To sum up my loss
I had always wished to be a boy,
but no
i had to be a girl.
I had always wished to be happy,
but no
happiness is a virtue.
I had always wished to be famous,
but no
not when i wasn't allowed to display my talents anymore.
I had always wished to be rich,
but no
people pick on me coz i express myself.
I had always wished to go out with a caring boy
but no
he doesn't date my type
I had always wished to marry a loving husband,
but no
beating and abuse is a gene every man i met had.
I had always wished to be the wife of a heroic father,
but no
children were toys to him.
I had always wishes to have a good job which'll lead to a career,
but no,
nobody hires bisexuals or 'emos'
I had always wished to grow up with lifelong friends,
but no
they killed themselves before i had a chance.
I had always wished to die in my sleep peacefully,
so yes,
i've swallowed my 32nd pill in the last 2 minutes with a shot of ammonia.
I wish i hadn't done that.
but no
i had to be a girl.
I had always wished to be happy,
but no
happiness is a virtue.
I had always wished to be famous,
but no
not when i wasn't allowed to display my talents anymore.
I had always wished to be rich,
but no
people pick on me coz i express myself.
I had always wished to go out with a caring boy
but no
he doesn't date my type
I had always wished to marry a loving husband,
but no
beating and abuse is a gene every man i met had.
I had always wished to be the wife of a heroic father,
but no
children were toys to him.
I had always wishes to have a good job which'll lead to a career,
but no,
nobody hires bisexuals or 'emos'
I had always wished to grow up with lifelong friends,
but no
they killed themselves before i had a chance.
I had always wished to die in my sleep peacefully,
so yes,
i've swallowed my 32nd pill in the last 2 minutes with a shot of ammonia.
I wish i hadn't done that.