The car crash

The last thing I remember hearing,
was the glass shattering.

The last thing I remember seeing,
were the red lights coming from the ambulance.

A couple of hours ago I remember seeing,
the doctor walk across the room and then walk out.

A couple of hours ago I remember hearing,
the machine next to me stop beeping.

Now I clearly see,
that you're not besides me,
Why are you in the other room?

Now I clearly hear,
people cry and wonder
Why did you have to leave?

There's one thing that they don't know.
something you never wanted them too.

Maybe you felt guilty for
hurting me and did this
to take the pain away
from me and you.

I hate my self for letting this happen to us,
even if you said you didn't want me as your own,
anymore.

I loved you and hated you at the same time,
but flying over the bridge wasn't the answer.

Now I see and hear all the times,
we enjoyed together,
thinking that you loved me,
going through my mind.

Did you really want to leave me that bad,
that you had to die, or was that an accident?