you and my thoughts

you were that boy that was always just a friend . never anything more. ionly saw you as that kid that ive known forever.and i though ofyou never. you never stood out to me.when i pictured my crush you were the one i didnt see. but years late. like it was true fate. i saw you that night. like a brave eagle in flight. when i hugged you tight. i gained my sight. i knew you were the one. the kind woman's son. i told you soon. i must have sounded like a loon. we emailed with love. pure as a white dove. but when our eyes latched, my stomach catched. i felt so sick. i dumped you quick. i must have broken your heart. a quick as my feelings start. later the next year, i lost my fear. i always knew. i never stopped liking you. i told you again. i hoped you would be fain. but you had moved on. no more of a love song. i never slept, instead i wept. i havent seen you for long. i wish i could sing along. and as i said too. i do... still love you.