I hate myself and my body and who I am, yet how I do not know because I can't even figure out who I am.I don't want to fight anymore I feel disgusting and hideous. I'm 106-7 lbs of uglyness and that repulses me.People are noticing I've gained weight which makes me realise that I have and make me freak out even more. I broke down in tears today when my friend told me I looked like I put on a bit of...

I feel like I don't stop eating! I am constantly wandering into the kitchen and grabbing things to eat!It's just one thing after another and I feel like such a pig. Like for example I had my evening snack then I went and ate cereal out of the box and then a few pretzels and then a few bites of my mums concoction of vegan icecream with crunched ginger biscuits, banana and golden syrup. Yum but it...

Things since my doctors appointment have been going good, I have gained another 2lbs since then. Never has my weight gain been so fast! lol. I am panicking a little but I just keep my mind off it by distracting myself.Stopped myself from restricting this morning, I found I was doing the old thought processes so I chucked extra jam on my toast to show my ED I am in control not him.I realised when I...

I used to have it all and I loved life, family and friends then slowly that changed as I slowly declined. I became depressed and at first comfort ate as a binge eater then I skipped meals surviving on one meal a day which was never over 400 calories. I sometimes ate nothing at all and just drank diet coke and that was it. I was so ill and absorbed in my own head and hunger pangs were something I...

Dear Mibbians,Urgh! Science was hell yesterday! There's this girl right?...Lets call her Shelly, and she has always had a problem with me since sixth grade (Year 7 or whatever). She does EVERYTHING she can to make my life a misery! She's called me every insult under the sun and turned EVERYBODY against me at one point. I really don't understand her problem with me.Anyway yesterday she was doing...

Dear Fellow Mibbians!I seriously hate being a girl.I am not kidding.I envy men so much.Really I do.Why do we get all of the uncomfortable crud. I'm in pain and I am supposed to go to school but my stomach is killing meh. =(Also I have had FIVE nights of barely any sleep. I can't go to school today I need to curl up and sleep for five days straight to catch up. =(Sorry about the rant above just...