with me, which helps, but i still dont know if its the right thing. everything is so confusing in this thing...

Sometimes its so hard to think that people actually care. I feel hurt most of the time, and cant find a way to get around it. People say they love me, but hardly do they show it. All i ever wanted was someone to love me like i love them. They tell lies all the time, they dont think im strong enough to handle the truth. You have no clue how ready i am. The truth may hurt, but all the lies hurt...